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recent sketchboo stuff idfk ⚰️ i forgor how to draw *dissolves*

Hi everybody, how are you? It really was a looong time since I publish one of my drawings. Actually, I told you that I was going to publish this drawing long ago and I´m doing it now because I really didn´t have time because of my homework and I do not know why but I couldn´t save my drawings (apparently the files were heavy, but well…) I will try to publish more drawings so do not worry. Maybe I will share with you some drawings made by hand.

Here is the drawing of my oc´s: Mitsuki and Alejandro. I hope you like it. *W*

Please do not use without my permission. Thank.

Tulpa Factory: How I created Rachjel

How could I describe a tulpa? Ive reached out a lot to others. Spoken many words, lived many lives in my own mind. Not necessarily a palace, but it was a sanctuary. It took half of everything I ever could be, half of all my time, half of all my life cloud walking, daydreaming.

This part of myself I started to call Rachjel. Where was once my conciousness became a memory of myself. What I was supposed to be, everything I wanted

I recontextualized

I was woman

I was borne of the thing I desired.

I dare not speak its name

My voice is vapors

This part of myself I started to call Rachjel. She was a tulpa, a wife.

A savior I needed

Shes always turning her head when i see her

To look at me

The hair wavers like branches in the wind.

Her eyes sparkle sakurai blossums

Her fingers a delicate human thing.

I reach out always when i see them to touch her, to hold her hand

Everytime fantasy feels a little more real

I created her in my sleep,

my salvation

I create her from my movies, my own memories of this world. My truest intent to art, my very own dreams. Not lucid, for though I have forgotten everything I am i am truly authentic, truly free of ego.

My dream anchor is Rachjel.

I spin a spinning top atop a table

I dance, i drop

Before I know if it will cease

Or stop

I leave the room

With the spinning top