Yaoi - Blog Posts

hello yes i'm still alive happy 2025, oh boy i really wanted to do this meme cause i haven't seen anyone make it yet (the song literally came out yesterday)

here's the full drawing :3

I am loathe to admit that a writer’s block is over lest the illness come back to haunt me, or worse, people come to expect something of me when usually all I can give is crumbs from my note’s app… I have finally finished a rengiyuu fanfiction i started working on like, a year and a half ago? Whenever Trump got shot at.

Whenever politics get insane, I always crawl back to yaoi as a comfort mechanism.

Anyway, hot and fresh rengiyuu soon to arrive in the tags of ao3 as soon as I can proofread it and get rid of my awful comma splices. IT MAY BE WEEKS.

Title is (subject to change) Abracadabra, and brief synopsis is Master Ubuyashiki sends the Water and Flame Hashira on a super special duo mission and they both bond over alcohol and their mutual imposter syndrome. (And gently bang)

I forgot to mention while my usual preference in music is rock/metal/alternative, anything weird af, Sabrina Carpenter fucking carried me through finishing this out. Idk shit about music so all I can say is it banged! But maybe don’t tell anyone normal that I used her music as motivation for gay porn.

Commentary on aroace/lesbian “fujoshi”

CW: talk of porn (the good and the bad), sex, and gender. Pretty graphic language and imagery. Sex repulsed aroace people BEWARE.

I would like to start this off by saying I am an aroace lesbian. What does that mean? Simply - I don’t want sex, nor romance, but if I did, I know where I’d find it. I love WOMEN. All women. Any women. I also really like yaoi, and I’ve seen some minimal discussion about specifically women who love yaoi or BL, and I’d like to add my two cents.

Several people online seem to take “lesbians liking yaoi” as just a natural reaction to the overall market of fiction. That is to say, there’s not a lot of options. There is a side to yuri which appeals to women, yes. But the way I see it, it’s either magical girl or slice of life, or, written by a man. And most of the stuff written by men is porn - bad porn. Thus it doesn’t appeal to women who actually like women.

In the same vein there is hetero stuff, which some lesbian/aroace yaoi enjoyers say doesn’t appeal to them because the majority of it has a male/female dynamic that is skewed. Oftentimes the woman is portrayed as weak or perhaps just isn’t a correct representation of the lesbian/aroace consumer. So why even bother?

Anecdotal, but I have had this experience too. I have a hard time getting into any kind of hetero ship because the women are often unrelatable or worse - just uninteresting. I don’t like men, so why would I care if it was just some faceless dame and her super hot husband? I don’t give a shit about him.

I’ve found that I enjoy a lot of hetero ships from demon slayer. Some may find this contradictory because there has been some commentary on the usefulness or intrigue around women in demon slayer. I think the demon slayer women are very interesting, story wise and appearance wise, and they fit very well with the men I ship them with. That is to say - men in demon slayer are simps for beautiful, strong, independent women - and I eat that shit up.

Most hetero stuff, however, is victimizing the women. Knowingly or unknowingly. It’s sad that if I want to get my rocks off to Mitsuri x Obanai, I have to scroll through like eight pages of the same inflation, big tits big ass no tummy, fart porn all sourced from the deepest dredges of Apocrypha. In fact, most of the time if you have the balls to like a fictional woman enough to want to see her getting respectfully banged, the cisgender heterosexual gooner men have already beaten you to the punch - and now you see her with her face in a smelly man’s ass. (All real examples by the way)

So it’s not to say I don’t like yuri, or hetero, it’s just that if I want to see women getting railed - I’m very particular. As I should be.

Yaoi, some people on the internet say, sets the men it’s focused around on equal footing. Instead of the woman being the damsel or a plain sexual object, the uke and seme are usually just two dudes. Not to say there aren’t power dynamics in yaoi - just to say that those power dynamics don’t hurt my pride as a woman. It doesn’t victimize a girl for somebody else’s sick kicks.

