I Just Love Painting The Sea, I Wanna Do Just That Until I Find A New Thing To Obsess Over

I don’t vote left or right. Perhaps I deserve to be beaten for that, at least according to some. But in my experience neither side makes me feel welcomed. However one side has made me feel more welcome than the other. Let me explain.

I don’t lean heavily either way. I would consider myself biblical conservative who thinks both sides have a few good ideas and a lot of horrible ideas. Of course, because I am conservative I’m accused of being a republican or right winger all the time.

My experience with the right: I’ve lost alot of friends, even within the church, over the political struggles. My old weekly group literally became so obsessed with Trump that they don’t accept anyone who doesn’t wear his merch and call themselves trumpettes(they are all women, their husbands all agree but it was the women who ran things in that group). They left the church for a more far right leaning church that celebrates Trump and America over Jesus. My parents are so far right that they can’t even stand to hear James and I discuss how right leaning policies of the past have actually hurt us. My mother called me a “dumb liberal” on her Facebook page because she thought I voted Harris instead of Trump. (I didn’t vote either). My uncle is horribly racist and a Trump supporter so extreme that every word from his mouth is praise for him and then mocking the left or wanting leftists to be gotten rid of. However this is only a few of the right leaning people in my life. Maybe 15 people at most. The rest of the right leaning people in my life have discussed politics with me and expressed their love for the other side. They make me feel welcomed and their love of Christ is so massive. They don’t care about where you fall on the political spectrum, they just want you to know you are loved. Their lives aren’t a shrine to Trump, but a banner for Jesus and His love and salvation.

My experience with the left: this is a tricky one because it’s been the opposite of the top. Where as the top there was only maybe 15 or so bad actors, with the left side I have only had 15 or so good encounters and hundreds of bad ones. In the left if you don’t think like the masses you are not allowed to have opinions. My religion has been targeted, and I’ve been told many horrid things because I choose to follow the Jesus of the Bible and not the Jesus people make up in progressive churches. I’ve been attacked for leaving conservative on my beliefs, which I base around the very words of God Himself. I’ve been attacked for not voting for Kamala Harris. I’ve been called racist, sexist, homophobic, transphobic, terf, nazi, bigot, and every fowl word you can think of. All because I don’t agree with the left ideas of gender politics, abortion, critical race theory, and other fast activism movements they subscribe to. I’ve been told to kill myself almost daily, get raped, and had people hoping I get drawn and quartered slowly by cars. (A real thing I was told btw). I’ve had people celebrate my brain tumor, telling me they hope I suffer and die from it slowly. They have celebrated my infertility. They celebrate my depression, anxiety and other mental disorders. They have been extremely ableist towards me as an autistic person. They tell me they hope my husband leaves me and I die alone. They have told me they want me to get cancer and die. They have told me I’m a waste of oxygen and they wish nothing but anguish on my life. They have called me every word for stupid, every word for retarded, every word for useless. They refuse to even hear me out 99% of the time, and if I do give an opinion it’s usually followed by dog piled death threats. Even had a few people tell me they fantasize about someone stabbing or shooting me in between my legs.

So all this to be said, I do lean a certain way. And it’s because of the way I’ve been treated. Left leaning people, take a look at yourselves and ask yourselves why you lost. I just listed every reason for you. If you ever want a seat of power again, maybe work on how you treat others. Because the tyranny you claim to fight you really seem to love.

Right leaning people also need to focus on the way Christ is represented. Because if people’s idea of Jesus is just Donald Trump- because that’s all church going people want to talk about- that’s not good at all. Jesus is not a politician, so stop trying to force him into the White House.

*takes a bite of my double chocolate all natural 16g of protein kosher no artificial sweetener certified vegan no soy cookie i won as a bet* at least it removes all moisture from my mouth and doesn't taste good at all

i won a bet with a friend and have been owed a cookie for the last week. i finally got my cookie today.

it's a protein cookie.

zwei

I don’t think any movie will make me feel the same ethereal sense of otherworldly sorrow and disembodied awe as that scene in Lord of the Rings where the loyal son is sent off into a doomed battle to please his vindictive father while Pippin sings a mourning song of his people

I was like 12 and high off this shit

Do you like any bad smells?

Cigarettes

Fuel exhaust

Skunk (not weed, actual skunk)

Wet dog

Sweat / BO

Old person

Several of these

Other??? (freak)

None I hate smelling anything ever

I’m not including weed or pussy bc if I did they would win by a landslide

And yes I like all of these smells, even tho half of them give me headaches

I’m not including weed or pussy bc if I did they would win by a landslide

And yes I like all of these smells, even tho half of them give me headaches

don't forget the fear of coming across as performative and pedantic just because you know big words and use them correctly

the need to talk about the characters vs the fear that all of my analysis is just empty prose and surface level understanding

Just reblogging bc the world could learn from this. No form of hatred will ever heal or help anyone, ever.

Follow up question/experiment:

PLEASE REBLOG FOR A BIGGER SAMPLE!