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Calling all shameless fans to check this out bc JEHEEHEH THIS IS SOLID GOLD
Or, Lip stays in college.
Rating: Teen and up
Pairing: Lip Gallagher x fem!reader
Word Count: 5,204
Summary: The hearing of Lip Gallagher and Professor Helene Runyon is today. You watch it all unfold, it seems, with your hands clasped tightly over your eyes.
Warnings: swearing everywhere, some violence, smoking and drinking of course, slut shaming
A/N: this is the best fucking thing I have ever written and I just want to say ahhhhh. I used the word âfuckâ 64 times in this. Set in 6x06. Part 1
It was the day of the hearing and to say Lip was freaking out, was an understatement.
You watched in both horror and amazement as he tore open his third pack of cigarettes. It was a thing you noticed he did when he completely lost it. He chained smoked like a motherfucker. The ashtray you slid his way a couple hours ago was completely filled with stubs and you were pretty sure you could hold the thick smoke in your hands.
You hauled him into your dorm room after his classes were done, wanting him to have company that wasnât destructive before the board meeting. He sat on your coffee table, and you on the edge of your bed. No one was talking. You let him wallow in his anger and his grief, and you offered him anything you thought could help him. A safe space to freak out and a friend that wouldnât judge him as he spiraled. He didnât have to pretend to be strong. Not to you.
You cleared your throat and ran a hand over your mouth as you stared at him. He hadnât spoken in hours. Hadnât done anything in hours. Just stared at the floor and smoked.
âAlright champ, I think thatâs enough. No need to get lung cancer any faster.â You attempted to tease as you nudged his leg with your foot. You knew your voice gave away your panic, and you felt your face burn as you looked away from him. He leaned back on the table and puffed out more smoke. With a sigh, he threw the barley smoked cigarette onto the giant pile and looked out the window in your dorm room.
Youâd always liked that your room faced the giant quad most people walked through. You liked that you could witness everyone just living their lives. It seemed thatâs what you did best. Watch as people lived their lives. Make their mistakes. Get back up again.
You tugged a cigarette from one of the packs and lit it quickly. Taking a drag, you felt some of the nerves leave your body.
âWe are so fucked.â He swore, staring out at the expanse of the campus. You glanced at him, wondering if he thought this was the last time he would see the campus as a student. You didnât get along with a lot of people. You were one of a few that didnât grow up with a silver spoon stuck in your mouth. Your bad temper and lack of manners didnât help you much. Sure, you liked Joaquin fine, but he was always trying to get into your pants.
Lip was different. You two met a few weeks into Freshman year. You were taking a smoke break when he raged into the alleyway and beat the shit out of a dumpster. Youâd been attached to the hip ever since.
You stayed with him over the summer and helped him deal with his little brother and his family anyway you could. Lip was like family to you now, and he might go away. You were terrified he would be expelled. You didnât know what you would do if he walked out and went to his dorm to pack his bags. Just the thought alone made your blood freeze in your veins. âSheâs never going to want to see me again.â
You blinked a few times.
Oh right.
Helene.
He wasnât scared that he would leave the school. Leave all this hard work and the money heâd been given, especially by that man who paid for this all making Lip fucking owe that man to at least finish. Or his own room which he deserved after sharing a space with three other boys back at home, not that youâd think he minded at the time, but once you get a taste of freedom itâs so hard to go back. Or a place where he actually belonged, a place he could let his mind grow and youâve seen him teaching, he had a gift, a talent, and he was going to waste it all.
You tried to rack your brain for more reasons, but the one true reason was screaming at you. He couldnât leave. Leave, fuck, you couldnât do this, leave you. Your chest heaved as you admitted that to yourself. You were afraid he was going to leave you. Fuck. You couldnât do this right now. You stared at him and let out a bitter laugh.
No, he was worried that Professor Runyon would be fired because she was sleeping with a student when she knew damn well the risks of doing so. Worried that her fourty year old cougar ass wouldnât want to see him anymore. Thatâs what he was so stressed about.
You pushed off your bed and crossed over to the window, taking another deep drag of your cigarette.
âMaybe. You sure know how to pick âem.â You said bitterly. Wanting to cause a sting in return for the way his comment hurt you. Lip turned to you and raised an eyebrow.
âFuck is that supposed to mean?â
âWell, what first was Karen? I donât even need to explain that one. Then Mandy. I actually really liked her. That one was your fault. Then Amanda, fucking bitch. And now Professor Runyon. Face it Lip, you have bad taste in women.â You took another drag. âAnd also a thing for blondes.â
Lip flicked his cigarette out as his jaw dropped. âI thought you were supposed to make me feel better.â
âWhy the fuck should I have to?!â You snapped, all that anger finally bubbling over and exploding. You threw your cigarette onto the floor and stomped it out. âWhat âcause Iâm the only one left? Only one you havenât fucked so that means I havenât gotten screwed over by the bullshit logic you use, all orchestrated by your dick?! Are you fucking kidding me Lip? Are you actually this dense? You think she would want to see you after all of this? You ruined her career her fucking livelihood. She has a family she wouldnât choose you over them you fucking moron!â You laughed again and turned around. The sudden urge to slap him welled up inside you, but you choked it down. You were not going to be another jealous girl. Not you. Fucking no way.
Lipâs nostrils flared as he got progressively angrier at your words.
âYou donât know how she feels about me! She loves me, I-I love her!â He got in your face and you set your jaw as you stared at him.
You leaned into him and jabbed a finger into his chest. Your noses inches apart.
