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So I saw this and decided to give it a try too on a fun example 😂 I woke up and my cat always walks away when I go to greet her in the morning and usually I'm like awww 🥲 but this time I imagined myself as my cat and thought about how much I loved Vanessa and wanted to snuggle with her lotsss. After getting into that knowing feeling, I let it go and forgot about it. Until now (like an hour later), when I'm trying to meditate and my cat is suddenly super loving on me and sitting on my lap which she hasn't done in ages 😂 I was almost about to think it didn't work at first, cos right after I imagined and returned back to being Vanessa, my cat was going about her business as usual ignoring me lol. But I just ignored all that (both thoughts and the dream) and decided to let it go and not think about it anymore. I think that's key. Also not taking it seriously helps with letting go (it's all just a dream so do whatever and have fun, right?). But like help, I need to pee rn but I don't want to disturb her (I think she plans on napping on my lap) and I also don't want to undo her loving on me 🫠

Aww that's so cute 💕

You pointed it out well that is really not that serious, you really cannot take anything seriously the more you experiment and see the truth because,

Well, it's not real!

As Ada said in an ask sometime "you people don't take me literally" 🤣

This is def what makes and unmakes it!

Your attitude is the fact. - Nisargadatta

The way you demonstrated this you can demonstrate everything.

Hiii Ive done the I Am affirmations and these are my results! I saw someone post on Reddit how they’d seen an amazing shift using I AM and other affirmations that I wanted to try as well. I was not only affirming through the day but sleeping on the feeling/knowing at night as well. I Also meditated but I really enjoy it so that was easy!

During the 4th day I could feel the shift, I became so indifferent to the 3D, you know when someone is like really calm that it’s scary? That’s how I felt. Like nothing phased me. I constantly would here and see people say that we’re God and that we create our realities blah blah, but that day it really clicked. Nothing is in my way, I can have everything I want.

I was at work this day and usually I hate being there but today I knew it was different. I got yelled at by a customer for a return and I was like whatever. During the end of the transaction I firmly stated “I AM” and the lady apologized for her behavior saying “I didn’t know what got into me” like right after I had affirmed. We only get 10 minute breaks but I was gone for damn near 30. I affirmed my managers wouldn’t say anything because “I AM” and when I came out the only thing they asked was “how my break was”. I also got my food and drink for free at the cafe downstairs just cause the barista felt like it.

My manifestations are instant there really isn’t a time lag. But that depends on me really, some things I’d prefer if I woke up and they were there rather then appearing in front of me, and other things I’ve revised instantly. I feel like I’m in the constant void? If I close my eyes and affirm for like less then a minute everything is still and I can’t hear anything around me. Like I’m really just consciousness with no physical body. It’s been like 2 months since then and I’m living my best life.

What I’ve manifested:

-clear skin

-desired Face and body

-Money+ a job in fashion that I really like

-money for my siblings and parents

-both my older sister having their college degrees as well as my degree(I dropped out of college like freshman year)

-revised that my parents were never smokers and are in perfect health

-my eyesight; used to be negative -6.5 but I don’t need to wear contacts anymore

-dental health, got rid of my cavities cause I hate the dentist

-moved to NYC/ got my desired apartment

-payed off all debts/ having no debts at all

-little everyday things like free food, drinks, parking, free flowers, literally super cute everyday things

-A new passport because I lost my old one

-shifting; I’d been trying to shift for damn near 2 years but I’ve finally been able to go to many of my DRs

-being able to manipulate time(slowing it down, speeding it up)

-dream wardrobe

there’s probably more but I can’t think of anything else. Just know that there isn’t anything I’m lacking or want rn, I have everything I can think of 😭.

omg this is absolutely amazing i love it!! especially knowing that everytime we are saying I am we are declaring we are god it's literally such powerful statement in just 2 words i absolutely love this success story and i hope it motivates y'all just as much as it did me 🥰