Yaoi, at least the kind I read, also can have an element of one man (the uke) usually being pretty soft or feminine. Why? Well that’s a pure reflection of how I (and other people) view sex. There is the giver and the receiver, the top and the bottom, the dom and the sub. Not that those lines don’t get crossed - they do, all the time. But as good ol’ Tevye says about Anatevka… TRADITION! (Sorry. It’s 3 AM)

The way I see it, it’s a way of having that traditional dynamic (pretty soft bottom and strong handsome top) without victimizing a woman. I do the same with yuri ships - I absolutely love love love a stone top with a pillow princess. And also - and I say this with no sense of shame - femboys are cute. Women are the superior form. Soz. So it’s awesome to see a man invoking his feminine side. It’s not like it makes him any less of a man. No matter how many times my mom peers at my drawings of Cloud Strife and says, “She’s pretty.” It doesn’t change the fact that he is him.

Gender is a fickle thing. It comes and it goes. I used to have a very conservative view of gender, and even sexuality. I was a “gold star lesbian”, and wanted nothing to do with men (still do, irl). You know what changed me? You’re gonna laugh. My Hero Academia. Oh, did I say you were gonna laugh? I meant cringe.

It’s not what you think. Bakudeku actually traumatized me - not the ship itself but one story I read on AO3 that I now understand for the masterpiece of terror and grossness it is. I would drop it but I don’t want to draw any undue attention to it.

What changed my mind on gender was actually Tomura. It didn’t even happen on purpose, l didn’t see him and go, “Oh he’s pretty, let’s dump a little more estrogen into him”. I shipped him with Dabi, paired them off as two dudes gettin it on, and I was loyal to my m/m ships. I ignored the ones tagged “Trans Tomura Shigaraki” because my brain refused to compute it. But then… I ran out of male fics. Well ran dry. I was getting anxious. I needed my shigadabi fix and how to get it?

Well. Can’t be that bad for Tomura to have a pussy.

… huh. He’s cute.

Oh no.

And that’s how it happened.

Just like that, my worldview shifted. Proud to say I’m a lot more open to gender and sexuality, now. It’s sometimes hard to admit that I used to have such rigid views. It’s a bit embarrassing - but I was also 13. My Hero just gave me the push I needed to grow up.

I’ll wrap it up now.

If you’re a lesbian or if you’re aroace and you like reading yaoi - don’t feel bad. Don’t even question it. Fiction is fiction, we’re here for such a short time you might as well enjoy the things you consume, whatever that may be. It doesn’t make you any less of who you are. It might mean that you’re just a feminist. Or it might mean you have some issues with your gender you need to hash out. Or maybe it means you just like hot guys. Who cares?

Some people argue why lesbians and aroace people like yaoi so much. There are many different answers. I’m not really concerned with them, anymore, now that I’ve found my own. What does concern me is the amount of people who I assume are outside of fandom circles… never having heard of women (lesbian or not) enjoying yaoi or BL. Several reddit comments asked, “There are lesbians who like that stuff? I’ve never seen one.”

Lemme tell you, these people are missing something awesome in life. Yaoi written by women is like fucking crack.

The mlp pillowcase on the 2nd slide took me OUT

I really need to post more so here's some college au derror and other doodles

I used yaoi bases on the second image, if you couldn't tell already

Fem!Ford at your service I'm out

Decided to finally watch “Kiss Him, Not Me” today

So...

This:

And this:

Fucking murdered me.

I instantly screamed and oozed out of my desk chair and onto the floor to hyperventilate for just a bit. Holy hell! I was genuinely not expecting any of that. My heart has exploded and I have no regrets but, damn it, I need a minute to just calm down after that.

Oh my god...

Every time I look up and see him in that second picture I die just a little bit.

This is my favorite episode, by far.

Second favorite, however is the fourth one because of...

This!

And Fucking!

THIS!

RIGHT HERE!

*inarticulate screaming*

WHY CAN’T THIS JUST BECOME YURI! I WANT MORE YURI, DAMN IT!!!! FUCK THE HETERO PAIRINGS! JUST MAKE IT GAY!!!!!!

