What are you supposed to do when you’re agoraphobic but you don’t have any hobbies to pass the time being inside the house?
I’m terrified of the outside world but I’m also terrified of being trapped inside with my own brain
I’m spiralling
A little reminder that the "scary" neurodivergents belong in the community too. The ones with intrusive thoughts. The ones who seem self-centered.
The people with ocd, bpd, npd. Stuff like that. They belong here too.
aaaaand we're back to square one
emotional dysregulation is so weird because i've been near crisis point depressed all week but now i'm back to being a hyperactive diva just because i put on a new playlist
being a trans man is fucked because people who hate women still hate us for being women but also people who hate men hate us for being men
and the second group says they're actually being good and supporting us and affirming us by hating us, and then everyone agrees, including a whole bunch of other trans people, even including trans men. somehow
the feeling when everyone has made every accommodation they can for me but i'm still making no progress is the worst because i can't blame the world anymore, the problem is just me
people who dont experience it cannot comprehend how awful executive dysfunction is. I WANT to do the task, i have the resources TO do the task, i will feel better having DONE the task
but i cant fucking do the task
sometimes adhd is forgetting where you put your keys but other times it's having executive dysfunction so bad you haven't left the house in weeks, dropping out of work/school because you can't focus on it, cutting people off when the novelty of the relationship fades, and spending all your time binge eating to find the right level of stimulation and i think that needs to be talked about more
my therapist asked me if i consider myself an anxious person, to which i responded 'no' as if i'm not purposely withholding my worst fear from him bc i'm convinced that if i tell anyone they'll use it to sabotage me
nothing makes me more exhausted than remembering my pmdd is only going to go away with menopause and that i've got to deal with this for at least another 25 years
PMDD is such a weird concept. Ur body is like "Heyyy!!! Our Uterus is going to shed!" and my brains reaction is like: "Ok. Kill yourself."
Like. What the fuck am i supposed to do with that.
can we normalize talking about how fucking debilitating agoraphobia is cool thanks