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one of my friends was having trouble keeping track of things in tma, and i very much enjoy doing little doodles and color coding things, so i made her a few cheat sheets!! figured it might be helpful for other people to so. here it is!

Sandy Nour “To the Moon & Back” Resort 2020 Semi Couture Collection

7 depression tips and why they work, from someone who’s been hardcore depressed for two years

hi so im recovering from a really mean depression and there are some things i learned and that i would like to tell you. 

1. you need to reappropriate your space and time. depression is lying to you and generally shrinks your living space (aka: you spend your time in bed/behind your computer/in your room…). visit and do something (even if its just scrolling down social media) in each room you have access to. expand your perception and space, you’ll breathe more easily.

2. plan depression outfits. a depression outfit is a comfy one you still can go out in. to me, it’s old ripped jeans and a turtleneck, my old work uniforms, sweaters. dressing up is one of the most important parts of managing depression. first of all, you’ll feel less like pathetic with proper clothes on (nothing worse than staying in your pj all day). secondly, and it’s a crucial point: it allows you to get out to run some errands. imagine you have to go grocery shopping or to the post office. if you’re in your unwashed pajamas you’ve been wearing for three days or more (been there done that) what you have to do is to undress, shower (if you can), and put on real, clean clothes. which is three things. depression messes wih one’s ability to start things, so it’s very likely you’ll drop your errands and just stay at home feeling like shit. but if you’re already wearing clothes, you just have to put on a coat and get out of the house. which is, trust me, 10 times easier than doing the whole dressing up thing.

3. it’s okay if you stay the whole day in bed but force yourself to get up in the morning (anytime before noon) and drink a glass of water/juice. again, depression messes up with your ability to start doing things, but if you concentrate your will to just get up and drink something before going back to bed, i promise you’ll feel less shitty and might actually end up getting up for good since you’ve been through the trouble of getting up. You’ll feel better (and also you need water!)

4. do one (1) physical, material thing that will improve your life conditions per day. aka: washing a single glass, scrubbing the mirror, etc. you’ll feel proud of yourself, and the tidiest your environment, the less shitty your brain will be. plus, again: if you manage to wash a single dish, maybe you’ll find yourself cleaning the whole kitchen without noticing. and thats a good thing. no pressure: just do one single thing. and don’t beat yourself up if you can’t, of course, but try, it’s gonna be better that way. 

5. open the window (especially at night, i personally find it very soothing) and just… breathe fresh air, looking at the horizon or closing your eyes, and breathe in and out slowly. it’s great to take fresh air. bonus if you have anxiety/ptsd, honestly. opening the windows is one of the easiest ways i know to stop a panic attack.

6. brush your teeth everyday, even if it’s the only thing you manage to do. i know every depression guide recommends it, but it’s really important. not showering for a few days is okay, you’re not gonna get sick that way. but dental hygiene is capital. not to mention you’ll feel less rotting in the inside if you’re less rotting in the outside. you can use your phone to schedule your teeth brushing of the day! really helps. 

7. think about your hobbies and force yourself to do something related to an old hobby of yours. i know it’s no fun. i know you can’t feel anything, so why bother? but really, do bother. do it and eventually as you recover it will be fun again. you haven’t lost your passion, your goals, your motivation. it’s still there, but depression is like a blanket that covers it all. forcing yourself to still act on your hobbies (especially if those are not screen-related: books, gardening, etc.) will help digging through the depression layers to expose your will to live again. trust me on this one. i really thought i was just an apathetic mess, but actually depression was just mean. i believe in you! 

and finally: hold tight and it’s gonna be okay! recovery is possible, and it’s gonna arrive sooner than you expect. energy and motivation are good things and they’re still around here waiting for you! 

feel free to add your own! you’re all gonna make it i promise.

Temples are built for gods. Knowing this a farmer builds a small temple to see what kind of god turns up.

hey do you guys want to see a post that kills you instantly

FINALLY…

I have every single dragon ball.. it’s time.. all I need to do is wish him back to life

no one ever talks about how evil and ominous carol of the bells sounds?

hey here’s a comp of vines so rare and endangered it took me 5 hours to track them all down

it’s ninety-nine degrees outside, four fuck-thousand percent humidity, and my husband was like, “i’m gonna go for a bike ride.” and i was like “why. no. why. don’t put us on the news like that. local fool collapses on unnecessary journey. don’t do it.” so he says he doesn’t want to “hide in the house” because the sun is shining. bruh. honeybruh. “the sun is shining” does not cover it. its hot outside. its motherfucking hot as fuck outside. our outdoor plants have been crying into their hands all week. whole cars are melting into the sewer. our fucking patio umbrella developed sentience to ask me for lemonade this morning

Destiel AU, vol.5 - Do It For Science!

Destiel AU, vol.5 - Do It For Science! Or do it for money, but there’s no try. When Dean and Cas are faced with a challenge, they do their best to wing it.