âLip you love getting your dick wet. You donât know shit about real feelings you fucking manwhore. All youâve ever done is fuck girls over for your own agenda. And thatâs all youâll ever do. Youâll die alone because all you know is how to fuck people over and push the ones who care away.â You shoved him out of your face and stormed over to your door.
âOut.â Your voice was steady and calm, but the murderous look on your face betrayed you. Lip let out a sarcastic laugh and picked up his bag from your floor.
âThank you for fucking nothing then!â He called as he walked out the door. You slammed it before he could start talking again. Grabbing the ashtray off your table, you opened your window, and threw it at the ground. The amber glass shattered as the cigarette stubs scattered along with it. You let out a shaky breath as you fell backwards onto your bed.
Taking a glance at the clock, you groaned. It was an hour until the hearing. You had an hour to decide what the fuck to do.
Alright fuck, letâs go over the facts. Lip is a fucking asshole who was in a relationship with a professor when both knew their relationship would end in either expulsion or loss of a job. Alright so maybe they both got off on the secrecy of it all. You ran a hand over your face and sighed. Who were you to limit who he was with? You were just a friend. And yeah you could have a say in the sense that you could pipe up at a party, make sure he doesnât sleep with an STD riddled sorority girl. But to say he wasnât allowed to be with the woman he was in love with? Nah. You couldnât be the one getting in his way. You stared up at the ceiling and felt the stress physically taking a role on the space between your shoulder blades and at the bottom of your neck.
Okay so you couldnât be mad at him for being with Professor Runyon.
You could be mad at another thing though. The most obvious things. You couldnât be mad at him for who he loved. But you could, you could be mad at him for who he didnât. You pressed the palms of your hands into your eyes and let out a pitiful laugh.
You could be mad that he wasnât in love with you.
Fuck you were in love with Lip.
âWhat a fucking clichĂ©.â You spat into the static air of your dorm room. The stupid girl being head over heels for the oblivious best friend. Your mouth raised in a sneer as you thought it over.
You were in love with Lip. Lip. Love. You love Lip. Your conscious was screaming these words. Over and over.
With a shake of your head as though to clear the thoughts you flung your arms out. Okay. You loved Lip, fine. But you didnât love how he was acting.
You didnât love this fuckboy persona he was constantly adopting. This âbig dickâ player Lip. The one Helene and even Amanda fell over. No, you loved the shit talking Lip, the one that takes the L train every weekend to see and help his family. The big protective Lip that holds his baby brother at three in the morning, Liamâs small body shaking from nightmares as Lip continues to annotate his paper for English. No, you were the only person who really loved Lip Gallagher, because you were the only one that really saw him. And he needed someone who truly sees him at this hearing.
You ran a hand over your face and glanced at the clock again. You still had time to make it to this fucking hearing.
In a haste you grabbed your bag, yanked on your lanyard, and booked it out the door, sprinting to the disciplinary sector of the school. You skidded to a stop as you saw Lip pacing in front of a door on the other end of the hall.
With a deep breath, you strode over to him. He looked up in surprise upon hearing you and stopped his frantic pacing. He cleared his throat and ran a hand through his hair.
âHey you made it. Didnât think youâd come.â Lip admitted shoving his hands into his pockets. You still wanted to slap him, but you sighed and set your bag on the metal chair sitting across from the door.
âWouldnât miss it. Is Youens inside?â You asked, quietly, fiddling with the lanyard around your neck. Your school ID and keys jingled softly and Lip stared at you. His expression unreadable.
You werenât one to be shy, werenât one to show a nervous tick so blatantly. You broke Amandaâs nose without even blinking, yelled at him not even an hour ago, and now you were being shy. Lip blinked a few times trying in vain to understand what that meant for you, what that meant for him.
He cleared his throat and kicked the ground without any real heat behind it.
âYeah. Just nervous sâall.â
You nodded and rolled your shoulders. Lip watched as you shed away your shyness and became the fearless, trash talking, scrappy girl he knew. Watched as you shed your emotions to be what he needed from you. His heart thudded and he didnât fucking know why.
âFuck that. Itâll be easy.â You stepped closer to him and smiled brightly. âItâll be fine. Professor Youens will be there with you. Just tell them whatever they want to hear. Do not loose your fucking temper. Make sure to blame it on Amanda.â You rambled smoothing the soft blue of Lipâs collar. He let out a huff of a laugh and grabbed your hands that were fidgeting all over him.
âYou goin to wait out here?â He mumbled rubbing at his forehead. You sucked your teeth at him and reached up to fix the hairs he tugged down.
âOf course. Youâll get through this. We can get shit faced after, maybe I can break Amandaâs legs. Itâll be a good rest of the day.â You were grasping at straws. All you wanted was to reassure him, calm him down. Every time you spoke it seemed like you were threatening or bad mouthing Amanda, and you saw the sadness in his eyes. He was secretly hurt that she would betray him like that.
Lip nodded and with one last look at you, he walked through the door to his doom. You bit your lip and slowly sunk down on the awful metal folding chair across the hall.
All you could do now was wait.
- - -
Your leg bounced as you took a deep drag of your cigarette. You knew there was no smoking indoors, but youâd be damned if someone tried to take this one comfort away from you. It was all you fucking had left. You let the smoke fill your lungs as you exhaled and blew the white vapor into the static air of the hallway.
The clicking of heels snapped you out of your numb staring and you looked up to see Professor Runyon making her way over to you. You regarded her as you took another drag. Her expression was blank, but you could see in the set of her jaw that she was stressed. You almost smiled as she looked down at you.
