Bboshi - Boshi

Me: "Well I need to fix this part, time to fix it."

Also me: Adds on to the scene prior to the one I was attempting to fix.

Me: "God dammit." Not that I don't mind what I added, it felt like a nice addition that I didn't even realize I needed, but it's annoying sometimes when your brain pulls you away to something else within the story.

Not o.o.c, but I felt sharing a title could be fun, so here’s one of them! Won’t say we’re it is in the fic ;)

If you haven’t (or have) noticed the past few posts, Nedzu has a prominent focus within the fic so yeah he’s fairly involved in this, at least for a chunk of it.

Not an April fools!

Out of context moment from a fanfiction I’m writing involving My Hero Academia and Deltarune.

the stats spiral

That's what I call it when I start obsessing over the numbers I get on fics or posts. When I refresh AO3 every five or ten minutes to see if I've got more hits or kudos. When I keep my tumblr activity page open in a tab to see new notes as soon as they come in.

It's not fun. Not really. Even when I sometimes tell myself it is.

You see, it starts out exciting! I've put a thing out there and now I get to see the reactions to it! I'm like a kid on their birthday who can't wait to see their presents. What are people going to say? Will they like it? Will they talk to me about it?

I'm lucky enough that I do get notes on tumblr posts and I do get comments and kudos when I post on AO3. But depending on how excited I am about the thing that I made and depending on how uncertain I am of whether it's any good, I want to get a lot more attention than I end up getting.

I know that that's a normal feeling. I know it's even a rational one! I've put a lot of effort into making something, or I've made something that I think my community will like, and not hearing back like I'd hoped can sometimes feel like rejection. It can be a huge disappointment that makes me doubt myself, my abilities, my connection to my community.

That's why I say it's not fun. Because even though 'engagement' can give me a really high high, it can also give me a really low low.

When I finally realize I'm in one of those lows (and it sometimes takes me a while to realize that I am), that's when I know that I need to step away.

When it's really bad, I just stop posting until I'm in a better mental space. For me, I now recognize that those feelings are often coming from me wanting a connection of some kind. The need for attention is coming from a feeling of loneliness or isolation, and so I need to counteract that by reaching out to people I know and care about to have a chat or a meal or just some time spent doing something communal.

When I can catch it early, then I force myself to close the activity tab here on tumblr and hide whatever stats are making me spiral on AO3. I've learned to recognize that I'm looking to those metrics as a way to feel important or special or cared for in some way and that I need to figure out where I'm feeling insecure in my life and how to get some reassurance - because strangers on the internet won't be able to give me what I need.

If you're currently spiraling, first of all lemme give you a hug ❤️ I hope you can take some time and figure out what it is that you want those stats to tell you about yourself or what it is that you think those stats will give you that you're not getting from somewhere else.

And if you haven't heard it lately, I'm glad that you're in this world - no matter what kind of numbers you have on your posts.

God DAMN Op I am in love with your takes of the Fun Gang. Susie reminds me of a particular old 90s TV show (Ed,Edd,Eddy/Ren&Stimply/Cown&Chicken), and it fits her very well. I love the little tatters you gave her clothing, making her lack of fitting in to any of the other kids more apparent with rugged and dirty clothes she either can't pay for or doesn't feel worth it to do. Ralsei is just so cute~~!!! It makes me think his hat is somehow casting a deep shadow over his head hence his in-game sprite being black when wearing it (aka your design feels like this but better). His royal garbing atop his robe and his scarf by his side really adds to his prince role, yet you feel an air of closed doors with not being able to see his body at all besides his head and feet, which works with him being a lone prince.

Kris looks so scruffy and his monotone expression within the game just gave off neutral vibes, but her it looks more "resting bitch face" which considering what Kris has gone through feels right. Sagged shoulders, slight bodily lean? Lack of self-confidence right there. All is to say great job Op do continue to draw peak!

THE GAME COMES OUT ON THE 5TH AND MY FINAL EXAM IS ON THE 6TH (WHICH MEANS WE WON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!) cant believe i picked up chapter 1 when i was 11 (when it came out) and im 18 now like thats surreal shit!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Have some store owners!

Gigant looks a lot younger than he may seem, despite everything else about him saying otherwise.

Corvus is kinda cultish about the Null, but is nice. Just has difficulties with it coming off as if she’s planning where your body is going to be buried.

Tentula is fairly animalistic, but does have good business. DO NOT STEAL FROM THEM.

YOU WILL REGRET IT.

