Anxiety Is So Stupid It's Like Your Brain Went Hey How Would You Like To Experience What It Feels Like

“Being aware of your fear is smart. Overcoming it is the mark of a successful person.” - Seth Godin

"The moon had been observing the earth longer than anyone. It must have witnessed all of the phenomena occurring—and all of the acts carried out —on this earth.

But the moon remained silent; it told no stories. All it did was embrace the heavy past with a cool, measured detachment. On the moon there was neither air nor wind. Its vacuum was perfect for preserving memories unscathed. No one could unlock the heart of the moon."

—Haruki Murakami, 1Q84

This is painful.

“Do you like me?”

“No.”

“Why? I give you my all”

“I didn’t accept it.”

I love getting unaccompanied minors (kids flying alone) who so clearly just. Don't want to be here lol. Sometimes I get to know a little of their story, like their parents are divorced, or a family member died and they're heading to the funeral, but usually they just don't want to talk about it and that's fine. But I always treat the flight like it's a challenge to make them smile. I offer them snacks and soda but that's never enough, that's whatever, they could get those from an airport vending machine. Chump change. So then I tell the worst jokes. Just the most embarrassing, kindergarten teacher, annoying dad jokes you can think of. And those always get a groan, or a "Seriously??" And that's my in! Now I can say "Why, what's your idea of a good joke? No, come on hotshot, make your best joke, let's see it." And they hem and they haw but of course they eventually tell me their very best joke because kids are little competitive comedy goldmines. And it's always super funny, so I laugh, and that's where they slip up. Because you know what you almost always do when your joke successfully makes someone laugh? You smile. And I'm like. Gotcha. Rookie move. Now you're going to end up having a good time in spite of yourself. I win.

“The best portion of your life will be the small, nameless moments you spend smiling with someone who matters to you.”

— Ritu Ghatourey

“The great art of life is sensation, to feel that we exist, even in pain.”

— Lord Byon

Thank goodness I have Tumblr. People don't know me here.

I can never bring my self to tell what I'm feeling on Twitter and Facebook. They'll just say, "You're too dramatic."