âProfessor,â you nodded and rested your head on the wall behind you. âI hope it all ends well. Please talk to him if you can.â
She raised an eyebrow at you and looked around nervously.
âTake care of him.â She said quietly, and with that she pushed open the door and walked inside. You blinked up at the empty space she occupied. Well what else have you been doing for the past two years? You huffed out a sarcastic laugh and adjusted your shoulders. You were in deep now werenât you?
It felt like maybe an hour passed before your thoughts were disturbed by the door opening.
You stood up, wanting to immediately grill Lip on how it went, when instead Professor Runyon briskly walked out. Still composed and professional, but clearly running. You opened your mouth to say something, but she breezed past you, pulling on a beige coat and a scarf.
You blinked a few times and slowly sunk back into the chair before the door banged open again and Lip and Professor Youens walked out. You shot up and looked at them with wide eyes, trying to determine the verdict in their faces. Youens gave you a slight smile, but Lip was hastily tugging on his own coat and looking down the hall at the retreating Professor.
âHelene! Wait!â Lip called jogging after her, completely ignoring you as they both quickly left the building. The big glass door they walked through shining as it slammed close. You blinked a few times and looked down at your bag.
No he fucking didnât.
You raised your eyebrows and swore openly. Cussing out that fucking bastards name. How dare he. You were the only one who gave a shit about him beside Youens and he couldnât even look to you.
You yanked your bag and made to storm out of the hall, before Professor Youens put a hand on your shoulder. You snapped your glare to him before dimming it. Your eyes wide, staring into his soft brown ones, you felt more grounded then you did all week. Already visibly calmer he gave you a little smile.
âThat boy is probably the biggest idiot I know.â He said, his calming voice washing over you. You closed your eyes for a moment and let out a huff of air.
âI kno-â you began, your anger swelling back up again for that whore you apparently loved.
âBut then again so are we.â And with that he turned and left, walking the opposite way and rounding a corner. You stared after him. Weâre idiots? What? You blinked a few times, staring at the empty space he used to occupy, and sat back in your pathetic little folding chair.
Youens was a college professor, granted he was a drunk who made Lip do most of his work, but he was a professor and smarter than Lip gave him credit for. And you werenât exactly a genius, but you worked your ass off and did well, you wouldnât be here if you couldnât keep up. Neither of you were idiots. But if youâre going off academic genius, then neither was Lip. You scrunched your nose and glanced at the glass door.
Lip was an idiot because he fucking fucked everyone who looked at him and had no class, and was angry and naĂŻve. Didnât understand the working world and expected rewards for everything he did. Demanded credit and fell in love with the wrong people, cared too little about peopleâs feelings and instead what they could do for him.
And you and Youens?
You were idiots for loving him regardless.
You sucked your teeth and crossed your arms. Fuck Youens for making you feel bad, Lip was just a hurt kid in love and he really needed someone right now. You of all people could fucking relate. You let out a sigh and glanced at the glass door again.
Guess itâs time to get this asshole and lick his fucking wounds or something. You threw your bag onto your shoulder and made your way outside.
You spotted him quickly. His tan coat and blonde hair are a pretty big tell. But the biggest, was that he was the only person standing still. Just frozen in the middle of the quad, staring off into the middle distance. You sighed again and slowly made your way to him, making as much noise as possible to not scare him. You were practically stomping before you stopped right behind him.
âLip?â You mumbled, slowly reaching out a hand. You placed it gently on his shoulder, but he started and spun around quickly, eyes wide.
He looked, uh, you cocked your head at him slightly. He looked like his heart was ripped out of his chest and his smile was thrown away and his happiness was blended up and discarded all right in front of him. He looked absolutely devastated. You pulled your hand off his shoulder and cleared your throat. Gripping and ungripping your bagâs strap, you sighed.
âCâmon. Todayâs been rough. Letâs get fuckin wasted.â You said trying to conjure up a smile. It was like Lip was a vacuum and any sense of ease and lightness was destroyed in his presence. You dropped your smile and gripped your bag again. Lip looked only marginally less miserable at the suggestion of booze.
He nodded slightly and you felt yourself returning it. It was going to be fine. You and Lip again, just getting wasted in your dorm rooms like a couple of reckless kids.
As the two of you made the trip back to Lipâs dorm, his shell shocked expression loosened. He wasnât sad anymore, but fucking angry.
âA year! I met her husband and kid, I was over there all the time. I went on trips with her and kept her drunk ass company! I took care of her! And the only time she looked me in the eye was to tell me to fuck off! She said she was terminating all contact to them! Can you believe this shit?!â He turned to you, hands palm up in front of him, eyes wide and mouth snarled. You could only shake your head as you pushed open the door to his dorm building. You didnât trust yourself in the slightest to get onto the anti Professor Runyon train. Your dislike for her ran deeper than the offense to the man next to you. Better to keep your mouth shut and not give anything away.
Lip kept cussing and ranting as you climbed the stairs in the cold stairwell. You just kept shaking your head and occasionally mumbling out an, âI knowâ or âWhat a bitchâ. You werenât listening. How could you, you were hurt and mad and stressed, worried, and happy all at the same time. You just wanted to get to his dorm so you could drink so much that your brain deteriorated. Thatâs all you wanted.
You pushed open the doors to his floor and he followed you, still throwing an impressive tantrum. You shook your head for good measure as the door slammed shut behind you.