Hi Soph, It's D! :) where do I even start, I've had so many realizations, talking to mySelf. it has been nothing but the best, allowing my true Self to guide me, and not letting this persona block it out, like it has been doing for years now. the best thing I've experienced is, truly relying on mySelf. These are a couple of realizations that I'd like to share: - The characters are here to help YOU (self) experience things, the same way you are choosing this character over and over again you can choose a new one, because you are NOT the character, you’re Self, free from experiencing whatever, not bounded by a persona. - You are Self, there’s no convincing yourself you are it, you have always been it. - The world is an illusion, the people around you; everything - There is no such thing as 'struggling', everyone’s already realized, they just block Self out, well… their persona blocks Self out, to be precise. My advice would be just to surrender, let go, just BE. How has the dream been for you, Soph? sending lots of love your way. :))

Yess just BE 💕💕 everything is perfect already!! You never lack!!!!

My dream has been amazing, very main character-y hehe 😭💘

Thank you for the advice in the name of everyone; happy to hear from you again ♡

I just discovered non-dualism 3 days ago and I'm struggling to realize that this is natural. I want to get back with my ex-bf but I know he's with another girl right now and that makes me sick... I want to reconcile with him WITHOUT him dating another girl while we're separated. However, I saw physical evidence that contradicts this, and if I ever "succeed," I feel like I've changed something, not that "it was always like this", so it's not "natural" anymore. I don't know what to do.

There is no continuity. You recreate the scenario every day. It can be just as natural that he was never with anyone.

Read this

How funny because I went through something similar. Although I never made her disappear I just used her as his incentive to realize nobody could ever be as perfect for him as me and he made the biggest mistake of his life 🤪 the whole thing worked out in my favor; his behavior toward me changed magnitudinally. THIS IS YOUR DREAM. REALIZE THIS.

And if you reaaaally really find it hard to think that she never existed think of what you want her to represent to him.

Also read this on thoughts and be totally indifferent to any thought that arises that he's not absolutely head over heels for you.

And you can check the questions about past/future in the list so you understand why there is no time.

Finally, he was made by you and for you, what are you creating her for? 🤣 you bored like that? You like making yourself suffer? Are you masochistic? Forget her. She never was 😴

I have been sitting in silence as much as possible. I am at work which causes me to stay away from home for over a week or 2 at a time in someone else’s home and they watch the news all damn day so it’s something I’m have in my surroundings 80% of the time I’m here. But I couldn’t care less because I just block it out now I know everything is a choice.

However, I decided to take at least 5 mins every hour to sit in silence (sometimes with the loud ass news in the back ground) and be aware of having no thoughts. Sometimes there are thoughts that don’t want to stop, especially in the morning. But I am the observer/witness of the thoughts so I don’t allow it to bother me.

Anywho… As I have been doing this I have literally had thoughts, visual and verbal and they literally happen the next day.

This has been happening every single day. I’m losing count of the things that are happening. I’ve come to realise the truth that internal imagination and external imagination are literally the same thing. There is no separation. Life is just a very vivid lucid dream on a serious level. It’s no joke.

I have to be aware of what thoughts I’m having as I truly know that they will come to pass. But I’ve decided to relieve any stress of thoughts showing up in the external imagination.

I stay aware of 80-90% of my thoughts and differentiate the thoughts by “labelling” them, “Passing thoughts” and “Experiential thoughts” so that any intruding thoughts of things I don’t want to experience don’t “manifest” into the external imagination because they really will at this point😅.

It’s all very easy and effortless. Sitting in silence is the best feeling ever, there’s nothing better now. And I look forward to what experiential thoughts I experience next.

Also, I always knew time was an illusion, but damn… Time really does what I want it to do. If I become aware that time is going fast, it does. If I become aware that time is going slow or that I want it to go fast or slow, it does. Sometimes 5 minutes feels like 1 minute. 2 hours feels like 15 minutes. (Which is great because it gets me home from work quicker😅)

So above, so below is real. It’s all just awareness. All you will ever need is awareness.

Thought I’d share this because I felt like it.

