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visited her yesterday! someone carved in her dude :( but sm1 also drew a cute moth so mixed feelings..

this is one of my favorite trees and she is in a very nostalgic and comforting area for me, by my primary school and in a small cute park.

need to visit an old friend (magnolia tree at the park)

related to that reblog thing i was blabbin on. about experiences and envisage shifts.

i recently had my strongest shift in a while (although thats not saying much, mine are weak as hell) while in my friend's car. a song started, and when i realised it was a song i didn't like that much, i felt and saw two antennae flatten against my head in upset.

maybe a coincidence, but the song was numb little bug. like.. bug antennae. idek. of my known types, idk what it would be.

realising i have a hearthome theme of habitable space universes.

(homestuck, star wars, lethal company)

i might kin from them, not sure yet

🍂 vulpeandric 👒

pt: vulpeandric. end pt. image id in alt.

a gender related to foxes and how they are perceived to have canine and feline traits, but are canids. examples of being vulpeandric include:

feeling attached to "feminine" qualities and being mostly a guy/masc

transmascs with attachment to girlhood

being in between masculinity and femininity but leaning towards masculinity

color meanings from top down: pink for a piece of femininity, white for separation, orange for foxes, blue for masculinity, brown for canines.

this is my first and maybe only time coining something soo.. idk let me know what ya think! i think i'm doing this right? shrug

@radiomogai @faunagender

GUYS!!! any other watchers that feel like they are realm smp keepers or observer. like theyre straight up the same thing. omniscient purple beings with eye motifs. watching and pulling strings of multiple worlds. pulling people into worlds of suffering and corruption. HELLO??

also the universe works in beautiful ways. my watcher oc from like 3 years ago was named Tau. which i just learned is a greek character which the first keepers were named after!!! my name is tau ohh my god!!!!

if anyone wants like the full keeper lore , bekyamon's stream from today was her literally reading a treasure trove of lore. it just. ughhh its so watchers and evo.

buhh i want to help you out but im going through some label trouble myself rn </3 i guess if he feels like more than a fictional person to you and someone you could see yourself as .. shrug... sorry gang

Okay since I’m not panicking and I just need genuine feedback and general help after researching, I’m gonna explain how I feel about Brian and more so how it’s effected me, and I need you kind ppls to tell me if this still counts as Otherhearted (or some secret third option I have yet to come across)!! Since I am very new to all this and I don’t wanna come across as baiting

Extremely (probably badly) worded yap session ahead‼️+ Dexter S1 spoilers

When I first watched Dexter S1, I found Brian someone I could relate to, which then my mom found weird (I suggest looking at his wiki) so then I just admired in peace. His persona and ability to turn on a facade just felt too similar to things I’ve done or see in myself

I have a brother myself, but he’s older than me; however, I still feel as if Brian & Dexters dynamic and Brian’s search for his brother feels all too familiar. My brothers in College so I don’t get to see him often which makes me constantly feel alone and looking for something that will take ages to find. Just like Brian did with Dexter, after coming out of the mental hospital and immediately searching for his brother.

This whole thing makes me panicky because Brian is a (FICTIONAL 😰) serial killer…and I personally can justify majority of his actions just because I feel like if do the same in the same desperation, as fucked as that sounds. Which is why I hate admitting I feel connected to him. I don’t have murderous intentions or thoughts (that aren’t the intrusive kind I mean) but I feel like it’s just a rational thought process.

He DOES die but I just actively forget he does and I don’t like thinking about it

If I need to elaborate on any of this I totally can!Thank you for coming to my ted talk <3

Me fr maybe vv

the watchers/listeners (evo smp, life series) and their many incarnations have been added to the pile of what i think the 'type looks like, as well as a mental connection to my friend's concept of hunters.

overall, i believe i an a vessel of the many winged, many eyed beasts, moreso metaphorically and related to my alterhumanity than a spiritual thing, but it may prove to be spiritual for me.

this is weirdly deep for me but i do really love the evo gods. they are beautiful.

new 'type: found!

soo i've felt like i've had wings and talons for a while, but never felt like just a bird or one of my 'types with wings. but! i think i figured it out. idk exactly what to call it but think in the vein of falin dunmeshi, howl's bird form, or seraph from hell followed with us but with more feathers.

also plot twist i think it's a theriotype? actually idk. it's more of an underlying feeling that surges sometimes. i get species dysphoria for it and it affects my behavior.

lowkey i'm starting to not care about the labels and i just know i'm stuff besides a dude. shrug. but i'm happy i could figure out some sort of name for this bird guy i am

okay besides the deity part... i almost fully relate! I don't know if i truly know what love, like, or sexual desire really feels like. My caring and affection just have different levels. The whole world is like an intersectional identity, for me everything is totally separate but it all connects and i don't feel like i can fit into just one square of that grid but if i expand outside, others will move away.

uhmm maybe that doesn't make sense or maybe it does! either way i luv this post !

On Being "Socially Nonhuman"

One thing I've been mulling over lately...