You blinked back into focus when Lip turned suddenly. You stared at him with wide eyes and he made a lunge to open the just closed door.
âLip! What the fuck?!â You yelled grabbing him by his sleeves and hauling him back. It doesnât matter that you could break his arm with ease, he was fueled by pure anger and heartbreak. You didnât stand a chance. His back was to you, his hand splayed large over the door. It creaked open slowly.
âI need her to fucking understand!â He spat and you couldnât help the eyeroll that escaped from you. You planted your feet and tugged him harder. He inched backwards and the door slammed shut again.
âShe doesnât want to fucking talk to you!â You spat. You huffed out a frustrated breath and moved your entire body so you were next to him. Still pulling on him you looked at him with a harsh glare. His blue eyes; bright and wild, met yours and you sighed again. With a glance upwards in a silent prayer to whatever god, real or not, that resided above, you punched him swiftly in the dick.
He crumpled to the floor in an instant. His groans of pain and the crash his limp body made, echoed in the small hallway and you fucking sighed again.
You stood over him and glared at him.
âNow youâre going to fucking listen to me!â You spat watching him with a slight snear and his eyes squeezed shut in misery. âHelene cannot talk to you or she will lose her fucking job. This isnât about you. This is about her money, her passions, her life. You will stay the fuck away from her or you will get her into even more trouble. I know you loved her, but you can get the fuck over it because itâs over. Itâs done. The end!â
You finished your rant with a wave of your hands.
You took a few seconds to feel sick satisfaction at watching him in pain. For all the emotional misery he put you through in the last couple hours, it felt nice to return it ten-fold. You cocked your head to the side and finally, kneeled down next to him. He moaned in pain and coughed out pitifully.
âAlright come on. There's ice in your freezer. Letâs go.â Lip only coughed in response. You took that as the gracious âthank youâ that it was and helped him hobble to his dorm room. You fumbled with his pockets, trying to find the keys.
âLeft one.â He coughed out and you nodded in thanks at him. Swinging the door open you unceremoniously dumped him on his bed, opened the mini fridge, and threw a bag of ice next to him.
He sucked in a shaky breath and gingerly pressed the ice to himself. You smirked slightly and rooted around in his fridge for any alcohol you could find. You pulled out a bottle of vodka that was definitely stolen. You brought it to your mouth and bit the cap off. You spit it at him and he flipped you off in turn.
This was nice. This was normal. Just you and Lip, drinking and lounging around in your rooms. You could do this.
You pulled out another bottle and took that with you. Kicking the fridge closed, you handed him the second bottle.
He seemed to be doing better. His face no longer an alarming shade of red. His breathing evened out and he stared at the ceiling blankly. Better than in pure agony. You shrugged and leaned on his desk, staring at him.
âAre you going to tell me what the verdict was or do I have to punch you again?â You teased making him laugh.
âYeah. Was uh, was that she terminate all contact. And I lose my job as a RA. Lose this room.â He shuffled back a little so he could prop himself up on his pillows and look at you. You nodded, your eyebrows furrowed.
âWell shit. Iâll drink to that.â You said and took a long, long drink. Lip followed you and you let the horrible taste wash over you.
You didnât talk for a while after that. Just kept taking long swigs of your drinks and taking turns staring at the floor, or staring at the ceiling.
You let out a little laugh and Lip looked at you quickly. Looking almost scandalized that you would find this funny. You couldnât help it, the fact that her nudes got leaked was funny as hell for some reason. You clutched your drink tightly and doubled over laughing. Lip stared at you for a few seconds before his own laugh of disbelief joined you. Your twin loud laughs was the only sound in the silent room as you felt tears gathering in your eyes. Lip wasnât far behind as his face returned to that red color.
âOh man thatâs fucking delightful!â You spit out, still laughing in pure joy. Lip shook his head and let his head fall back in laughter.
âIâm fucked.â He said as he let his own laughter die down into giggles.
You nodded with a grin and you took another sip. Absolutely fucked. The silence settled over your two again. This time it was more awkward than comfortable. You cleared your throat and moved off his desk. Lip raised an eyebrow at you and you stuck your tongue out at him.
You sat on his bed as you took another swig of the cheap vodka. It tasted like rubbing alcohol and fire, but you sucked it down the same. Lip threw his own, now empty bottle at the cushions and it bounced slightly. You smiled slightly at it. Lost in your own thoughts of the events of today. You let out a sigh before you felt the hairs on your arm prick up and you turned to Lip.
He was already staring at you, blue eyes slightly bloodshot, but looking as beautiful as ever. You felt yourself smiling at him. In awe at how much of a beautiful mess he looked. The pair of your breathings was the only thing heard as slowly, so fucking slowly he leaned into you. You sucked in a breath, eyes fluttering close, as his lips covered yours.
You were kissing Lip. You were kissing Phillip fucking Gallagher. The guy you had been trailing over, loving for so fucking long. You moved your hand up to cradle his face. His slight stubble scratching your palm. You were kissing Lip Gallagher. You pressed more into him as your mind wondered like it always did.
You were kissing him immediately right after he got fucking dumped by the woman he loves.
Your mouth turned into a snarl and you jerked back. âIâm not a fucking rebound.â You hissed pushing him off you. You heart thudded in your chest and you prayed he couldnât hear it.
âI know, Iâm just really fucked up right now.â He confessed, rubbing his eyes with the palms of his hands. You narrowed your eyes, yeah fucked up emotionally you bastard. He moved his hands and let out a puff of air. You watched him as his eyes got watery and he quickly rubbed that away too.