Title link on previously recced on the blog fics got to the properly tagged posts, all first time recs are fully tagged here and title link goes to AO3. [#] indicates that this is also a tag on our Tags Page. Due to tumblr shenanigans, we can’t mention certain terms on the post, please be sure to check author’s tags on AO3 as well.

Thank you, Elena, for letting us to use your wonderful art!  Link to artist’s tumblr: @purgatory-jar !!! <3  Link to original art post.

I. Dean and Cas winging those pesky couple studies

For Science! by pm_lo [NC-17, 21,600 word count]

Selected transcripts and supporting materials from Dr. Castiel Williams and Dean Winchester’s seminal study on physiological and psychological sexual response by gender designation.

Married for a Week by jessjessthebest [T, 11,600 word count]

“It wasn’t until he was standing at a fake altar in front of a fake priest clasping hands with Castiel Novak that Dean thought he may have made a terrible mistake.” Or the one where Dean and Cas get fake married. FOR SCIENCE! (Inspired by this video)

A Study in Fake by sternchencas [T, 5,000 word count] (#fluff, #roommates, #pining!cas, #pining!dean)

Although Dean has a job, he’s always looking for some extra money, so he’s bummed out when he can’t take part in a lucrative couples study at the local college. At least until Castiel Novak steps into his life out of nowhere and a throwaway joke turns into a serious relationship. Well, a fake one, but nobody needs to know that, right?

Do It For Science by robotsnchicks [NC-17, 5,000 word count] (#fluff, #college, #roommates, #bottom!dean, #friends to lovers)

When Dean finds an ad offering to pay $500 to committed couples willing to test and review condoms, it seems almost too good to be true. The only catch is that Dean’s been without a partner for a while now. When he convinces his roommate Cas to pretend to be his boyfriend it seems like a perfect solution, but he soon realizes that he may be in over his head.

Love Lab by youaresunlight [M, 5,400 word count] (#fluff, #college, #roommates, #pining!cas, #pining!dean, #friends to lovers)

When Dean sees the flyer for a research study offering $75 to participants, he doesn’t think twice before signing him and Cas up. The problem, of course, is that it’s a romantic couples study and while Cas is his roommate and best friend, they are very much not in a relationship.

When You Say Nothing at All by TrenchcoatBaby [NC-17, 36,000 word count] (#fluff, #a/b/o, #bonded, #teacher!cas, #pining!cas, #pining!dean, #charlie, #!megstiel)

At Stanford University, omega Dean Winchester and alpha Castiel Novak are complete and utter strangers. Dean’s on the ground’s crew, and Castiel is pursuing his PhD in literature. Under normal circumstances, their paths would never cross. But when they both agree to participate in an unusual case study observing alphas and omegas—the thesis project of anthropology major Charlie Bradbury—they find themselves alone and face to face. For hours each week. The catch? They’re forbidden to speak a word to each other, despite sharing an obvious and immediate crush. One might even call it true-mate level. Oh, this is gonna be torture.

II. Science lite - tips from magazines!

Just To Make You See by youaresunlight [T, 4,000 word count]

“I’ve been reading,” Cas explains, lifting his coat to reach for something inside. It’s another magazine but not one about nature or economics. It’s a GQ with a suave male celebrity gracing the cover. “There’s an article in here that gives advice to those who are ‘seeking to escape the friend zone.’”

the half marriage by jhoom [T, 2,100 word count] (#fluff, #college, #roommates, #friends to lovers)

Thursdays are spent with Castiel trying to study, and Dean trying to distract him from studying. Today’s weapon of choice: an internet article on the ‘10 Types of Odd Friendships You’re Probably Part Of.’

Ways to Drive Him Wild by FagurFiskur [NC-17, 6,000 word count] (#coworkers, #major age difference, #pining!dean, #pining!cas, bottom!dean)

After Dean tells his much-older boyfriend Castiel about his inexperience with men, he’s dismayed to find that Cas now keeps him at an arm’s length. Sitting down and talking about it is clearly out of the question, so when Dean goes to Jo for advice she suggests the next best thing: seduction tips from Cosmopolitan.

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fic where aziraphale is fully aware that he is deeply and irrevocably in love with crowley and not in the all-encompassing angel way, but since crowley is a demon, he’s clearly not capable of reciprocating. aziraphale resigns himself to being content with what he’s got despite not at all being in the business of denying himself what he wants.

he accidentally confesses this to crowley while they’re both absolutely swozzled and crowley sobers up so fast it breaks the sound barrier, rounding on aziraphale like “are you fucking kidding me with this shit you can literally sense love you absolute moron I’m a goddamn imax technicolor surround sound of being in love with you”

and aziraphale is just like “………but that’s just the background love static. earth has always felt this way around you.”

“yeah,” says crowley, as if he is very patiently explaining that water is, in fact, wet. “yeah it has.”

