bleu-spruce

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Livre de la Vigne nostre Seigneur; France, 15th century; Bodleian Library, MS. Douce 134, f. 49v

Van Horne Warehouse, Montréal, QC, CA

My sister commissioned this because it is one of her favorite views of Montreal . She passes it most days on the way to work. As I researched it I thought about how weird it is to have this beautiful husk of a warehouse just sitting there gathering dust and some iconic graffiti. Unfortunately it was hard enough for me to make all the lines actually make some sense since I've always been shit at perspective. Also using a very fibrous paper I got from the city meant I had to resort to some of the cleaner lines and look of the building back when it was in use. I think it gives the piece a bit of nostalgia though so I'm happy with how it came out.

rue saint-ambroise, montréal

Muffin-induced ménage à trois

love transmasc/trans man lesbians so much and I’m so glad I’m part of a community that is full of them and super accepting but I’m afraid sometimes it’s so widespread in my friend groups and related circles that people start calling me butch and like, I’m not. just like before, it’s still the case that not every transmasc, even if they IDed we one before, feels comfortable with the lesbian label or identity. but it’s been multiple times now where people have referred to me as “butch” to my face. and I’m simply not one. never was. i’m so fag. hell you can call me a twink. but butch is not my gender, it’s not my way of expressing womanhood (bc im not one), and it’s not my way of expressing my masculinity either. being inclusive is so so awesome but can we CONTINUE TO TRY TO REFRAIN from referring to people as SPECIFIC IDENTITIES without ASKING THEM?

and transmasc lesbian ≠ butch

There's a thing about pre-transition dissociation where like… every positive emotion feels thin and hollow, so living your life is completely based on removing pain rather than bringing in joy. There's no scales to balance, no assets to book against liabilities, just various misfortunes to avoid so you can distract yourself in a state of numb comfort. You ask yourself "would I be happier as a woman" and on one hand you picture all the difficulties, the effort, the prospect of being discriminated against (for being a woman or for being a tranny) and on the other hand you don't picture anything, and so you weigh those two hands up and go "haha yeah trans woman are cool and all but I'm sure I'm not one of them"

Torah ark curtain, Piatra-Neamţ, eastern Romania, 1901

weighted blanket isn’t enough today, I need to be compressed into a .zip file

hi yeah i know ive been on this medication for 8 years but i need-- yeah. yeah 3 more months please. I'll call you in 3 months to beg for 3 more months, thanks. Bye. Love you.

i need to go into academia but purely for sexual reasons

Amanda Wall (American, 1971) - Burning (2021)

hi this is a comic about me please be nice

judaism really popped off with its prayer tunes. sometimes a tune gets stuck in my head and i realize it’s not a song but a prayer. and then i feel happy

spiky carabiner by melteddose. handmade using tin, copper, and silver materials. [for sale!]

dragon made out of text in mspaint

fag and dyke does not mean man and woman. transmasc and transfem does not mean man and woman. guy and girl dont even mean man and woman to me anymore

all i want is to hold you like a dog

before you are two trains.

hoooonk

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Isopod

Effeminate dentist: You need to brush more on your gums-- hold on why am I "effeminate?" What? I'm literally just a normal dentist. A masculine one, even.

Me: (struggling to speak through the dentist's fingers) youw weren't shupposhed to shee that

memorial made up of recently discovered cut up jewish headstones used as cobblestones in prague

Some more trans-masc figures!!

𝔍𝔞𝔠𝔬𝔟, 𝔴𝔯𝔢𝔰𝔱𝔩𝔦𝔫𝔤 𝔴𝔦𝔱𝔥 𝔱𝔥𝔢 𝔞𝔫𝔤𝔢𝔩

commission for @jurassicash