God he was fucking wasted.
You blinked a few times as an idea came over you. Lip was fucking wasted.
Your head pounded and you stared at him. He was trashed beyond belief. His eyes closing every few seconds and the dopey smile on his face was all you needed. He was crying a second ago and now he looked like it was his birthday. This was it. Now or never. He would never remember this in the morning.
âIâve been in love with you for years now.â You stuttered, heart thudding as you twisted the blanket through your hands nervously. Lip bobbed his head in a clumsy nod.
âI know.â He slurred. It felt like a huge weight lifted off your shoulders, as well as an even bigger one clamped down on you and suffocated you. You sucked in a breath and fell back onto Lipâs bed. Fuck he knew. This entire time. And he had the audacity to treat you like this. Fuck him. Fuck this fucking asshole. You were bubbling up to boil over, before Lipâs arm buckled and he fell half on top of you. His mouth open and soft snores emitting. You blinked a few times up at his ceiling in shock. Body stiff as you just laid there with his unconscious body cuddling up to you.
This was the moment then. You could choose to walk out forever and no one could even blame you for doing it. Or you could stay. You could pick up the pieces and help him heal from afar. After all youâve done that up until this point. Whatâs a few more years. Hell, whatâs the rest of his miserable life. Your nose twitched as you traced the ceiling fan with your eyes.
You had always been the one staring out the window. Even with him. You watched him date these women and fall apart. In your own fucking life you just watched the events unfold. Never did you actually make a decision for you. You thought back to the breaking of Amandaâs nose and couldnât help but smirk. Well every decision you did make was a violent one.
But.
Where was the getting what you wanted? Where was the heart pounding moments? Where was your own dates with the people you loved?
You made your decision.
You closed your eyes and slowly let yourself relax into the queen size bed. Whatever the outcome of this all, you were breaking the glass and stepping to the otherside. You were fucking staying. You were making your own decisions and finally living. You wanted this. So you were taking it.
Rating: Teen and up
Pairing: Lip Gallagher x fem!reader
Word Count: 1,555
Summary: Lip needs your help to convince Amanda to speak to the board regarding the picture she leaked of Helene, and youâre coming for blood
Warning: lots of swearing, blood, broken nose, slut shaming (kinda)
A/N: Okay so clearly Iâm watching Shameless and writing Fics as I go. I know I got problems. Thatâs on meeee. Iâve never written for Lip so donât @ me if itâs ooc. Set in 6x06. Part 2
A series of knocks on your dorm room door made you sit up blearily. The mid afternoon sun streamed into your room and you looked over at your roommates bed. It was empty. The incessant knocking turned into frantic pounding as the door remained unanswered. Yawning and stretching you stumbled out of bed, ready to cuss out whoever decided it was a good idea to wake you up.
âAlright shit what do you want?!â You hissed throwing the door open. Lip Gallagher stood there, he ran a hand over his mouth and jaw and let out a heavy breath.
âY/N fuck can you come with me to talk to Amanda about Helene? Amandaâs always liked you. Maybe sheâll listen if you come.â He rushed out looking behind his shoulder to her dorm room.
You blinked at him and sighed deeply. This was about the pictures of Professor Runyon, of fucking course it was.
âSheâs scared of me idiot. Alright fine. Let me put some pants on.â You sighed out and turned away from him. Tugging a random pair from your floor, you shoved them on and turned back to Lip. Usually heâd make some comment about your constant state of half nakedness, but not today. He was standing in your doorway, eyes staring at the floor. His thumb traced his lips. You couldnât help but notice how bright his blue eyes looked. They always got this way when he was stressed. Something you always thought was both incredibly endearing as well as so fucking sad.
Usually eyes get brighter when their owner is happy and carefree. Not with Lip. The poor boy only knows the feeling of stress so his anatomy worked around it.
You smiled softly and put a hand on his shoulder, scaring him out of his panicked silence.
âItâs gonna be alright. Weâll fix this. Itâs gonna be alright Lip.â You murmured rubbing, what you hoped, was soothing circles into his tense shoulder. He let out a deep breath and allowed himself five seconds to calm down before his eyes snapped open and he pulled away from you abruptly.
âAlright letâs go.â His voice was still rushed, but not nearly as fast. He jogged over to Amandaâs dorm room, looked over at you for confirmation, and began banging on her door as loudly as he had yours.
You let out a little laugh and slammed your open palm on the door next to his, yelling at Amanda to open the fuck up.
âOpen up Amanda.â He called and you kept your knocking up to keep the noise loud and clear for this horrible person. âLook just tell the board you made a mistake.â Lip called again.
You kicked the door and yelled your own plea to get her to open up, âSay youâre a jealous cunt and you didnât mean to get her in trouble.â Lip looked at you with an eyebrow raised. You only shrugged and kicked away at her door again before it swung open.
Amanda stood in all her stuck up glory, holding two bags and looking down on the both of you. You wanted to deck her on sight. You never liked her and when you found out she was the one to send out the picture because her itty bitty heart had been broken, you were halfway across campus to break her arm before Lip caught you and carried your swearing form back to your room. You kept your anger in check this time. This was all Lipâs fight and causing this bitch any pain would only result in more harm done.
You leaned on the door frame as Lip took up most of the space in the doorway to plead with Amanda.
âWhat board?â Amanda snapped looking between the two of you. âY/N why the fuck are you here?â She huffed.
âLike the committee, the provost.â Lip cut in before you could make a wise ass comment and make Amanda even less likely to help you two out.