I shared this as well in an ask last night that I deleted; as I detached everything that came into my awareness — things my friends would talk about that Sofia never had/thought possible experiencing were happening no matter what they were, good or bad — if they were brought into my awareness, they happened. And very quickly just like you said, the same or the next day. At that point I would say a mental "fuck you" to anyone who was in the mood to share negative things 😭

The more I lost the sense of who 'I' was, the more receptive I was to everything. I would exert no effort to make anything happen, (why would I want food poisoning to happen?) but since I listened to my friend (and no, didn't think or contemplate it happening to Sofia) I brought it to "reality".

Lester talks about it too, about driving with his friend once and his friend talking about eye problems and him (even though not even focused because he was tired) gets it right then, he traces the problem back to where it originates (remembers his friend talking about it & him hearing it) and lets it go & his eyes are fine again.

You learn to control it ofc^ until you can only experience what you want. But I'm so happy you shared this as well, last night I deleted mine bc I didn't want people to spiral over every thought coming to fruition 😭😭 YOU CAN FIX IT. If you can demonstrate something, you can also make it vanish. You're never stuck in anything. Everything is thought.

Hi! I have a question, I know there's no such thing as continuity so how do I stop recreating the same world/dream over and over? Obviously I'm doing something wrong bc I keep assuming I've let go of all attachments to the world and Vanessa just to wake up right back in the same world with Vanessa lmao

An assumption that you've let go is not enough; you actually have to let go. I can think forever "I don't think I'm Sofia anymore" yet here I am, being Sofia.

Forget and be disinterested in her completely like she doesn't exist to you. The way you feel about me or another stranger is how I feel about Sofia, she's not me. She's just another creation which I can choose to experience or not. Attachment to your ego means you still think that's what you are so you continue to express that.

Moving on completely like you would move on from a thought which arises like "Oh that person has nice pants" is how you stop the cycle. The thought dissolves two seconds later and your attention is on something else, you never go back to the thought again. That's how another creation happens, your mind moves on onto something else.

*You* are being a different thought. You do not think "I am Lara", you're being her and there are no thoughts that arise that you could be Sofia, or if they come you disergard because you know not to be this stranger like you know you have a phone in your hand.

Again, this is not a technique. It's not lying to yourself about being someone different in order for something to happen. You can't get anything and this should really settle into your mind to demonstrate all these things or you'll continue to try to get through Vanessa, ignorant of the fact that that's what you're doing.

This permissive new is not really new. It is but a new attitude of the old. The really new obliterates the old completely.

This ego is an idea that you keep attaching yourself to. You don't think about letting go, YOU DO. You move on like from it like you did from the dream you had last night.

I know myself by being myself. As you know yourself to be a man by being one. You do not keep on reminding yourself that you are a man. It is only when your humanity is questioned that you assert it. Similarly, I know that I am all. I do not need to keep on repeating: 'I am all, I am all'. Only when you take me to be a particular, a person, I protest. As you are a man all the time, so I am what I am — all the time. Whatever you are changelessly, that you are beyond all doubt. - Nisargadatta

I get it now. So it's about moving through experiences for the sake of the experience. For love of creation itself. Our ego desires are inspiration but they are not the end all be all. Egos are a beautiful creation, imo. I love them. It's important not to become obssed with our creations that we loose our true selves tho.

Like getting to a place where youre ready to move on from one ego experience for the next day ego experience, rather than resistance for the current experience itself by way of ego echoes...and only because you're blocking the true self, the true vehicle of creation.

Like the ego isn't even necessarily real lol. It's an echo chamber of past creations. The true self is real, is life itself. Like moving on from one painting to the next...the canvas and the paint aren't really alive...but they can be moving...just like music...

Ahh this is perfect. It's the only thing that makes sense. Freedom is the only thing that makes sense!