I love how acceptance of physical nonhumanity is increasing now. I think it's very positive, and especially for those who experience clinical zoanthropy - so much support to you creatures!

Personally, I don't feel physically nonhuman at all. Not even in a figurative sense. My physical humanity has been a big part of my life's narrative, for better or worse - I've had plenty of trouble with species dysphoria in the past, but my path to healing has always been to recognise the joys in being human-bodied even if it doesn't reflect what I really am.

But the consideration - "oh, well, am I physically nonhuman?" - led me to a different idea that is just... sticking with me now, and I wanted to share it in case any other nonhuman folks relate. And also just for the sake of sharing, I need to do that more!

I'm physically human, but my nonhumanity feels... externally impactful on a level where I feel like referring to it as an "identity" alone is maybe a bit minimising.

This is because, far as I can tell, I just don't... act or feel in the way humans do?

The best examples of this are all absences.

I'm asexual, in the specific sense where I don't feel sexual attraction or desire at all, and never have. I genuinely cannot comprehend those experiences. This is pretty impactful and isolating all on its own.

But even more jarring is that I don't feel love in any conventional way. And I don't mean "just" romantic love - I mean any love at all. I don't love my friends, I don't love my family, I don't love my pets. This probably sounds horrible, but it's not! I can feel affection.

What separates my affection from "love" is that it's non-selective - I don't bond with specific individuals. A more palatable way to put this might be to say that I love my cat, but I love the neighbour's cat I see out the window just as much. But that feels reductive, because selectivity is a key part of what defines "love"! Can it be "love" if you feel it for everyone, whether you know them personally or not? Not really! It's a different thing.

And the other thing I'd say I'm distinctly lacking is, uh... survival instinct? Whatever drive pushes people (and animals) to keep going even when times are hard, even when things are desperate, on the hope that they'll make it to the other side. I don't experience that and I don't understand it (though, genuinely, I do wish I did).

Other ways I'm behaviourally inhuman are a bit subtler and harder to define. The way I think kinda throws people for a loop a lot - there are things that seem naturally intuitive to me, that other people genuinely struggle with. It's not a brag cause there's other things that are absolutely the reverse, ahah!

I guess, I thought it could be explained by neurodivergence for a while, but it all seems to run so much deeper than autism and ADHD could account for.

I have to mask myself to appear human. I have to mask any time I'm around other people, no matter how much I trust them, because I know trust only goes so far and there's some things I experience and feel that - to most people - are so "out there" that they'd just sound unhealthy.

There are things that are a normal part of my life that would be radically weird for most folks. This means I have to hide parts of my candid experience of life just to avoid uncomfortable attention or concern.

I don't like attention! I'm eccentric even when masking. The best I can do is "acceptably weird".

Fact of the matter is, you just can't live a safe, reasonable life while being open about the fact that your normal experience of the world is as a quasi-deity who became trapped in a human body by accident, who remembers the beginnings of life on Earth, who can sense the spirits of plants and animals, who peers through the layers of reality, and sometimes reacts to things before they happen. These things are all normal for me - there's no way I can be genuinely honest about myself while also "being human".

What it adds up to is that I feel viscerally nonhuman in a way that has a profound impact on my external life - yet still, I'm physically human. I am keenly aware of how my human brain impacts my way of thinking, how my human hormones affect how I feel.

So I'm not physically nonhuman, but I'm... socially nonhuman?

If you take "social" to encompass things like emotions and viewpoints and such, as well as how you talk and act?

My nonhumanity is socially impactful, and that impacts the physical (insofar as it impacts how I act, how I feel, and how I engage with the world).

It's an identity, yes, but it's not... self-contained. I can't really pass as "a normal person who happens to be nonhuman".

I doubt I'm the only one who experiences something like this! And that's part of why I'm even putting this out there. I don't exactly expect (or need) "socially nonhuman" to catch on as a term, but I wanted to say that this is how I feel, and that others who feel this way are not alone.

It can seem like a very lonely existence, I suppose. I don't know if I'll ever feel comfortable to express my genuine self around other people. Even online, I mask and hide. I would be seen differently if I didn't do that. Connection and belonging are fulfilling to me, and I value them too much to lose them just for the sake of being honest about stuff that most people wouldn't understand anyway!

