Ptsd - Blog Posts

“Nightmare“ part 1

"There's a noose 'round my neck and the further I get It's harder and harder to breathe, can I find a way to cut the rope?"

I finally finished watching violet evergarden. I watched the first 5 or 6 weekly but after a point I just had to stop. As someone who’s lived with ptsd for as long as I can remember, violet evergarden made me feel a lot of things. I saw young her and empathized and remembered a lot of things I normally try not to think about. Sincerely, thanks.

I can't leave LFLS alone today after that last chapter. Here's a color portrait of some ninpo-unlocking Leo after a long road of healing (a long, loooooong road).

MINOR SPOILERS FOR LIKE FATHER LIKE SON BELOW PIC

It's called Karai's Last Gift. In the LFLS timeline I HC that instead of the traditional black wrappings, Karai's spirit gives Leo white ones when he unlocks ninpo. She wouldn't do anything to trigger his PTSD. It's a very fitting color as it resembles journeys, spiritual connection, and cleansing.

I cried a couple of times on this one. Once because it's emotional and once because I hate vector layers with my whole fucking heart. I'm very satisfied with how it turned out considering I doodled it so quickly. Like less than 4 hours.

@eternalglitch This is just me imagining the first time Leo initiates a touch. It makes sense to me that it’d be Donnie. Hope you like 👉 👈

I have another one coming that makes more sense in color, too :) Thanks for the heartache fodder!!!

I'm sorry

I'm sorry I'm so useless I'm sorry I don't get good grades I'm sorry I don't like school I'm sorry I sleep too much I'm sorry I'm not open enough I'm sorry I don't like talking over the phone I'm sorry I stay up all night unable to sleep I'm sorry I'm sad all the time I'm sorry I worry to much I'm sorry I have flashbacks I'm sorry i get scared over nothing I'm sorry I don't eat I'm sorry I have to take pills I'm sorry I cut I'm sorry I want to die I'm so so sorry