Yesyesyesyes💕💕

MY TURN!

hi everyone.

im someone who has entered the void state back when i still created imaginary concepts lol. it was many months ago, my experience was of bright white light, not darkness, and i felt absolute indifference. no love, no peace, no calm. just the biggest unbotheredness? (if that is even a word) of my life, i didn’t care about anything. i didn’t care so much that i didn’t affirm, i was like “im in the void, cool” and just stood in the brightness. i woke up the next day and a lot of things were taken care of. a lot of problems i had were resolved. but it wasn’t enough since i was still living what we now refer to as “vanessa’s life”.

after that, i discovered nondualism. it made a lot of sense to me and i was reading everything 4dbarbie put out every day. i was addicted. at this point, i was exhausted and tired from doing meditations every single night to only succeed once in a blue moon. it was ruining my sleep cycle and ngl... it always felt so forced to do all of that when i didn’t even enjoy meditating. so i switched and decided to give this new concept a try.

what i’ve “manifested”, with intention alone, ever since discovering my Self:

my own house (vanessa was living with her parents)

all the clothes which were saved on vanessa’s pinterest are my new identity’s actual closet

two dogs (wasn’t allowed pets at my parents)

kind, supportive family

older, new identity is an adult and all her assets are in her name

HOW I DID IT:

detached from ego. i realized i was never it and acted on it

during the day i’d ask myself questions like “if i was completely free, what would i think right now?”

chose my favorite thoughts and stuck to them

let go of believing vanessa was real. allowed myself to only think of what i want as real

HOW LONG IT TOOK:

There are changes daily. I say it took like a week to fully settle it in my mind that no character is me, and after that I was free to identify with a new mind and new thoughts. Everything materialized quickly, I wasn’t thinking on it, I knew I had it and just did whatever life made me do during the day. Maybe because I still had some resistance but it happened gradually, not instantly, every day I’d become more abundant.

My best advice is to surrender. It doesn’t happen because you don’t let it happen. Give up trying and allow yourself to believe only what you’re comfortable believing. Also, stop wanting it. It’s a contradiction because you can’t want what you have. Both Lester and Nisargadatta say desirelessness is the highest state.

That’s it, now apply mfs.

Good morning

This was also sent yesterday but I thought I should give some time for everyone to internalize the others before I shared

Made me giggle last night when I read it, thank you <3

This body is totally imagined. As I sit here on the couch, with my eyes closed, I see images of the body, I feel sensations associated with it, and it all happens within my perception; there’s nothing external in it. I open my eyes, I look at my hands and feet, and these so-called parts of my so-called body are still images and sensations within my perception. I can separate them from the rest of my visual world and call them my body, but that separation is still an act of mind, and the images are always of a past, even if the past happened a nanosecond ago. They’re part of a movie of reality; they’re not reality itself. Why would I believe that a movie on the mind’s screen is real? Every time I try to focus on what is real about this body, it’s gone, and the “I” who focuses is gone too. 

There’s nothing solid. Not only the dream but even the dreamer is forever gone. And the dreamed body—I sit it, I stand it, I walk it, I feed it, I brush its teeth, I dress it in clothes, I put it to bed at night and lift it from bed in the morning, and none of that is real. It’s all a projection of mind. To imagine that there is anything outside the mind is pure delusion.

Even physical pain is imagined. When you’re asleep, does your body hurt? When you’re hurting, and the phone rings, and it’s the call you’ve been longing for and you’re mentally focused on the conversation, there’s no pain. If your thinking changes, the pain changes.

Byron Katie

HOW I MANIFESTED MY DREAM REALITY IN A DAY

WHAT I MANIFESTED:

- name change

- trilingualism

- 5”10 height

- thin and slender body

- a RAGING golden tan

- face like adriana lima’s

- top grades + intelligence

- dp has a FAT crush on me

HOW I DID IT:

- robotic affirmations in my head (for example repeating ‘I have everything I desire’ over and over in my head whenever I’m free throughout the day)

- visualizing

- law of assumption

- the belief that I am God and I am the creator of my own reality

- PERSIST, PERSIST, AND PERSIST SOME MORE I SWEAR TO GOD THIS IS THE MOST IMPORTANT THING

- being crazy delulu

I never actually used the void state for this, because I found that putting the void state on a pedestal was limiting my beliefs. Please refrain from thinking too much about the void or from putting it on a pedestal because this can really hinder your progress. Remember, you are the void. The void is inside you. You don’t need to ‘enter’ it because it is already there!

