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i remember adults telling me, as a kid, to listen to doctors and get my flu vaccine and any shots i could because they remembered Before.

then they started fighting Covid precautions.

i remember adults telling me, as a kid, that the ozone was disappearing and the earth was dying and we needed to recycle and save the planet.

now my parents think climate change is a myth.

i remember adults telling me, as a kid, that racism was a plague, that we had to love and accept everyone, that we should never judge before walking a mile in their shoes.

then they told me that protesting for my Black siblings was wrong.

i remember adults telling me, as a kid, that we needed to give to the poor. working at soup kitchens. making quilts. collecting food and money and supplies. building houses. because it was the christian and just plain right thing to do.

now they look at me, on food stamps with their grandchildren, and lament the "welfare state".

i remember adults telling me, as a kid, that it was easier for a camel to pass through the eye of a needle than a rich man to enter the Kingdom of Heaven and that any rich man, especially an immoral one, should never run our country.

you can guess who they voted for.

i remember adults telling me, as a kid, so very much.

when did they forget?

Mistakes i made during my manifestation journey (part 2) :

• Victimizing myself :

Victim mindset can hinder your manifestations drastically. It can affect your mental health a lot. During my journey, my one of the biggest mistake was that, i was continuously victimizing myself. Whenever something unwanted happened in my 3D, i immediately used to react to it negatively. I used to consider myself a victim. I used to question myself why life is so unfair to me and all that stuff. But you know what, i was completely wrong! My dear, life is never unfair, remember that. The only reason you're feeling it like that because you're letting yourself feel that which you should not. You should be proud of yourself, because instead of giving up, you're wanting a change for yourself and that's more than enough to feel immensely proud of yourself, i promise. Stop giving your power to 3D. Remember you're not a victim, you're a God which is the most powerful being here. you're the one who NEVER fails at anything.

• Seeking validation from others :

I got to realise that we should stop seeking validation from external sources, it's a MUST! If you're not confident in yourself, how can you expect some other person will make you believe something which you yourself deny or don't have any faith in! I mean, at the end of the day, it's only YOU who can assure you anything and not somebody else. If you don't trust yourself much and not feeling proud enough of yourself, how can you expect somebody else to make you feel proud? Whenever i was feeling low and less motivated, i used to hope that somebody will come and tell me they are proud of myself but there's where i went wrong. The real assurance comes from within. Until you believe in yourself without anyone's assurance, nobody can make you fully believe about anything. So STOP SEEKING VALIDATION FROM OTHERS AND LEARN TO TRUST YOURSELF! Once you fully believe and trust yourself, you will never ever want to seek validation from others because your trust in yourself will be enough. Nobody can fully make you proud of yourself until you do it by yourself by assuring yourself that YES I'm proud of myself and i deserve the best! Ask yourself, do i trust myself? Do i depend upon others to build up my faith? What if one day, there will be no one to assure me anything, will i be able to assure myself and fully believe what i say to myself? Etc. Find your answers and change yourself accordingly! Remember, At the end of the day, what matters is what you say to yourself and not what others say to you.

• Not feeling good enough and worthy :

I swear it's one of the biggest problem we face. First of all, let me ask you, what lead you to the conclusion that you're not good enough, you're not worthy and deserving enough or bullshit like that? Idc what you say, but i fully believe that YOU'RE GOOD ENOUGH. YOU'RE WORTHY. YOU'RE DESERVING. YOU'RE LOVED. And i swear I'm gonna scream that till death. Idk what you have gone through and who you are but i swear, you're good enough. You're good enough and you have the potential to manifest anything you want, believe it or not. Stop comparing yourself with other's life! It's their life and its yours. And if you're waiting for the day when someone will come and will magically make you believe that you're good enough and worthy, sorry to say but you have to do it by yourself. Nobody's gonna make you believe that if you don't believe that yourself. The only reason you're feeling miserable and not good enough is because you're letting yourself to do that. If you want to change your life, start believing in yourself that you can and you do have what it takes to achieve it. Idc even if people say otherwise, it's not their life, it's yours, here you know yourself better than anyone, just because somebody told you you're not worthy makes them the one who's actually not worthy enough.

