Me: You Literally Have A Disorder. This Is Symptoms

HAPPY JUNETEENTH HELP UR LOCAL BLACK GOTH DYKE SURVIVE 💜

have been forced to choose between eating for the day and paying for transportation lately so i could pay off debts for my family and myself anything helps <33

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Literally my favorite pokemon line

wow! birds

words cannot describe the childlike wonder and joy felt when you enter a restaurant and they have those fancy soda machines capable of creating Wondrous Concoctions

I think this might be my new magnum opus

"French Pokémon names are so beautiful"

Sorry had to share this clip it's funny to me

Diary Entry #25 (one mostly about something not trans-related... yay?)

I was stimming so much at work today. Or maybe ticcing or whatever bc I couldn't stop. It exhausted me more than actually working my shift. I wasn't feeling any particular way, I just got a bad stim/tic day just for some random reason ig.

My main tics/stims rn are sighing really deep, cracking my elbows, and inhaling hard with my nose. It probably looks really weird but I can't really help it. I guess that'd be more of a tic than a stim? I don't know if you can have tics without tourette's, i think I read that somewhere but like. i'm not sure.

I worry that I'll freak people out more whenever I pass as male or even as a trans male. I think it's worth the price of being seen as myself, it's just a minor concern i have. I'm really talkative and I worry about freaking out women. I don't act like a creep obviously, but I do appear autistic to most people and I am aware that people can be uncomfortable with me, even though I look like a girl.

If anyone with tics/stims can help me out here that'd be appreciated. I don't really know the difference.

I have been thinking the last several days about the horror of being mutilated as a intersex baby, or an intersex teen/kid. I'm perisex, and over the last few years (mostly in the last year) are the only times I've heard about intersex people.

How can this happen to so many people?? How has this gone under the radar?? It's a human rights abuse, and nobody is doing anything about it. Sometimes I can be naïve, but I would hope that the world isn't this cruel.

I have a lot to learn about a lot of things, but I hope to learn as much as I can.

Sorry if this sounds stupid

people really fail to see the physical violence behind the hyperinvisibility of intersex people.

we are erased in legislation and society broadly but we are also victims of an extermination campaign.

our invisibility doesn't come from people just failing to recognize us it comes from the fact that we are mutilated at birth and if we are not mutilated at birth we are mutilated at puberty. people without variations that can be changed by surgery are put on hormones against their will. it is rare to find an intersex person who hasn't experienced medical violence!

so many intersex people don't even know that they, themselves are intersex! some people have their intersex variation hidden from them, being outright lied to by parents and doctors about their own body. other people are never given the word intersex, they are told they have a DSD (disorder of sexual development), that they have a medical problem. almost no intersex person is told that they are intersex by a doctor.

our lack of visibility is written in literal blood. so when someone tries to say "well, intersex people don't have it that bad, no one is thinking about them" they're saying that all this "isn't so bad" that an effective extermination campaign "isn't that bad" because they can't see it happening.

I AM SCREAMING HOLY SHIT TOMODACHI LIFE WAS MY SHIT WHEN I WAS A KID!!!

Feeling silly might tell my grandparents I’m trans again for the millionth time even though they have nothing but hate for trans people :):))))))):):)):)