Alwaysmissingyou - Always Missing You

An emotion: *pokes its head through the mountain of suppression I've buried it under*

Me, beating it with a stick: Back! Back!

“I am tired of pain. This thing that’s necessary, inevitable and leaves too many scars. I am tired of being so sensitive to anything that triggers my wounds to bleed.”

— Juansen Dizon, Tired human

How can I decide what's right

When you're clouding up my mind?

I can't win your losing fight

All the time

Nor could I ever own what's mine

When you're always taking sides

But you won't take away my pride

No, not this time

Not this time

How did we get here?

Well, I used to know you so well

But how did we get here?

Well, I think I know

The truth is hiding in your eyes

And it's hanging on your tongue

Just boiling in my blood

But you think that I can't see

What kind of man that you are

If you're a man at all

Well, I will figure this one out

On my own (I'm screaming, "I love you so")

On my own (But my thoughts you can't decode)

i’m so mentally exhausted it’s unreal

i just wanted you to love me. why did you break me?

please make it stop.

It hurts so bad.