Ican'tshow

So I usually make content using pre-existing media, but I've always wanted to do something original. Wholly my own. So here's that.

World basis:

Early in the 1980’s people were being born with completely different structural heads than normal. Late into it was it found to be a sudden neurological connection to the 4th dimension, causing a literal and physical mental imbalance.

Those affected believed it should be removed, so they were meant to be Nullified, but instead this stuck as the term for those born with it.

Once the panic had calmed down, society began to pick itself back up by the late 1990’s.

The mass of the older generation, who have not gotten this neurological change, have indifference or even hatred to those Nullified.

Nullified:

Those who had this neurological connection resulted in their head, or body, having completely different properties to that of someone without it.

Because the connection is based in time, every person with it doesn’t have the same look or effect. No two people will ever have exactly tge same results.

Despite how they look, Nullfied can still function like a normal human, not withstanding any mental or physical disabilities formed from birth (which were wrongly accused to be more common in Nullfied as a way to see them lesser. There is no factual evidence that being Null is naturally flawed).

Some who become Null may even have the ability to do things once seen as impossible, akin to comic book superhero’s.

Since the variety would make it impossible to narrow down powers that are or aren’t harmful, Null who can do this are under government watchlists (unbeknownst to the Nullfied).

Otherwise, court of law judges Null’s powers in their own sanctum, so mental or physical assault with these abilities are classified as such.

======================== So what does this mean?

Think My Hero quirks but it's casual instead of Hero Vs Villian shit.

Shayy

+ Meta-Morphing shape for a head

+ Emotions are very much on his sleeve

+ jack of all arts, master of none

+ Hard time with friends

+ ADHD like mad

Louisiana

+ Whole eye for a head

+ Doesn’t really have an idea for what she wanna do for a life

+ Knows most of the other nulls in the small town, but most prominently…

Crane

+ An asshole

+ Whole body minus the center is skeleton

+ Feels like his life is already done

+ Gas Station worker

+ Smokes a lot; doesn’t feel it cause it can’t reach his lungs

Also a lot more I'm concocting.

This thing will either be a comic, written book, or, what i'd most prefer...

A visual novel! Thanks for reading if you have :) I'm not sure if this will go anywhere but I still wanna put it out there for me myself and I

butch4fawn

MASTER POST!

These are prompt 1-100. (I also screwed up the numbering somewhere soo... things may or may not be out of line."

#1 What if your character was in a zombie apocalypse?

#2 What would your character do if they got everything they wanted?

#3 What would your character do if they were evil?

#5 What would your character do if they saw a tyrannosaurus-rex?

#6 What would your character do if accidentally hurt someone really badly?

#7 What would your character do if a cult member asked them to join them?

#8 What would your character do if they met the Grinch?

#9 What would your Character do if a gun was put to their head?

#10 What would your character do if they were kidnapped?

#11 What would your character do if they were deserted on an island?

#13 What would your character do if they met the Batman?

#14 What would your character do if they got reincarnated as a child?

#15 What would your character do if they met the hulk?

#16 What would your character do if someone slapped them?

#17 What would your character do if there was an earthquake?

#18 What would your character do if the world flooded?

#19 What would your character do if the president suddenly showed up at their front door?

#20 What would your character do if they where told “you can’t come.”

#22 What would your character do if they owned a Walmart?

#24 What would your character do if they could only eat one food for the rest of their life, what food would it be?

#25 What would your character do if they were a superhero? (And what would their powers be?)

#26 What would your character do if they were forced to perform on stage?

#27 What would your character do if they were a ruler of the world?

#28 What would your character do if time machines existed, what would be the first thing they’d do?

#29 What would your character do if the mailman handed them a baby?

#30 What would your character do if they were homeless?

#31 What would your character do if there was a serial killer on the loose?

#32 What would your character do if their wanted poster went up?

#33 What would your character do if they turned into a monster? (like their body turned into a monster form)

#34 What would your character do if they went to a farm?

#35 What would your character do if during of of the biggest battles of their life their mom called them?

#36 What would your character do if they discovered their sibling/friend was abused?

#38 What would your character do if they could be granted three wishes?

#39 What would your character do if they got magic powers? (or if they already have them, what would they do if they have none?)

#40 What would your character do if they were deaf?

#41 What would your character do if they couldn’t speak?

#42 What would your character do if they can’t feel anything?(physically)

#43 What would your character do if they were blind?

#44 What would your character do if their hair fell out?

#45 What would your character do if they were imprisoned?

#46 What would your character do if every time they said a mean thing a disfiguring tattoo appeared on them?