That’s it, just remember to have a positive mindset and be literally as delusional as you possibly can be. Worked for me!! This took about a whole day to work, and the next day I woke up and it was all manifested (sounds crazy but it’s true and I literally started jumping and squealing like a five year old when I realised it worked). Most importantly, remember that manifesting is supposed to be fun, so go have fun and enjoy yourself!! :)

i just had a HUGE understanding moment. i know that to people who already understood this, what i'm about to say is gonna be like "umm thats just basic knowledge, how did you not get that", BUT HEAR ME OUT!

i got so caught up on wanting to materialize and seeing "successes" physically, and i didn't truly understand nor believe when blogs would say that "i have what i want NOW" (because i didn't see what i wanted) but now it just clicked. as awareness, we do create instantly, we "have" instantly, by being aware. ego obviously doesn't see materializations, but not because you don't have it! you do have it. you are not ego which is literally why ego does not see it.

my mistake was the way i was so attached to ego that i straight up disregarded the most important thing which is to NOT IDENTIFY WITH EGO. everytime ego didn't see something i wanted, i took that as ME and was aware of not seeing what i wanted. i now realize that, because i am awareness, the statement "you already have it now" is absolutely true because... well the moment you're aware of something, it exists.

so when you think, "oh but i don't see it", that shows why thoughts ARE EGOS ONLY. because of course the ego doesn't see it or have it, ego is not awareness. you (awareness) have your "materialization". you don't see it because that "you" (in the red) that doesn't have/see it is really just ego, who of course doesn't see it because they aren't the awareness that has instantly. thinking you don't see it is literally just the ego's thoughts that you're observing. and if you take ego as you, then you won't be able to see anything cuz you're identified with the ego who doesn't see anything. if you're thinking about a cupcake falling out of the sky, YOU'RE AWARE OF THAT, so you can't say you don't see it materialized. if you truly didn't see it, you wouldn't be aware of such a thing. but when you look through egos eyes and think "i don't see a cupcake falling out of the sky" its because the ego is not really you. they dont become aware of something, they're literally the product of you being aware of something.

again ik this is literally the most BASIC knowledge, but i just feel proud of myself for understanding this because i was contradicting myself for the longest time by always wondering why i never materialized. by always not believing blogs when they say "you already have it now" because i took the ego as myself, i observed ego not seeing the "materialization" and took it like "well ego doesn't see it, so i don't have it" (which ofc only identified myself with ego more and more)

“they dont become aware of something, they're literally the product of you being aware of something.” wow. spot on. welcome to the dream 🫶

hi!! i’m this anon, https://www.tumblr.com/lains-reality/723844364791676928/hi-i-hope-youre-having-a-wonderful-day-youre

about the difficult circumstances :)

i’ve followed your advice, and just rested. whenever i had moments/situations that brought up stress, i began to exercise this feeling of completion/bliss. ever since then, my health has been stabilizing. i took a break from tumblr/over-consuming, and just asked myself “what am i?” “who am i?”. i would let my thoughts go, attaching no meaning, nor identifying with them. i would observe them- in an almost manner of meditation. i started to feel lighter, as i no longer identified with the body. while doing such “exercises”, i found that i “tapped into the void” within minutes of doing so. it was so peaceful, and i had no urge to affirm- which even though my ego thinks my life is still far from perfect, i could care less.

i feel a sort of indifference to what used to seem problematic. i now understand, that there is no “convincing” myself of something, when i am already it. i’ve been “documenting” what works best for me- just because i might have brain damage lol, but what i’ve found is when i am in full acceptance of both the desirable and undesirable, it happens instantly- or within a day. just now, i noticed my collar bone feeling fleshy or the skin around it inflamed- which was one of the major symptoms i faced when i had cancer. my whole collar bone to face just puffed up like a pufferfish. in that moment, i knew who i TRULY was- I AM. God. i didn’t care if my collar bone wasn’t prominent or not- i just KNEW that it was normal, and prominent. literally not even a minute later, i touched my collar bone while scratching my neck- AND THE SWELLING WAS COMPLETELY GONE, IT WAS JUST BONE.

So, for me- what worked was knowing there was no conviction necessary, i am already everything, the good and the bad. thoughts and day dreams have no effect on me unless i identify with them- or personally give them power. no effort, and just complete ease and bliss. the past, and future do not exist- and only affect the present, when identified. indifference was the “biggest” aha moment for me.