• Caring what others think :

So, you're telling me you're scared what people will think when you do something you want? First of all what others think doesn't matter. The second thing is that what others are thinking and telling about you is what you're thinking about yourself and letting them to think. Everyone is you pushed out, right? So, what you're thinking about yourself and what you're thinking about the way people will tell, think and react to you, that's what you gonna get. If you're thinking people will react negatively, then that's what gonna happen. That's why stop caring what others say and start caring what you think to yourself.

• Following what others are doing :

Just because others are following a certain way to manifest doesn't mean you have to as well. Everybody has their own journey, you don’t have to follow them completely. What i mean is, some prefer manifesting through Affirmations, some through Visualization, or even some through all methods, etc. Just because they prefer doing so, doesn't mean you have to follow that specific way in order to manifest. If you prefer Affirming rather than Visualizing, then do so. Just because others do Visualizing, doesn't mean you have to as well. You make your own rules, remember that. Only you know what works best for you, if not, figure it out. Do what's comfortable to you and what feels right to you because after all, it's your journey and not others, and here you make your own rules for your own life. If you assume you can manifest by affirming only once, then that's what will work for you, you don’t have to affirm thousand times just because somebody told you to, but you absolutely can if that's what you assume to work for you. Remember, as you're the God, you don't need to follow anyone, but ofcource yeah you can take advice and learn from them but at the end of the day, it's upon you, what you will assume, that's what will work for you.

• Not loving myself :

If you're not loving yourself, how can you expect somebody else to love you? I won't elaborate much about it because I'm assuming you all already know the importance of loving yourself. So this is gonna be a reminder to start loving yourself if you haven't already. Love yourself. Be kind to yourself. Reward yourself for what you do. Thank yourself. Be proud of yourself for who you are. Make yourself your top priority. Appreciate yourself. You're loved. You're perfect the way you are, you always were. I love you sm! <3

• Running away from my situation instead of facing them :

Now i must say it's my biggest problem. As i used to not feel good enough and all that stuff, i was always running away from my problems instead of facing them as a way to escape. I used to find an escape so that i won't be able to face them because i was scared of facing them. I was scared of failure. But throughout my journey, i learnt that we must not run away from our situation, instead we should face them. We should face them with confidence. Instead of running away, we should dare to face them fiercely. Then only we learn in life. If you're scared of taking that first step, then i want to tell you, go for it, don't run away, face them, i swear it's gonna be worth it. If you're wanting something, don't stop until you get it. I realised failure is never an option, it's either a win or a lesson. Stop procrastinating and start working to make your dream life your reality.

These are some of the most important lessons i learnt in my journey. If you're doing any mistake i mentioned, I highly encourage you to start working on changing that and make yourself better. Start acknowledging your mistakes, weaknesses, and whatever that's holding you back and start working on them. I will repeat again, start working on making yourself better, i swear it's all gonna be worth it.

Find what's stopping you from manifesting and achieving your dreams.

Is it Procrastination or laziness or Anxiety or poor time management or what?

Explore yourself and find out what's stopping you from manifesting your dreams. What's stopping you from having that mindset with which you can manifest your dreams? What's actually stopping you? After you find all your weaknesses, limitations and all the things that are holding you back from manifesting your desires, now start researching, start working on them, ask yourself how can you stop them? What's the best solution? What are the necessary steps I need to take in order to manifest and achieve my dreams? Research about it, work about it. After you have all your answers, now start working on solving them. Take small steps but put the efforts no matter what. Try to solve them. Try to change that old mindset which you always had. I must say, in order to become a master manifester and to make your dreams your reality, it all starts and ends with your mindset. If your mindset is perfect, nobody can stop you from manifesting and achieving all your dreams. So, find out what's actually stopping you. Where you're going wrong? And then immediately start working and changing it. Do it slowly by taking small steps but do it. Remember, everything becomes possible for you if you have the right mindset. Identify your problems and start working on them, NOW!

𝑻𝒉𝒆 𝒅𝒂𝒚, 𝒘𝒉𝒆𝒏 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒇𝒊𝒏𝒂𝒍𝒍𝒚 𝒔𝒕𝒂𝒓𝒕 𝒕𝒐 𝒍𝒐𝒗𝒆 𝒚𝒐𝒖𝒓𝒔𝒆𝒍𝒇, 𝒎𝒊𝒏𝒅 𝒚𝒐𝒖, 𝒕𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒅𝒂𝒚, 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒘𝒊𝒏.

