and I've only lost.
my mind often contradicts the heart
it says, no more.
today, the heart begs,
I will live for the both of us.
TW: mention of suicide attempt
This was the first time she explicitly told me how proud she is of me and how far I've come.
While I've had a lot of people tell me that they're proud of me but somehow, hearing this from someone who knows me a lot differently than others, knows all those things that I refuse to share with others, understands my thought process, it just made all the difference.
As she was telling me about the growth I've had, I couldn't hold back the tears.
She told me that I seemed more confident, sure of myself and stronger than ever before. It was really overwhelming.
I'm really glad to have found her and to have come so far. From attempting to take my own life last year to not depending on anyone for my happiness and being content with my life as it is. It's been one hell of a journey and I'm just happy to be alive to experience this.
Never give up, you'll get there eventually.
The music dances inside my mind,
It's beautiful and it's urgent
It's my escape from words that I can't find the symphony to write.
How little there is to listen when you stop.