I realized, each time I affirmed/thought of something- then let go, and gave it no more attention, it appeared (instantly). for problems, i just forgot of it. i disregarded it- and then bam. gone. since my last experience with the void, i knew since then that everything was perfect with my relationship regarding the void. i always wake up in it, everything perfect for me- i’m aware, blah blah blah. and that’s how it’s “manifested!”. i don’t even think of it any more. ever since that indifference feeling/knowing came- life has been soooo different.

during times of meditation, or of just observing my thoughts and letting them pass- is when i truly began to understand non-dualism. that’s when the knowing came for me. taking accountability and responsibility, and knowing everything is as temporary as night and day. i still have to “fix” my problems with school and university, but i know that is my ego talking. it is already done because i am it. i’m (my ego) is a bit worried if i will properly fix my problems, but after proving what lester, and all the info i’ve consumed (from blog to blog), i truly understand that there is no problem until i think i have a problem. my problems are as an easy fix as my situation with my collar bone.

i’ve also “fixed” my relationship with my mother, and grandparents. they now truly have realized the abuse that is in my household, and are 100% into supporting me, and protecting me. i was so surprised, because they would usually just ignore it and normalize it. especially my mother. all i’ve wanted was my mom- to actually be a mom. and now she is. even though there were moments where my ego wanted to cuss her out and identify as having a bad mother, i thought of it as nonsense, and now our entire dynamic has changed. i can’t really get into it without trauma dumping- but it’s been my wish since i was a child. she has truly changed and grown. even my therapist was shocked, and happy for me! i’ve been trying to “manifest” a change in her, for about 3 years- and after applying little to no effort, through what i’ve mentioned above- everything has changed.

(also “manifested” appearance changes, health to be completely perfect, my safety, perfect grades (literally all A+ or straight up 100%s loll, my pets health, and many other things. literally we all “manifest” our entire day just by identification)

i believe, or what has been true personally to me, about the reason behind the struggle of changing anything- even after seeing confirmation of one’s true power, is because it wasn’t a “big” enough accomplishment. they/me have put problems and “desires” on a pedestal- thinking it will be a varying degree to alter, than let’s say the weather. but it is all the same. everything holds the same balance. it is just the ego that convinces you that it does not. we literally shape our “today” and “tomorrow” from memory and identification. when i’ve thought/knew what my tomorrow would be- that is how it was.

i just wanted to say thank you to your kind response to my ask, last time. i know that it wasn’t easy- and i’m so sorry if i’ve caused anyone to feel any negative emotions. i also wanted to say thank you to your- and every other bloggers dedication to helping anons, and continuously posting the truth. you, and adasdisciple (idk how to do the @ thing, im so sorry!!!) as well as, 4dkelly something (i hope they may see this! i apologize for not remembering your user😭) have aided in ways not even professionals, or other bloggers have. my life has done a true 180- and i know it’s only going to get better from here on out. i appreciate everyone’s kindness to my first post, it truly warmed my heart to see so many people sympathizing with my ask. not many people have reacted with such genuine sweetness. thank you so much!! i’m fr feeling on top of the world 😋

wow! i'm so proud of you!!! speechless tbh!

i'll tag them here for you: @adadisciple, @4dkellysworld

nondualism: my understanding so far

So essentially, I am not this body, I am the one who drives it. I am the consciousness/awareness. These thoughts, circumstances, and beliefs, are not my own. I am just the observer. This entire reality is my creation and there is no separation between what I imagine and this illusory, physical world. Everything is imagination and the only reason I am 'seeing' this reality over another right now is because I am placing my awareness on being of this reality and this ego, when in actual fact, I am nothing more than the observer of both. My awareness has become so attached to this particular body and ego that it no longer knows itself to be pure consciousness, but instead, only to be of this body and ego, which is NOT true at all. How can I be this body when I am also observing this body and the thoughts this body/ego has? To let go of this particular body/ego/reality, I simply need to detach, noticing that these thoughts are not mine, they are Maddie's - the ego, and I, am I Am.

