Biblically Accurate Arlecchino !!! 🥀

“I cannot help being grateful for my happiness; at the same time, I have a premonition that it will end, that someday I must pay for it, that moment by moment I am whittling away my life.”

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Tanizaki Jun'ichirō, The Key

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i love having mismatched merch for characters, like here's kuroo tetsurou (18) high school volleyball player and his good friend bokuto koutarou (18) high school volleyball player

Writing Prompt #1635

“This joke has gone on long enough; it’s fair time to reveal yourself to these people.”

Anger and embarrassment warmed my face, and I found myself unable to look at my friends. The friends I had been deceiving all this time. I had told myself they would never know, and now it wasn’t even my choice.

ok ok god your posts are so GOOD i genuinely am just eating all of your content right up. i would pay so much for just a huge book of all of your thoughts fr... anywho i was just wondering if you have any thoughts on an aquarius stellium??? or just how stellia work in general.... ty ty so much in advanced 🕊🕯🤍

oh my god this ask almost made me cry help!! that’s SO sweet + this is quite possibly one of the nicest things anyone has ever said, thank u so much!!!!! 🥺😭🤍💖 i actually have a post on aquarius stelliums right here!

as for stellia in general, they’re just an *intense* concentration of energy in either a sign or a house. there’s lots of varying opinions on what constitutes a stellium, for some people it’s three or more planets in a sign, for others it’s four; and for some (myself included) it depends on the planets (if you want my opinion on what makes a stellium, let me know! but i always say trust your own intuition at the end of the day).

with sign stelliums, it generally just makes the traits of said sign very dominant in your personality. you could have a pisces sun, for example; which would make you more likely to be passive and soft-spoken. but if you had, let’s say an aries stellium, you’re going to likely be very blunt and confrontational for a pisces. you still have the flexibility and soft-nature of a pisces sun, your ego is still that of a pisces, but that aries energy is going to make it’s way into your personality STRONGLY. you might end up relating a lot to traits associated with aries suns and ascendants, along with your pisces sun; you may even lack relation to a lot of traditional pisces associations due to the aries stelliums dominance in the personality.

with house stelliums, it makes that area of your life more “heavy” or prominent. a third house stellium, for example, is likely a very communicative individual. their life heavily revolves around the themes of the third house, likely without them trying. they may not be outgoing or extraverted, but they’re probably very talkative. they may be heavily interested in communications, marketing, social media, and technology; they also probably thrived in school and have strongly emphasized relationships with siblings, and/or neighbors. 

of course this is depending on the planets and aspects involved in the stellium, though. a third house stellium with a harshly aspected pluto/saturn may indicate someone who was strictly controlled in their studies, had no freedom nor independence in their speech/education/etc, and/or was someone who struggled greatly with authority figures in school, as well as with siblings. a third house stellium with a softly aspected venus and mercury could create someone who got high grades in school/was considered gifted, has a quick wit and heavy sarcasm in their daily speech, is considered very charming and social, etc. a well-aspected pluto in a third house stellium could point towards someone who can easily influence others opinions with their charisma and way of speaking;  a well-aspected saturn in a third house stellium could create a person who has strong unshakable opinions and morals and is able to communicate them with authority; gaining easy respect from others. malefics like saturn and “harder” planets like pluto aren’t always negative in a stellium (just like benefics aren’t always “good” or easy in a stellium or in the chart in general). 

it’s all relative to aspects and planets involved in terms of how a stellium will manifest (same goes for the sign stelliums!), but at the end of the day, it amplifies said house regardless.

the key to any stellium is to balance it, i recommend looking to the opposite sign or house to the one you have a stellium in. for signs, i also find it can help to look to the signs your stellium squares for guidance as well. if you had a first house stellium, it can potentially create an unhealthy ego & self-absorption/selfishness in an individual. in their case, it’d be important for them to nurture and focus on the themes of the first houses opposite house: the seventh house. the seventh house is all about others; so the first house stellium person would need to learn how to maintain healthy relationships with others/understand the importance of connection, be less self-reliant/learn to accept help, learn to consider other’s/all opinions, etc!

one of the most powerful messages orv has tbh is "your self-loathing behavior badly hurts other people who want to care for you." a lot of depictions of depression, suicidality, issues with self-esteem, etc. focus near-exclusively on the person who suffers from them, which is understandable, but I love that orv is commited to showing how SELFISH kdj's behavior can be. he tends to trample over other people's desperate wishes to connect to him and love him because he doesn't think he's worthy of it, and it ends up being some of the worst pain those people have ever experienced when he won't let them reach him! he's of course a sympathetic character but he still has this horrible habit of disregarding other people's emotions in ways that are unintentionally awfully cruel!

like idk i don't think anything's ever put a silver bullet through a martyr complex quite like the message of "you hurt people SO MUCH WORSE by harming & isolating yourself than any pain you could potentially cause them by sharing your burdens with them." it's realistic and kind while still being the brick upside the head some people need to snap em out of it lmao

Excuse me miss Yae, do you have a boyfriend?

I wonder about Han Sooyoung a lot. How could someone (3rd round) who had only met and known you for less than 4 years would be willing to wait for you for 50 years and then regress and experience hell all over again just to bring you back? How could that someone's other self (1864th round) in another timeline who had also only met and known you for a couple of weeks would be willing to spend 13 years of their remaining life writing a story for you everyday and doomed the entire world just so you could survive?

But when I really think about it—for Han Sooyoung—it did make sense.

Ever since she was born, she was neither wanted nor needed by anyone. Her parents would rather have her not exist. At some point, she also had a friend who set her up to blind dates but with how HSY only mentioned her once and never again throughout the story, perhaps that person wasn't really important to her either. So for the past 26 years, HSY had lived her life alone thinking if the world didn't need nor want her, then she didn't care for the world either.

Perhaps, at some point, she would even think that even if she were to disappear, no one would miss and mourn for her.

So imagine her surprise, when—for the first time ever—someone told her that she was needed. That he didn't want her to become a character. That he was willing to leave his life in her hands. That even if she ran away and hid somewhere, he would still look for her. That he believed in her to take care of the companions he left behind. That he didn't want to extend her 50 years of suffering if he could help it. That he wouldn't let her go because he hadn't heard the conclusion of the story from her yet. That he would cry if she died.

Their relationship might have started out of necessity—they were in an apocalypse after all—and HSY understood that they were merely using each other for their own benefits (plus they were enemies at first, too!). But then Kim Dokja lied about her being his friend before the scenarios (which when I think about it is technically not a lie because she was basically his confidant from his teenage years through adulthood during their exchanges in [Ways of Survival]'s comment section and DMs but they both didn't know that) when he didn't have to and the rest was history. She ended up being his companion for real.

KDJ might have only needed her at first but now he wanted her to be there in the ending he envisioned.

For the first time, HSY was needed and wanted. For the first time, someone was glad that she existed.

So even if it were measly 4 years for her 3rd round and a couple of weeks or so for her 1864th round, meeting him was enough to make an impact in her life. The amount of time spent together was not important but the short time that mattered did.

She didn't care for this world to begin with anyway so if it meant bringing her sole reader back, then she would destroy more universes just for him and him alone.

For that 'small world' she didn't wish to disappear...

[ORV Chapter 533 - Epilogue 3: Author's words (2)]

The babies’ first trip to Tokyo (nobody tell them 🫵🏼)

klee with her big brothers 🌟