âNo idea what youâre talking about.â She said and had the audacity to seem irritated with this conversation. You forced down a snarl.
âWhat do you mean? They didnât ask you to come in?â You hissed instead. There was no way she was getting out of the mess she created without having any repercussions.
âNope. Excuse me.â She said dismissing you and attempted to push past you two, but you stepped forward and crowded her, she took a step back and turned to Lip with a sigh.
âOkay, wait, then, then make a statement or post a retraction somewhere.â Lip stuttered looking frantically between the both of you.
âWhere?â She demanded.
âOnline!â Lip exclaimed, sounding as panicked as he looked. You pursed your lips and crossed your arms. If she kept this âholier than thouâ attitude up you were going to make her bleed.
âDo you actually not understand how the Internet works?â Amanda spat. You took a step forward, read to level her only to have Lip pull you back by the waist.
âI donât care how it works, okay! Helene could lose her job!â Lip shouted before his voice faltered at the end. He squeezed your stomach as a grounding point and you stayed still. Letting him have an anchor in his panic. Amanda jumped in at the sign of weakness.
âWell, maybe she should have thought about that before she started banging her students! And maybe you should learn how to treat the girls that you sleep with better. Ever heard of the campsite rule?â You wanted to punch her right in her snotty nose. You completely agreed with her, but making the dig about how Lip treated people was too far. Amanda knew damn well all she was was a fuck buddy and she created this fantasy of a boyfriend in her mind. It wasnât Lipâs fault, it was hers.
âThe what?â You spoke up, an eyebrow raised as you challenged her. Lip sighed sounding dejected.
âLeave the area in better shape than you found it, asshole. Move.â She spat and knocked her shoulder aggressively into Lip.
âWait wait wait.â He cried letting go of you to block her path.
âGive me a break.â She whined doing all but stomping her foot down.
âWhere are you going?â You said interrupting her tantrum. She huffed and looked down at her bags.
âThe Feminazis are after me. Accused me of trying to destroy a high-status female because Iâve internalized my own gender oppression. Two thousand comments on my Facebook page, including death threats. My parents want me to leave campus until it blows over. Youâre on your own, Lip.â She turned the lights off in her room before facing Lip again.
She smiled sickly and hissed out. âBut then again I guess you always were.â
You sucked in a deep breath, shoved Lip out of the way, and slammed your forehead into Amandaâs nose. Her glasses fell off as she doubled over, gripping her nose in shock and pain. A scream came out of her mouth as she stumbled back into her dorm. You made a move to lunge at her before Lipâs arms grabbed you by the midsection again and hauled you back.
âY/N thatâs enough!â He yelled as you tried to kick out from his hold. Wanting nothing more than to get your hands on the now fake blonde cunt who ruined two peoples lives with her bullsht jealousy. You didnât like Helene either, fuck you mightâve even hated her. But Lip was falling for her and she made him incredibly happy. So you kept your mouth fucking shut.
âYou send out a statement to the board right now you bitch!â You snarled watching as she cried hysterically, her tears mixing in with the blood gushing from her nose. It was now crooked and you stared at her broken nose for as long as possible. Wanting this to be what you remembered when you thought of the fucking skank. The damage she deserved from your own hands.
Lip yanked you as he walked backwards. âAmanda shit, I gotta go!â He yelled as you kicked and flailed, your feet off the ground as Lip hauled you away from his former fuck buddy. He kicked open your door and dumped you on your bed. You scrambled off it and made for the door before Lip was on you again. He forced you back on the bed and straddled you to keep you down.
âHey hey hey thatâs enough! You broke her fucking nose I think you did enough!â Lip sighed and rested his head by your elbow. âWeâre fucked. Itâs over.â
He sounded so broken as he rolled off you and lay face first in your pillow. All the anger in your body melted out as you took in the sad dejected boy curled up next to you. You ran your hand through his hair and sighed.
âLip Iâm so sorry.â He didnât say anything just laid there letting you comfort him.
You didnât know how this would end. Didnât know if Lip would get expelled or Professor Runyon would lose her job. But you knew whatever the outcome, you were going to be there in Lips corner. Because what Amanda said was dead wrong. Lip wasnât alone. And he never had been.
Rating: Teen and up
Pairing: Carl Gallagher x fem!reader
Word Count: 1,388
Summary: Carl goes to buy Nick a bike and decideds this is the perfect time to make your life hell. Set in 6x04
Warnings: lots of swearing, âthatâs Carl, he used to be whiteâ, Nick being iconic as always
A/N: Iâve never written for Carl or for anything in Shameless so like go easy on me. Pls
You sat behind the counter with your head propped up on your hand. Lazily looking down on your phone and swiping through your Instagram feed.
The little bell over the door chimed and you looked up, slightly irritated that now you had to talk with someone. Probably some dad with his fucking kid, buying his âlittle champâ his first bike. Ever since those rich Northsiders started crawling in, business at the bike store your dad owned had been good. On the downside, if you had to suffer through a story about how amazing training wheels were going, you were going to commit homicide.
To your surprise a kid around your age swaggered into the store. Well more like trying to swagger. The short white kid with light brown hair in cornrows tried very hard. You glanced at his hair again. The highlights in the brown could be a dark blonde really. This fucker was a basically a blonde hair, blue eyed, midget and he was trying to act all tough. You rolled your eyes and looked back at your phone, already nauseous from this interaction.
âShit if I knew this is what waited for me, I wouldâve come in earlier. Whatâs your name, beautiful?â He said. You closed your eyes and counted to five before opening them and giving him a blank look.