I Am the dreamer dreaming this dream but at any stage I can change the dream and choose to become aware of a different dream. In order to do that, I need to detach from knowing myself to be Maddie, and instead recognise myself to be I.

From an observer point of view, it would make sense that I am the creator of everything. I am not in the body but instead the body is in me. Taking away the need to attain something instantly materialises it, particularly when we come to the realisation that everything IS, right now and that I AM everything. When I realise my true power as the creator, it makes sense that anything I imagine would materialise instantly - because there is no longer doubt, no ego to overcome, no second guessing, just pure awareness and knowledge of being I Am that I Am.

*nondualism blogs @4dkellysworld @realisophie @iamthat-iam @goddessxeffect @napolonio please feel free to correct me anywhere i am wrong

hi, sophie.🩷 i'd like to share my success story. i know you are no longer active on tumblr so i apologize in advance for sending this ask. i've been waiting for the longest for you to turn on your anon asks again, i was hesitant to share this on my own account, since people on loa tumblr can get very desperate or attempt to harm you out of envy (i've seen it happen with too many people sharing successes), so i just waited for you to turn your asks on again and say it freely.

my journey with ND has been... long to say the least. it was only long because i refused to act on the truth as soon as i discovered it, when 4dbarbie was still active. i put it off because i was afraid of what would happen, i was afraid of truly disbelieving the idea that i was a person. that was really stupid. and the only reason i wasn't experiencing my ideal version of life.

MY NOW. many months later, but... at least it's finally over.

i don't hold anything in the mind, no memories, no thoughts about the future, my life is completely spontaneous and always in a state of harmony. i materialize things instantly. each time i have a thought about something i'd like, i experience. there have never been any exceptions.

this is not the void, this is your natural state. you don't need to be in any void for this to be your regular, everyday life. the only thing that stops you from experiencing this complete power and freedom is your mind, which is unreal. until you're ready to discard it you're not going to demonstrate much.

what holds you back, i know because it was the same thing holding me back, is the fact that you don't take the word 'false' seriously. the ego is false, all thoughts are false. nothing is real. nothing at all. this is all a lucid dream. it's all what you're saying it is.

thank you, and thank you 4dbarbie for opening my eyes. i admit, there comes a sense of superiority in regards to others from knowing the truth, and if others on the ND path have felt the same before, don't be ashamed of this feeling, it's just how it is. no reason to be ashamed, you worked hard to get here. with it also comes a weird compassion. i just pity them, the way i pity my past self but having no courage. no sense in dwelling on a non-existent past now. it's done. nothing has ever existed. nothing will in the future. all is now, if i want it to be, and all is my will. i think of you both as more my family than my actual family, which i was able to give a comfortable life to because of you. thank you, thank you. i will never forget you.

the concept of living life so effortlessly has never occurred to me in my life, and yet i'm living it. all from being lucky enough to be on tumblr... of all sites, at the right time.

after I dropped ego, the first thing i decided to express was a different body, it was pure intention. my mind was clear, doubtless, it was and always is now with god. i was lying in my bed, it was a slight thought of what i wanted my appearance to be, i got up and checked it out in my bathroom mirror, and there it was. there was no wow feeling, no ecstasy. i didn't cry, i wasn't happy. i was completely neutral. like a simple 'cool, nice'. i did it multiple times since then, i want to experience as many bodies as i can while on earth, i like comparing the different lives of different egos. but after the first body, i just set everything about that ego's life straight. i imagined everything being perfect, having enough money to live more than comfortably, my own apartment, funding my siblings' education, etc. the basic things everyone wants, i realized they belonged to me. and no, i don't work. i don't lift a finger to have.

this will sound too good to be true to many, but it's actually the sole reason you were put here on earth. to realize yourself. everything really doesn't exist. nothing is. the quicker you let it all go, the quicker you'll live an effortless life. the journey only persists because you won't stop thinking you are the person, you already are the Self, you have always been nothing but it. everything else is your own imagination, a lie you can choose or discard. wake up. haven't you had enough? there is nothing to fear.

I don’t think this one needs my input. :)

Proud of your courage and intellect 🤍