#47 What would your character do if their best friend died in front of them?

#48 What would your character do if a loved one turned evil?

#49 What would your character do if they got a surprise kiss?

#50 What would your character do if they met Jinx? (From arcane)

#51 What would your character do if they were placed in front of the end of the world button?

#52 What would your character do if they couldn't use their legs?

#53 What would your character do if they where stabbed?

#54 What would your character do, if didn’t have a phone? (Or if they already don't have one;) What would they do with one?

#55 What would your character do if a lost child came to them?

#56 What would your character do if they where shunned?

#57 What would your character do if they where handed drugs?

#58 What would your character do if they couldn’t talk

#59 What would your character do if someone stalked them?

#60 What would your character do if someone had a crush on them?

#61 What would your character do if can't use their arms?

#62 What would your character do if they found treasure?

#63 What would your character do if they met Thor?

#64 What would your character do if they where called ugly?

#65 What would your character do if their car was hijacked? (Or their mode of transportation)

#66 What would your character do if their home was invaded?

#67 What would your character do if they were stalked?

#68 What would your character do if they were treated as property?

#69 What would your character do if they witnessed a murder?

#70 What would your character do if they were paralyzed from the waist down?

#71 What would your character do if they lost an arm?

#72 What would your character do if they were failing at school? (or if they already are what if they suddenly got an A+)

#73 What would your character do if they failed at their goal? 

#74 Bird talking to a sea fish goddess and ask to turn into a fire breathing dragon and to have multiple different pastries shops.

#78 How does your character do with a discriminatory world, culture, or home life?

#79 What would your character do if they became allergic to their favorite food?

#80 What would your character do with wings (or without)?

#81 If your character was a ghost who/where would they haunt?

#82 What would your character do with a key that unlocked any door?

#83 What would your character do if (in universe) they found a book written about them?

#84 How would your character react if faced with their greatest fear?

#85 What would your character do if they found out they only have a year left to live?

#85 What are some favorite headcanons and fan theories? or small details about them.

#86 "What would your character do if they met an AU version of themself"

#87 "What would the OC be like without trama (or with trama)?

#88 What would your OC do if a person they knew was dead. Was chilling at a cafe.

#89 What would characters think of Bob Ross?

#90 what would your characters do if they started turning into a tree?

#91 what would your character do if someone told them they looked like an in-universe celebrity/famous person?

#92 what would they do if someone stuck a spoonful of mayonnaise in their face and told them to eat it?

#93 What would they do if they woke up and their hair was a different color?

#94 What would they do if a donkey started following them around (or any other animal)

#95 how would they react to a dancing chicken (with music coming from who knows where)

#96 What if they fell off a very high cliff?

#97 What would your characters do if suddenly they couldn’t understand what each other were saying? Then had to communicate other ways?

#98 what would your character do if they got turned into an animal?

#99 how would your character respond to back hugs?

#100 How would your character respond to scalp massages?

Preach that shit 🙏🙏🙏

Remember that every day is an opportunity to be a better fanfiction writer than you were yesterday. That being said...

...improvement isn't only in the big things like writing a 10k story in one sitting or responding positively to negative comments on your work. Progress is in the seemingly small but actually big things too;

You finally learned how to correctly spell that word you frequently use.

2. You found a differently word you can use in place of the verb you've abused

3. You wrote a whole ass paragraph for your draft without feeling insecure about it because you're finally understanding that drafts are meant to be messy.

4. It's taking you months to complete the next chapter of your story. At first you felt bad about it every second of your day but now you actually haven't felt bad for a whole hour. Slowly you're understanding that art takes time and you deserve to be patient and kind with yourself.

5. You took the step to read/listen to a random post about how to write better. Maybe you haven't put that advice into practice yet but hey, you clicked on it and listened/read till the end

6. You managed to read one of your own posted stories, I'll feelings about it or no

7. You now celebrate every vote/kudos/like you get on your story because you know that a real human being is behind it, loving your work, shoddy as you think it might be.

8. Today you woke up caring a little less about how your stories aren't that popular in the fandom. Finally you're learning to write for you and to just dwell on enjoying the writing process instead of focusing on how the world will receive your story when you post

9. You read comments on your story which suggest you take your story in a certain different direction, but you successfully ignore those suggestions and courageously stick to the story you want to tell.

10. You ended the day still resisting the urge to have AI write your story for you.

Congratulations to you, most improved writer, even if only one of the items on this list resonates with you👏👍🤝

You're still growing and improving after all.