âYou here for anything or are you going to waste my time?â You drawled, crossing your arms and looking out the window. A very tall dark skinned man stood outside the store. Fiddling with the handles of a brown bike. His face didnât reveal much, but his eyes were lit with excitement. You smiled softly at the sight and turned back to the kid in front of you.
He leaned against the counter and a smirk appeared on his mouth. âOh Iâm here for something, you took my heart and I want it back.â
You wanted to groan, but you stopped yourself and instead rolled your eyes. Your dad had a security camera pointed at you right now. If he saw you being rude to a customer youâd be in a world of trouble.
âFunny.â You deadpanned and rested your chin on your hand again. âThat your friend outside? The bikeâs $300.â
The kid, to his credit, didnât even blink and slapped the money on the counter. Usually the prices scared off the idiots who were looking for an easy ride. You hated that you were slightly impressed. You eyed the money and raised an eyebrow to the kid.
âWhat just âcause Iâm black means you're gonna refuse my money? Think all black people are criminals? Shit baby, I didnât know you were like that.â He put a hand to his chest, acting offended. You couldnât help yourself and let out a scoff. You reached for the money on the counter before the kid grabbed it back. You instead, put your hand on his and his stupid face moved into a wide grin.
âYeah thatâs what I like to see baby, knew you wanted me.â
âShut the fuck up. And why are you acting so hard, youâre the whitest thing in here with that wannabe hair and those blue ass eyes.â You spat moving your hand off his like it was made of fire. To your surprise his shit eating grin only got wider. He opened his mouth to say something before the bell on the door chimed again.
His friend walked into the store. One of the bike handles clutched tightly in his hand, and a little kid holding his other. You wondered where the hell the kid came from. He looked to be about four and he smiled brightly at the idiot standing at the counter. You furrowed your eyebrows and looked between the three boys in the store.
âAy Nick. Little homie.â The idiot in front of you called as he turned to look at the two. The two elder boys seemed to be having a silent conversation. Idiot turned back around and nodded.
âYou got any really fancy locks?â He asked. He reached to his neck to fiddle with the gold chain sitting there. You were taken aback by the question and the lack of flirty attitude. Something about the earnest way he asked and the nervousness of his hands threw you off. Your eyes widened slightly as your brain tried to keep up with what was happening. It was as if this guy did a full 180. It was as if you were to admit you didnât have any bike locks he would be crushed. And for what? He was so selfish he needed to protect his stupid bike that he made his friend lug around? And who was that kid? Why was he looking at this wannabe like he personally hung the moon in the sky?
âUh yeah, you got a price range?â You asked finically regaining the ability to speak. You pushed back on the chair and tossed your phone on the counter. Moving swiftly to get out from behind it.
âJust give me the best you have. No one is taking Nickâs bike.â
You froze as your hand reached up to grab the Kryptonite Kryptolok from the top shelf. This was all for his friend? The kid was willing to lose $300 on a bike as well as blow $50 on a bike lock? All for his friend? He looked that concerned over the safety of a stupid bike, because his friend wanted it?
You blinked a few times and grabbed the lock. You tossed it to Nick who caught it. His expression never changed from the blank on his face, but he nodded to you. You took that to mean he was happy. You could feel the guy's eyes watching you from the counter. Never leaving your figure as you moved to grab the lock and now walking back. You cleared your throat and slid back behind the counter. Not looking him in the eyes.
You could tell how much this bike meant to Nick. Could see that this was the most important thing. You didnât know anything about Nick, you sure as hell couldnât drop $350 on a ride. The fact that his friend did it so easily, without any care, without any fucking hesitation made a blush start to creep up onto your cheeks.
âThatâll be $350. That all?â You said trying to recapture that hardass voice you had earlier. You looked down at the counter and fiddled with your phone that was lying there. You didnât want to look at him. Didnât want him to see what his actions did to you. He was glad to spend that much to make his friend happy and that made your heart stutter. He may look like an idiot in that ghetto getup, but his actions were something you couldnât ignore. You bit the bullet finally and risked looking up at him.
He smiled this time. An actual smile. Not that stupid cocky grin or that dumbass smirk, a cute little smile. You shook your head to clear the word âcuteâ from your mind. He slid the money he put down earlier across the counter and dropped another hundred on top.
âKeep the change beautiful.â
Him and his friend turned to go before you did the most embarrassing thing possible.
You called him back.
He froze and his black puffy jacket shifted as he turned to look back at you. That stupid smirk was back on his face and you hated that you thought it looked good on him. You took a leftover receipt off the counter, jotted your number on it, crumpled it into a ball, and tossed it at him.
âText me sometime, tough guy.â You teased as he bent to pick up the paper ball. He laughed as he tossed it between his hands. He shoved the ball in his pocket, fiddled with his chain and smiled at you.
With a wink he pushed open the door and called back to you, âSee you around beautiful.â And with that Nick, the kid, and him left your store and made their way out of sight.
It wasnât until later when your phone buzzed in your pocket did the grin on your face finally ease up, if only a little.
