Ramblings - Blog Posts
I should make a multiples of three tier list… I’ve got some opinions on these numbers
I’m going to try to learn blender, how hard could it possibly be?
Already watched the first tutorial, and I think I got most of it!
I think I should start believing in what the fortune cookies say.
Sure, they’re vague, but some I’ve opened lately have been weirdly accurate.
Dammit the week long break is already over??? I have to go to school tomorrow?!? I WAS JUST SICK THE ENTIRE TIME, NOOOOOOOOOO!!!
Y’know, I just watched Nerdy Prudes Must Die for the first time, and honestly it shocked me
At first I thought I’d just watch a bit and leave it on as some sort of background music, I dunno I just got curious about it
But then I think I transpired into
So yeah it was pretty good and now I can’t remember what I was supposed to be doing again…
WRITING!!! I SIGNED UP FOR NANOWRIMO AND NOW I WILL START WRITING!
Nevermind I found it, it was underneath the dining table because last time I had it I dropped it and didn’t bother to pick it up and then promptly forgor 💀
I can’t find my special tablet pen and can’t draw digitally, sobbing
I want to draw so badly, I guess I’ll resort to drawing traditionally instead of digitally 😔
I can’t find my special tablet pen and can’t draw digitally, sobbing
I get distracted way too easily - I just started trying to recreate Will Wood’s “Cortard’s Solution” in animal jam and forgot about everything else I was supposed to do
Just finished watching the fnaf movie, and I just gotta say, ADHAUDHWUJDSKNJCDIUJKSIUEJDWKSJHJOXPPLKWEIJD
Mother is suspending my artistry privileges so I can continue pursuing the piano HHHHHHHHH
I think I’ll just unironically use comic sans while writing, I like how the letters look and it’s easier to read. I really hate how normal stuff is so sharp, I just want round fun letters!
YOOOO I just finished reading brain jack and it was pretty epic!!! Makes me want to become an epic hacker!!
IMO blue is math, green is science, yellow is english, and red is social studies. I would gladly explain why I think so tomorrow.
I love sci-fi books, some of my favourites are the bloom series, the maze runner, and rabbits! I’m currently reading brain jack, and it’s pretty fun. Giving me ideas for writing my own sci-fi character and story… I should really focus on the others things I’m writing though, I haven’t finished a thing but I’ve started way too many.
I really appreciate the fact that every time I post something here nobody sees it (to my knowledge), it helps with my anxiety that I am not being perceived in any way
Why are elements and compounds so confusing??? Why can’t they be like legos or something, I can’t comprehend all these protons and electrons and letters
Me at 13: ugh all these girls are soooo drama, I am different. I don't even wear pink and listen to pop songs. I guess I am 'not like the other girls'.
*cringe*
Me at 17: loves pink, doesn't like jeans and wears dresses and skirts, watches chick flicks, listens to mainstream pop, worships Taylor Swift, waits for the MET gala every year, loves gossip, watches Chanel, Dior, Balenciaga fashion shows, watches video essays on celebrity culture and media, follows fashion historians, hates sports, hates video games, hates most "boyish" activities and wishes I was in a Jane Austen novel or a Nicolas Sparks movie.
Me: I guess I am the other girls I used to talk about
Sometimes it feels like a little bit of ego mania is inherent to human nature, par for the course- other times it feels like im drowning in the doubt of whether im actually smart or just a narcissist. I always thought it was a problem that everyone had, but then i realized that the struggle to confirm to the self that you are who you say you are - whether you said who you were aloud to others or not - is not actually normal. Imposter syndrome is a finicky bitch that needs to pick a lane, are you sticking around or leaving me the hell alone- chop chop i wanna know. At the same time, i know that for people struggling with imposter syndrome (myself included) it can be really difficult to accept facts about yourself as true or untrue- especially when your an avid consumer of books and movies and shit, because every time you feel the imposter syndrome popping up your like “uhm, why do i sound like a book character- ew no, that is cringe i do not want to fall into tropes”
what makes me so sad about Megamind (the character) is that he was a perfectly normal and good person when he was born, he just happened by complete chance to end up in a fucking prison and be raised like a criminal just bc he looked different and EVEN BEFORE he decided to become the villain on purpose he was just trying to fit in and make people like him and show everyone that he’s a cool and decent person, despite GROWING UP IN A PRISON AMONG CRIMINALS like he is such a good sweet person who spends his whole life trying to convince himself that he’s a bad person just bc everyone sees him that way when he’s NOT
you know what I just realized is that there’s a scene early on when he’s a baby where a group of the inmates are showing him flashcards and showing him that robbers are good and cops are bad and like it’s meant to be a funny scene bc obviously “robbers are bad and cops are good” but rewatching it I was like man those guys are right cops really DO suck maybe they were a better influence on him than we were lead to believe lol