Quitethepsycho - Blog Posts
I need to chill the fuck out wtf
Animal crossing good
Brain bad
Update: I have retreated to the living room to play animal crossing and distract myself
I am doing capital a not good
The birds are out. I have not slept. Again. I am so fucking sore, my nose is acting up, I've started a fast cause I've spent most the night thinking about what a fat fuck I am, my stomach is fucky, my neck is crinking, I have three new Spotify playlists with absurdly long names, I've got major anxiety cause now both vapes are running low and my beloved says they will last and I trust them but I overthink everything even though logically I know it'll be okay and it's not the end of the world
There are 7 of us in here
It's fucking crowded, of course it's in my head
ANDDJDNDNJDNDND I AM SO FUCKING TIRED AND IN PAIN AND I WANT TO HOLD MY PARTNER BUT THEY ARE ASLEEP AND I DO NOT WANT TO MAKE THEIR BONES HURT ANSNDBNDNDBDBDDBDBBDNDDNDNFFNDNDNFNFNDNDNDNDNDND
fcuk
EHY THE FUCK AM I STILL AWAKE LEMME SLEEP
It gets very... intricate seeing as there are 6 of myself. Well, 7, but she's a kid and not really present anymore
And I'm having a fucking great time
I'm becoming the adult my parents always warned me not to be
For the restraint I have shown thus far
I should be allowed to murder someone, as a treat
Drinking nearly a bottle of cough syrup to prove my past self right. I did something stupid, I'm having a great time
Having the urges to get fucked up right now lol
I'm a idiot but fuck it we ball I guess
it's so unpleasant to me near me especially when I'm like this
they shouldn't have to comfort me all the time, they deserve better than that and I haven't a clue why they like me but I always and forever will love them
it's gonna be a long day and they're gonna have to drive a lot and damn I need to swing and blast music or something right now cause I'm nervous and what if they really really hate it and it's okay if they do and what if they get tired or overwhelmed and I don't notice like a complete piece of shit and and and
fuck I'm not a good partner
yes but change the flavor of the vape to sour fcuking fab
Girl dinner
...hunger is cool and all but have you tried actual drugs? Hell, even huffing air duster feels so fucking good
hunger is my drug
you're*
Shut the utter fuck up. If you want to recover, do it. If you are okay with your body, let it be. Don't shove yourself further into it just because someone on here says to.
It's too late for me. Save yourselves, tovarishchi, save yourselves.
dont stop. soon you'll have the self control. your just growing it right now.
Because most of the time it is wrong, or pushes people who may have been attempting to recover and or people who are barely just dabbling (aka just found edblr or still okay with their bodies) further into this fucked up lifestyle
if you can't handle "m34nsp0," ask yourself why it bothers you so much.
is it really because it's mean? or is it because it's the truth?
fuck it we ball (malnourished, heavy eve bags, dehydrated, and on the verge of insanity)
whenever I feel like I'm hard to love, or that I'm not worth loving because it's hard, I think of this quote
Do you ever wanna just do the most violent things to yourself? Like have you ever hated yourself SO much that you could physically and mentally torture yourself willingly until your body just gave out from the pure exhaustion of it all?
Be fluid, do all three
Idk whether to cry, punch something, or hurt myself
I like to be entirely self destructive professionally
I like to be a little stupid recreationally
I agree
Caffeine is good for you and will never hurt you and you should drink more caffeine now