playing a fun game of anxiety or new chronic illness symptom
some guy invited me to go clubbing with him and his friends... i tell him i would go, even though it's not something i usually do, but i couldn't drink because of the medication i'm taking/health issues
he looked at me and just went "oh maybe some other time then"
and my question is why? WHY am i required to drink to hang out with people? and if that's just a rule then there won't be some other time, because i got a chronic illness and not just a cold
should just start whacking peoples shins with my cane if they stare at me
i feel like i wasted all my healthy years with being sad
my mom told me she doesn't know what to do anymore with all the different health issues i got... which is like fair enough, but i wonder if she realizes how i feel and how draining it is to actually go to all the different doctors appointments
can't completely stand upright rn, but i'm still gonna try to function tomorrow (we'll see how that goes)
overdid it today... will suffer the consequences later
healthy people will never understand the amount of joy i feel when i come home dreading having to feed myself to then realize i still got leftovers
naptime does become mandatory again when you're chronically ill
i'm so tired of feeling sick all the time
i don't want to be miserable... i wanna worry about things that other people my age worry about and not how to manage doctor appointments... i want a doctor to actually help... i wanna feel okay and not be scared of dying
they CANCELLED the cardiologist appointment i was waiting for for OVER HALF A YEAR!
i was waiting for over an hour just to have someone come up to me to tell me they have to cancel and that i should call in 3 weeks to make a new appointment
the medical system is fucking bullshit and neglectful
casually having a low symptom day the day of a doctors appointment
gonna start answering "i hope you get better" with "thanks, i probably won't"
like i hope so too it's just not realistic rn
i wish stores would have more places to sit and rest for a little
like pleaseee i don't wanna pass out on your floor
i need people to understand that when i say i can't do something it means that i can't do something, it is not up for discussion
i just went climbing today which is something that will probably send me into a flare up, but omg it was so much fun...
i wish i could do things like that without consequences
love the random wave of nausea that hits me multiple times a day /s
feeling hungover and drunk at the same time eventhough i didn't drink and am actually just chronically ill
why tf do people think i am joking when i say i am chronically ill and then continue making fun of it as if it's nothing apart from some silly little joke
this is my fucking life, it shouldn't be a joke to you, you shouldn't assume i am lying just cause you can't tell i'm chronically ill just by looking at me when i don't use my mobility aid
i'm just gonna pretend when people stare at me in public/their heads turn when i walk by it's because i'm pretty, not because i use a cane
watching other people just live their life doing things you don't know if you'll ever be able to again...
going to school with a chronic illness really is a gamble sometimes
i would love a no symptoms day
"you complain a lot" when i haven't even told them half my symptoms and mentioned not feeling well two days in a row
one good thing about being chronically ill that i learned about this week is when you need to drive your friend to the hospital for drinking too much alcohol you know your way around and exactly where to go
i would like to cancel my chronic illness prescribtion... i need to get things done
i once asked a teacher to leave the room cause i was feeling like i was about to pass out so i wanted to lay down, he said yes, but after class came up to me telling me i should see a therapist because this seems like a serious mental problem.
SIR i am chronically ill...
i told him this is a physical condition and he said he doesn't believe me and doesn't wanna hear excuses
me casually overdoing it on a low symptoms day and then wondering the next day why i feel bad
(will i ever learn? probably not)
asking for accomodations shouldn't be this emberassing and shouldn't be a big deal and i shouldn't feel this guilty for needing them
everytime i feel something even just mildly wrong with my body for more than a few minutes i immediately panic thinking that this might be a new chronic symptom...
which sucks, because that makes my heart rate go up with then causes even more of my regular symptoms
how do i get rid of this anxiety about new symptoms?