♡︎♡︎♡︎

Fall in love with the process of becoming the best version of yourself. 🤍

You're more powerful than anything else in this Universe. You're the God of your reality. You can have, be & do anything you want. Nothing is impossible for you. You're limitless.

Do the hardwork that's needed but never forget to enjoy your every moment to the fullest. Have no regrets whatsoever. 🤍

Whatever you're grateful about, will stay with you always. 🤍

"Stories can cross the barriers of time, past, present and future, and allow us to experience the similarities between ourselves and through others, real and imagined."

— Andrew Stanton, PIXAR screenwriter, from his TED talk: The Clues to a Great Story

KARMA.

“I’m a free spirit,” she said,

No, bitch, you, are spirit free.

Knocking the wind out of me,

as you always pretend to be,

A source of positivity,

while making my insides feel dead.

I will now and always dread,

this incoming storm I’m forced to dredge.

You love talking shit behind their backs,

yet act like you are holier than thou.

You should keep in mind even Hell has standards,

and not even there you’ll be allowed.

Incapable of accountability,

but you sure love to share your account,

“It’s not gossip if it’s true!”

I can write a book with the truths about you.

But you wouldn’t like that much, would you?

If I openly called you ‘a little bitch?’

I was only ten when you ran around town,

At age 35, tarnishing my image.

Now you’re old and look like a handbag,

But don’t flatter yourself; you don’t look like Coach.

For some reason your still with him,

And in that house like a roach.

But now you hate your job, and your mother in law,

You’re start regretting what you made your heart of,

FYI It’s stone, and I got another five letters for you,

It’s one word: Karma.

LOVE, DEAR ABBY

I will never beg you to stay

When you and I know you’ll just walk away

BAND-AID

Call your new toy by your pet name for me,

insist that that’s not how that is but I see,

I caught you red handed as you replaced me.

It was plain and simple, Destiny.

Pretend that you’re pure and that you share love,

But I know how to tell when looking at one,

You’re unstable and you blame everyone.

No wonder you’re so lonely in Edmonton.

Claim you don’t take sides yet turn and ‘campaign’,

To get others to leave me, but with you to stay,

The fact that it’s not real, that’s really the shame.

They’ll leave you one day.

You were shocked and confused when I stood up to you,

Went crying to Kevin, but he thought it through,

He knew that you were lying to him too.

Too bad. Screw you.

Do you need an emotional Band-Aid?

You’ve got no friends left after your charade.

Wish I could say I’m surprised, but I ain’t.

And it’s all because you’re a snake.

On Monday, you cried to me bout your boyfriend,

Then Tuesday, you told me, I wasn’t a good friend,

Three weeks ago you decided it was the end.

Not such a nice Canadian.



You made up some false narrative in your head,

Badmouthed me to all of our mutual friends,

And now to me, you’re simply dead.

Hope it was worth it in the end.

LOVE, DEAR ABBY







“He left me the way he always had: disappointed, but not surprised.”

LOVE, DEAR ABBY

I want so badly to talk to you, but have no idea what to even say.

LOVE, DEAR ABBY

Thank you for treating me the way I never knew I was supposed to be treated.

LOVE, DEAR ABBY

I don’t just love the way they love me; I love the way they make me love myself.

- LOVE, DEAR ABBY

“A hero is a person or character who is admired for their courage, achievements, noble qualities, who looks fear in the eyes and doesn’t even blink.”

That is the quote I saw on the wall of my sixth grade students classroom today. I strongly disagree.

All humans have hesitated. It’s instinct. It’s vital. It’s as strong as your heart beating. It is the culmination of thousands of years of survival. Hesitation is a universal experience.

Therefore, a hero always “blinks.” That ‘blink’ is the moment that human beings realize what they are doing. That singular defining moment that changes the gravity of the situation. The exact second that the given circumstances could produce a hero if the right choices are made.

Humans program robots. Robots don’t blink. If a robot were to walk through a path of throwing knives without blinking, would it be a hero? No, of course not. But by the first definition, they technically would be. The reasoning as to why they aren’t? Because the robot faces no repercussions. The robot has no risk. The robot has no real understanding of the danger, nor have they been forced to confront the facts of what they are up against.

