this blog is mainly just for random thoughts of mine & life updates. tw for topics related to sh and suicide
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getting mad at myself is so funny because yes of course i'm gonna ruin your life for that but also now my life is ruined and i have to be mad at myself for doing it and the cycle just continues
PLEASE FOR THE LOVE OF ALL THAT IS BEAUTIFUL KILL ME BEFORE I HAVE TO START WRITING THIS GODFORSAKEN DEBATE PLEASE
unfortunately i am nonchalant but its not even by choice i WISH i could be super chalant and cute, maybe that'd make people like me more
UGH i still have that stupid debate to write im gonna KILL MYSELF
sometimes i'm tempted to ask my online friends if they think i'm pretty (i love external validation) but then i remember they've never even seen my fucking face
btw if you do my writing assignments for me i'll love you forever just saying
i <3 actively making myself get worse so that people actually take me seriously
"i have the endurance of a god," i say, knowing damn well i haven't endured shit
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME I'M LITERALLY THE BEST
took a blood test today, i am elated
IN THREE MONTHS I GAINED 4 KILOGRAMS WHAT THE FUCK THATS IT IM NOT EATING ANYMORE
i love flattering people it's so fun seeing how they react to praise
nothing better than befriending someone who has no friends, they literally give you all their attention
i absolutely adore feeling someone else's weight on me, it's like a blanket but cooler
in the mood to start eating really little again what do we think guys
What's your number 1 biggest dream in life?
to feel loved
pain no longer tickles that little corner of my brain like it used to, i'm tired
i'm so good at stroking people's egos i feel like this should be a profession
remember: you are dirty and evil. dirty and evil. dirty and evil. dirty and evil. dirty and evil. dirty and evil. dirty and evil. dirty and evil. dirty and evil. dirty and evil. dirty and evil. dirty and evil. dirty and evil. dirty and evil. dirty and evil. dirty and evil
i can't stop thinking of kissing my friend what does this mean guys
got 2 compliments today. i think it's safe to say i'm fucking gorgeous
if someone pisses me off one more time today i think i'd be well within my rights to commit homicide
'People are panicking about AI tools the same way they did when the calculator was invented, stop worrying' cannot stress enough the calculator did not forcibly pervade every aspect of our lives, has such a low error rate it's a statistical anomaly when it does happen, isn't built on mass plagiarism, and does not obliterate the fucking environment when you use it. Be so fucking serious right now
"you're really gonna eat all that?" your absolutely fucked relationship w food is none of my business btw
keep yourself cute!
Close up under the cut
it was not on wheat...
...noodle sex???ðŸ˜ðŸ˜
First thing you see after you zoom in is how you die
How you dying 👀
i was talking to myself when i realized it wasn't myself i was talking to. it was someone i know, except they weren't actually talking to me. idk if everyone does this but i just came to the realization that i have full blown conversations with this one person only for all the conversations to be imaginary. what the fuck.