The Human Way - Blog Posts
Hot take but I don't want AziCrow to have been "made" for each other. I want them to choose each other. Over and over again. Before The Beginning, Eden, The Arrangement, Armageddidn't, and on and on. I want them to never stop choosing each other but I want it to be a choice.
Still stuck on how Aziraphale ate that meat like he was starving. Like he’d been starved for millennia, and he hadn’t even known it, because he’d never once been fed. But we know they don’t have to eat (nor sleep, etc.), so what he’d been starved for is pleasure. Being present in his body, feeling the joys and longings it could feel. Understanding what taste buds were made for. He hadn’t known; he’d never learned to miss it.
Now imagine what a kiss has done to him.
[GO2 SPOILERS]
No bc I’ve been On That GO2 Brainrot, and I don’t know if all of you are comprehending the importance of that kiss. Like???? We know that angels and demons have an initial distaste for human things—they do stuff their own way, and anything that’s viewed as superfluous isn’t done (such as eating). We know that Aziraphale takes time to learn to enjoy human things, but he ends up loving them So Much (as seen when he eats that? Boar?? idk).
Before the kiss, I always assumed that, while Aziraphale and Crowley evidently loved each other deeply, they were just not the type of people to engage in physical affection most of the time, as they aren’t human. But when I think back to all the moments where Aziraphale and Crowley are seen falling in love with human things, it actually makes so much sense that Crowley would kiss Azira. Because that kiss is a goodbye, an expression of anger on their part, but it is also a desperate request—it is a symbol of everything that puts distance between aziracrow and Heaven and Hell, the humanness they have gained and their love for the world. Crowley engages in something so superfluous, so human, and it feels so right to me that they do. Azira is swept away by it, and I think at first he is resistant to it—as he was at first to all things human—but I think he also learned to like it, because why wouldn’t he? why wouldn’t he love such a human expression of love? I think Azira followed the Metatron DESPITE the fact that he loved that kiss.
That kiss is a symbol of everything Azira and Crowley are, of what they could be—of levels of humanness they haven’t reached yet. I only hope Azira realises that he values that sweet possibility, of being with Crowley in every conceivable way, enough to give up on Heaven. Because as important as that kiss was, Aziraphale still left Crowley. We’ll see.
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He put distance as soon as Aziraphale pushed the idea of coming to heaven on him again after Crowley's confession. he already knew this was over, but when Aziraphale stops him they take second shots at explaining themselves to each other.
"we can be together!"
This is when Crowley tenses up, even if I cant for the life of me find a gif of it. Aziraphale thinks he's saying the same thing Crowley was during his speech about going off together, but he isn't.
"I don't think you understand what I'm offering you"
"I think I understand better than you do"
Crowley knows they couldn't really be together in heaven, not the way he wants. They could only be colleagues, essentially go back to the way they were working on Earth before. Sanctioned this time, but still just the same.
"you idiot. we could've been. us"
Crowley starts trying to describe exactly what the difference is. no nightingales, we could've been us, anything of their coded language that might get through to Aziraphale. but everything falls just short.
So he tries just what he did in the first episode. "just breathe, breathe and count to ten. that's what humans do"
he tries the human way.
it still doesnt work.