That's where we come to our hero blinking. In order to be a hero, you must blink. You must have a moment to see the horrors that all logic would tell to run. Because it’s in that blink that the hero confronts the danger they put themselves in, and pushes forth anyways. That is what makes a hero. To have that shackling sensation of hesitation, and where most others would turn back, they trailblaze on. They trailblaze on anyway.

So here I propose a new definition:

“A hero is a person or character who is admired for their courage, achievements, and noble qualities, who looks fear in the eyes, blinks, and despite facing the world’s darkness, chooses to continue being the world’s light.”

GREY.

How the worlds gone grey,

all the colors left.

I hear that you’re ok.

Don’t you have any regrets?

All the struggles,

All the pain,

All the time I wasn’t ok.

All the years,

All the hurt,

All the times I wished I wasn’t yours.

I stopped going to therapy,

not because I thought I’d manage;

I didn’t go because it’s not fair,

For me to pay the repairs of your damage.

You got off Scott-free,

and I’m not at all shocked,

but I know it’s not me…

It was you who caused,

This slow motion car crash.

All these years later, I still have

the bruises and the whiplash,

but you don’t have a scratch.

I replay it frame by frame,

Incinerated in my brain,

So I could forever torture myself

Asking myself again,

What did I do wrong?

Was it me?

Did I ask too much?

What did you need?

What could I have done,

differently?

Or even worse,

was it you and not me?

LOVE, DEAR ABBY

FRIEND.

I count the days that have gone by,

To remind myself to be proud,

But the longer the voices have been quiet,

Only makes them all the more loud,

It’s not only when I’m awake I’m fighting,

It happens even when asleep,

I wake up, shaking and shouting,

My veins start to burn as I weep.

That burning hot pain in my back,

Damn, my arms and my wrists and my throat,

can’t smother them with hands or scratches,

It takes over and drapes like a coat.

I can’t help but wonder what’s wrong,

‘Is there anyone out there like me?’

But then I remember my friend, my love,

Good old PTSD.

LOVE, DEAR ABBY

…

twelfth

fourteenth ❄️

eighteenth

LOVE, DEAR ABBY

the collection

june

july

august

september

october

november

december

…

second

sixth

ninth

tenth

eleventh

twentieth

twenty-ninth 💋

…

second

twelfth

twenty-ninth 🦊

LOVE, DEAR ABBY

…

first

twenty-third 🍁

twenty-eighth

LOVE, DEAR ABBY

KEYCHAIN.

Walking two miles in the night rain, crying, shaking, nervous,

Feeling like Red Riding Hood,

standing on my grandmothers porch, How do I tell her,

her son’s the Big Bad Wolf?

She tells me in public that effort goes both ways,

That I need to try harder,

She knows that he’s made his choice,

That he doesn’t care and that he’s no father,

The fact that in public, she’ll tell me one thing

and in private, something different

It’s all an illusion and smoke screen.

I know that I was never important.

Holding that stupid keychain is proof that I never stopped trying,

So often I try to make plans and he’d put me off every time,

She’d look at me as I cried to her, with her own crocodile tears,

I don’t know how her son being a deadbeat isnt one of her biggest fears.

And so I left with that same keychain, not knowing what to do with it

Maybe I’d throw it in the woods or a lake, but I couldn’t go through with it.

I held onto that thing for a goddamn year and it taunted me every day

Until I eventually found the person it belonged to, the person with whom it was meant to stay,

I had a whole speech ready to recite upon giving him that keychain,

But of course, when it came time to actually do it, I had nothing in my brain.

I stuttered and rushed and mumbled hoping that whatever I said,

Would still carry its meaning and at the very least make sense.

To my surprise he actually cared, and used his words to convey,

How much he loved and was honored that I’d given him the keychain.

Immediately, he hung it up somewhere safe, making me feel like a daughter,

It was then that I realized I had missed out on what it felt like to have a father.

LOVE, DEAR ABBY

If no one’s told you yet:

Hi

“Was none of it real, or was it real and you still left?”

- abby

I used to be so dependent upon you. Now I realize it was you who needed me to need you.

There’s a statue of you in the gardens of my mind.