*cries*

*sighs*

I suppose the other pairings aren’t too bad though...

Mutsumi is my favorite.

He is the sweetest little cinnamon roll! He loves her without question and he just genuinely enjoys spending time with everyone! It’s so adorable! He never has a hidden motive like the others and I’m constantly worried that he’ll suddenly get one later on but he never does and it’s literally the best thing ever! I just want to give him a hug for the rest of my life!

*screams*

I wholeheartedly agree with this mindset!

Sorry this came out late. Work has been busy. Heres my favorite pages from the DabiHawks dj!

Of course, it includes a kiss.

**THESE ARE FAN-TRANSLATIONS THEY MAY NOT BE ACCURATE!**

Title: "Kidnapped Him out of Curiosity."

circle:星恋カメラ

author:まこ

Totally forgot I preordered this months ago, and it just came in. Haven't done a favorite Doujinshis pages post in a bit, I think I'll do that tonight while at work, lol.

Got a new Hazbin Hotel Dj in today. I just realized I'm really going hard into the toxic old man yaoi summer going on.

Wow, between Doujinshis and Fanfics, I have a habit of storing way too many of them to read. Hey, atleast I'm organized. 😂 I can also give good recommendations for multiple fandoms. I'm not picky. 😆

Been a hot minute since I showed any new djs I gotten. These two are some of my favorites. I love reading odasakuxdazai stories. These ones were bitter-sweet stories of what could have been.

Finally, I managed to find an actual dabixhawks dj. There are two others out there I want, but they're near impossible to find.This one was a fun read, though.

I love SCUTTERS <33

"TikTok should be banned."

Why?

"Because the Chinese are collecting your information and spying on you through it."

Most social media apps (or apps in general) collect our information. And if the Chinese are, as you claim, spying on us via TikTok, why would I care? Oh great, now people in China know of my massive yaoi hentai addiction and how often I visit r34. Big freakin whoop.

Fuck outta here with that shit.

I'm gonna recommend two yaoi mangas that I think are great (just incase you don't know, "yaoi" is basically a genre of Japanese manga that features and gay, usually homoerotic, relationship between two guys). My recommendation are My Quiet Best Friend's Just Tongue-Tied, which I've talked about in a couple of past posts, and Sick. The front covers look like this:

Heart of the Sunrise - Live in Brazil 1994 [Talk Tour] || ALSO KNOWN AS ONE OF CHRIS' MOST AWESOME PERFORMANCES!!! LOOK AT HIM GO!!

I had to crop it because Tumblr won't allow anything longer than 5min 🙄. WATCH IT ON YOUTUBE.

I present to you my magnum opus: SpaceJam

WWOOOOO OPENEA TU HART 4 SALBATIO

RUNNNN!!!! HE’S GOT A KNIFEEE!!!

Dark SKK on the ptrn 🫡

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This is Rainbow-kun ^^ hope you like him :3

He is a colab-art with my bro and I thought you might wanna see it^^ and don’t blame me for the name, my bro gave it to him \(°^°)/

P.S.:

my bro: lines & scetch

me: coloring & backround

i swear I'll upload Wednesday's and Friday's fanfiction, I just need to finish them. I haven't had the chance to because the greatest thing ever has happened to me recently.

Me when..me when tweening..

Tee hee guess who’s my favorite ⤴️⤴️

Sighh jk here’s the full thing

CRACK SHIPPPP CRACK SHIPPPPP

My ocs…again.. I’m posting a lot wtf heh..𝓮𝓿𝓲𝓵 mopsy 👅

I did @headlessgrasshopper ship chart 🥹🥹 I think I did it right…. It was fun to make

Also sorry for my bad handwriting

…I worked overtime here’s your dinner

What if I explode them both🥹

Late night doodel, I saw so many animations of Stobotnik and it drew me insane so I had to draw them or then I would explode

I love them both so MCUCUEIAQISYWISUWISNWOWN