Hey beautiful. The nameâs Carl
Credit:- @Grimyfrightz on Instagram
with my new fandoms coming to light iâm redoing my taglists.
before i had individuals for the hughes brothers, i have those of you that did, now in going to combine it all by fandoms and iâll add the question of who you want to be tagged for just to make my life easier
thanks 4 understanding kiss kiss
edit: formula 1 taglist and new hockey taglist in tagged in my pinned post!!
in honor of it being monaco weekend, i figured i would surprise u guys. iâm currently working on a trevor smut, name still pending lol, and iâve come to the realization that i canât stick to one fandom soooâŠ
2-3 more masterlists are on the way, each will have a separate theme to match the fandom for example, shameless might have a halfway constructed list if i can pull my thoughts together and make the picture come to life.
the new fandoms are:
shameless (us)
formula 1
nfl (theme might match the nhl)
âmight add in more if i so decide
iâll def have that trevor smut out soon, itâs a long one and del likes it so far lol
TEASER
Characters Who I Will Write For! ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Avatar: The Way of Water:
Jake Sully
Neytiri te Tskaha Mo'at'ite
Neteyam te Suli Tsyeyk'itan
Lo'ak te Suli Tsyeyk'itan
Ao'nung
Criminal Minds:
Aaron Hotchner
Emily Prentiss
David Rossi
Spencer Reid
Derek Morgan
Elle Greenaway
Enola Holmes:
Sherlock Holmes
Viscount Tewksbury
Enola Holmes
Fantastic 4:
Johnny Storm
Susan Storm
Reed Richards
Harry Potter:
Harry Potter
Ronald Weasley
Draco Malfoy
Sirius Black
Cedric Diggory
Fred Weasley
George Weasley
Hermione Granger
Mattheo Riddle
Theodore Nott
Regulus Black
Lorenzo Berkshire
Remus Lupin
The Marauders
Hunger Games:
Katniss Everdeen
Gale Hawthorne
Peeta Mellark
Finnick Odair
IT:
Bill Denbrough
Eddie Kaspbrak
Stanley Uris
Richie Tozier
Henry Bowers
Mike Hanlon
Ben Hanscom
Labyrinth:
âą Jareth
Marvel:
Tony Stark
Peter Parker
Steve Rogers
Natasha Romanoff
Wanda Maximoff
Bruce Banner
Clint Barton
TâChalla
Shuri
Loki Laufeyson
Thor Odinson
Peter Quill
Scott Pilgrim vs. The World:
Scott Pilgrim
Ramona Flowers
Shameless:
Lip Gallagher
Carl Gallagher
Fiona Gallagher
Ian Gallagher
Stranger Things:
Steve Harrington
Eddie Munson
Dustin Henderson
Lucas Sinclair
Jim Hopper
Eleven
Mike Wheeler
Will Byers
Jonathan Byers
Max Mayfield
13 Reasons Why:
Hannah Baker
Clay Jensen
Justin Foley
Monty De La Cruz
The Babysitter:
Melanie Cyrus
Cole Johnson
Bee
Phoebe Atwell
The End of The Fucking World:
James
Alyssa
The Lost Boys:
David
Dwayne
Marko
Paul
Michael Emerson
The Princess Bride:
Buttercup
Westley
Inigo Montoya
Wednesday:
Wednesday Addams
Xavier Thorpe
X-Men:
Alex Summers
Scott Summers
Charles Xavier
Erik Lehnsherr
Logan Howlett
Peter Maximoff
Hank McCoy
Mystique
Storm
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Leave requests for who you would like to see me write for!
-Hal
thank you and all the credits for this week's prompt to @lupeloto brilliant mind and @galladrabbles đ
He didn't ask for help, he didn't say anything, he didn't even talk. He stared at the wall, he felt his body slowly starting to feel dense and heavy and too much. He was trying to make this pass quickly so no one would notice. He was trying to get out of bed but the sheets were holding him hostage, the daylight was too bright, the world around him was too alive and he was in this weird limbo where he wasn't even sure if he existed. He stayed there, scared but quiet and still. Ian felt like a chore, like a responsibility, like too much weight in someone's shoulders so he kept quiet and still. But then something moved in the other side of the bed, then a kiss in his shoulder, a hand that decided to stay there and a whisper "You're not a chore" Mickey said softly, like the mind reader he was "you're my husband and I promised to love you and take care of you in sickness and health, so here i am loving you and taking care of you in sickness"
your hand touching mine. this is how galaxies collide. - sanober khan
this was the perfect scene why would they cut it đ
not me reading cat noir angst while I wait for the minecraft movie to start
clearly, this isnât all that there is
âcause love is a battlefield, whoo!
I love them so much and I so wish that Mandy could come back for their wedding...but in another universe these three will forever be best friends and always togetherđâ€ïž
Mickey mustâve been so confused when he got out of juvie in season 2. Ian was like a foot taller minus bowlcut and Mandy was a completely different woman
Mental illness is stored in the Shameless intro but with Bat family animation I will never make
Rewatching Shameless but starting with Mandy/Mickeyâs first episodes but forgot it means I gotta watch Karen and Kash againđâ
And on really bad days like Frank Gallagher
Everyday I wake up and think I need to dress more like Mickey Milkovich
Everyday I wake up and think I need to dress more like Mickey Milkovich
The council of girlfailure will decide your fate
Claudia and Lestat are so Fiona and Frank Gallagher from Shameless actually
guess what arrived in the mail today!
i was lucky enough to be one of the giveaway winners! đ
i love this zine and the creativity behind it! i really like when zines present themselves in different ways, wether that's artbooks, writing books, or in this case encouraging the reader to create crafts around the subject matter (being a pairing we all know and love đ€)
even if i was too late to be part of it, getting to read something like this and have it physically is beyond awesome! and thanks to the friends over at @gallacrafts for putting together such an awesome zine. đ€đ€đ€