Still, I don't really regret being nonhuman in this way. This is just who I am! I wouldn't be me if I were different.

yes! im happy with my human body but when im dog mind, my legs (as in back and front) should be skinnier and longer and my body should be smaller

Do any other nonhumans get size dysphoria?? I feel like I'm the wrong size I feel like I should be the size of my 'types

bruhh this is my last day in washington before returning to misery/missouri </3 idk if u put any in olympia but i'll look anyway when we go downtown today

I forgot to make a post about it sooner lol, but I ended up printing out a bunch of those theta delta stickers I designed a while back! I didn't sell them or anything, just for personal use and to give out to other therians I encountered irl, but I had a ton of fun sticking them up around Washington over the course of a few months so enjoy a quick photo dump :3

If anyone encounters any of these (or others, there's some i didn't include here) out in the real world don't be afraid to shoot me a message and let me know! id absolutely love to see how they're holding up <3 Therian pride 4ever ∞

Also if anyone is curious i used StickerApp to get them printed and would highly recommend to anyone interested in making stickers of their own, they have awesome service and great quality for the price!

i need to stop trying to force myself to shift. im in the mindset that shifting = good, not faking. but it can be uncomfortable. it can just not happen. and thats okay.

i say this bcus i was trying to ear shift and ended up with paw pads that made my hands feel rlly weird.

in other news, the pnw is such a haven for me, creature and human. it is beautiful here.

its so weird being in a friend group where we used to pretend we were sled dogs and now they make furry jokes. guys it's two sides of the same coin ...

wet beast wednesday!

not really a beast but it me. girl whys the quality so bad </3

told a friend i was otherhearted today , explaining it as "it's kind of like therian but im not actually the animal" and she goes wait youre therian!? ho whatd i just say. use ur thinkpan please

mrrp i want to curl up in a den here and sleep through january

omgg i want angel fangs so bad :((

the species euphoria is calling me

i miss who i was like a week ago when i didnt know what a radqueer was

uhh i can’t believe i have to say this but if you’re pro transID / radqueer and/or a pro contact paraphile don’t fucking interact LOL? Just because im pro transspecies does not mean im one of yall… from my understanding it wasn’t even?? part of transid before?? until u guys stole it?? Also being greeted by a “pro consensual contact paraphile” in my notifs is one hell of a way to be introduced to alterhuman tumblr. I am trying SO hard not to hate it here 😭

hmm yes yes

I propose a fun nonhuman centered post prompt schedule:

Sleepy Critter Sundays

- Photo of your kin/type takin’ a snooze!

Monster Mondays

- For all the monsters, cryptids, and abnormal kin/types out there!

Tiny Creature Tuesdays

- Image of your teeny tiny kin/type!

Wet Beast Wednesdays

- You know the drill, image of you kin/type wet!

Theme Thursdays

- Aesthetics, moodboards, and drawings of your kin/type!

Fellow Friend Fridays

- Image of your kin/type hanging out with other kin/types! (Whether that be of you and your friends/mutuals or you and your others kin/types!)

Snacking Saturdays

- Nom nom nom, image of your kin/type having something to eat!

What y’all think?? :)

Reblog to show others! I know I’ll be participating in this schedule

UGHHH I NEED THIS </3

I am waiting for the day I can get out of my small stupid apartment, move anywhere I want, have a cozy house with a farm, have 2 horses, 2 dogs, a cat and at least one snake, get a partner who will love me and explore with me and live a happy life as a creature.

i wish dirt tasted as good as it smelled lowkey is that weird

Stamps by me :]

Credit is appreciated but not needed

epic intro of dog-sized proportions!!

ꕤ hii im tau or lorin!! im alterhuman and my blog is going to focus on connecting with that and my experiences/musings.

i am a minor, no age dni as long as ur not a creep

i use he/they/it/tick and any dog related neos !

my 'types:

dog: gsp, english springer spaniel, border collie

fluffy black cat

some kind of canid that's not a dog?

watcher/keeper birdthing

hearthomes:

like every forest ever

star wars

lethal company

the glowy sparkly world that viktor is in

dni if you support known problematic people. racists, trans/homophobic, zionists *and* antisemites, radqueers, and pro-contact paras

i am avoidant of endos

ꕤ check out my main @rrosetinted for more about me :3

i did the same thing :) it was beautiful. just me and the snow sparkling down in the porchlight

I finally gave in to the urge to just flop down in snow a while back. I had snow gear on so I wouldn't get too cold. It felt good. Just laying there, looking up at the night sky, and watching my breath drift up. After relaxing for a bit I gave in to the impulse to just romp around in the snow too. No one could see me so I just stayed on all fours and pounced, rolled, dug, and walked around until I tired myself out and flopped down again. It felt great. Just being me and running off some excess energy. I was vocalizing while doing it too. I haven't allowed myself to be that free since grade school and you know what? When there's more snow on the ground I think I'll do it again.

Polar bear (🐻‍❄️) inspired* foods/snacks

All kids of fish (🐟) especially saltwater species

Berries especially blueberries (🫐), blackberries, and cranberries

Wild and brown rice

Venison

Seaweed (seaweed chips are a thing, so a seaweed sheets)

Sushi/Sashimi (🍣)

Slushies/Icees (I don't know what y'all call them)

Ice cream

Poultry - duck, turkey, and chicken

Eggs (🥚) in general

Dried meats/jerky

Tea (especially chamomile and dandelion)

Ice water/cold water

Carrots (🥕)

Soup with any of the aforementioned ingredients - (wild rice soup is delicious btw)

*Please note that while this is inspired by a polar bear's diet it is just that. It is not 100% accurate nor was it intended to be