spottedleaf hates bluestar and she hates featherwhisker and she hates thunderclan for not doing anything about thistleclaw, she sees how they were willing to let his behavior slide because he was a respected warrior. Anytime bluestar tries talking to her she wants to vomit she wants to tear off her bandaged paws and slice into bluestar until her face looks like shredded pork bluestar has tried apologizing to her but it was so shitty it was so ass, not even about spottedleaf's own trauma it was all just "If I had known" "If I knew better", bluestar makes it all about *herself*. every apology spottedleaf has gotten by any of the older thunderclan cats, she could tell it was done to relieve their conscious and not actually make an effort to help her or mend broken bonds. She can't get mad either that is the bullshit part, she *must* be okay with what they're saying otherwise she's just being difficult. Then she will be blamed for her own abuse for lashing out, thunderclan doesn't care about her they just want to forget everything that is a detriment to their own social morale she wants to poison the food supply in camp and watch everyone die she wants to hurt them