PSA

Michael Sheen: I can't sing

Me, finding this video: a-

THE ENTIRE UNIVERSE IN ONE RING! 😍😍😍

Inscriptions or zodiac symbols were often used as decorative elements on the bands! Armillary sphere rings, including our Astronomy, are incredibly well-crafted and detailed! Built with anywhere between two to eight moving bands, these intricate pieces of jewelry have been created by skilled craftsmen!

When it is closed, the Astronomy Ring looks like any other ring, but as the different bands are fanned out, the ring takes on a unique quality! It is just amazing to carry a mystery on your finger as an astonishing ring! Whenever you are up for exploring some mysterious stuff, just open the ring ball and start!

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oooooooh im gonna very selfishly also ask for no.20 then!!! also 13 and 16 bc these also sound fun

20. three songs that remind you of the person who sends this one

dead man’s bones - flowers grow out of my grave

coeur de pirate - fondu au noir

in love with a ghost - healing

13. three songs you want at your funeral

mira kubasińska - wielki ogień

wardruna - helvegen

SDM - opadły mgły, wstaje nowy dzień

16. three favourite songs for sex

nina simone - sinnerman

cigarettes after sex - k

glass animals - black mambo

thank you angel!

[three songs ask set]

this is the most important video ive seen in my entire life

Gorgeous Dresses & Details

Double Portrait, by Alexander Roslin (1718-1793) l Portrait of Madame Pompadour, by François Boucher (1703-1770) l Portrait of Princess Maria Luisa of Parma, by Laurent Pêcheux (1729-1821) l Portrait of Marie Leszczinska, by Charles-André van Loo (1705-1765) l Portrait of Princess Sophie Friederike, by Georg David Matthieu (1737-1778) l Portrait of María Hahn, by Raimundo de Madrazo y Garreta (1841-1920)

Watch them!

You won’t regret it! 

If you want original, full-length, hilarious musicals; here’s a few by Team Starkid (and Tin Can Brothers). From Harry Potter, to DC, to Disney and the creation of fire. There’s a show for every mood!

A Very Potter Musical

https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLC76BE906C9D83A3A

Me and My Dick 

https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLF0D250702C0684CD

A Very Potter Sequel

https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PL86C718AEE71C9DE9

Starship

https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLC6A915952D67F112

Holy Musical Batman

https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PL96B8289ADF77A8C4

A Very Potter Senior Year

https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLvep3WS9e8tRA_amclMNdVkVqNazfebXk

Twisted

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-77cUxba-aA&t=4226s

Trail to Oregon!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BxKCX-UvPrI&t=1975s

ANI: A Parody

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ke1B1iAeY2c 

Firebringer

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZmVuNlu0LCk&t=1599s 

Movies, Musical and Me (Web Series) 

https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLvep3WS9e8tQ_iXf7z-GQS3dZnlXzlVrR

The Guy Who Didn’t Like Musicals 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IrxKX44qBJ0

*UPDATE!* WE’RE HITTING THE 10 YEAR MARK SINCE A VERY POTTER MUSICAL! 10niversary Celebration and A New Original Musical (BLACK FRIDAY) kickstarted available here! ALREADY FUNDED AFTER 4 DAYS!  Let’s help them get that stretch goal!  https://www.kickstarter.com/projects/starkid/starkids-10niversary-celebration

Note:

Spies are Forever - Tin Can Brothers

https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLlF0gFzOX4tD1KJ5ZEnvhD55Qhnz-K0X2

Poe Party - Shipwrecked Comedy - there’s Starkid members in there too and it’s really awesome

https://youtu.be/jxRiP4GNiyM?list=PLs2T_dNZ-XW6UjWC-qUbZSWJyCLFmsdPP

Flop Stoppers (short film) - Tin Can Brothers

https://youtu.be/lipp_4fco3w

The Solve It Squad Returns (Scooby-Doo Parody) - Tin Can Brothers

https://youtu.be/dEA0hNs0M98

The Case of the Gilded Lily (2018) - Shipwrecked comedy

https://youtu.be/UqVPzqI9k-Y 

These guys are the reason I did and just completed a theatre degree at University!

That’s a deep… dock.

by Penzilla

Tumblr: @pennypenzilla

I’ve just discovered my new favorite painter, Vittorio Reggianini - those smarter than myself probably already know of him as an Italian painter from the 1800s who made satin look even satiny-er than satin. I just cannot get over how much he loved painting women who were NOT. HAVING. A. MAN’S. SHIT. 

But there was one hottie that everyone seemed to like, and I can’t blame them…

Vittorio knows what the ladies like. 

This little angry Flemish puppet is me and nobody can tell me otherwise

last night i found this girl on tik tok who found out this random ass celebrity she’s obsessed with Might have a girlfriend so she posted this

and i’ve been losing my mind ever since then

How deep does the hole go?

Art by Penzilla

“[Russian Doll] probably has a more clear cut, one-to-one addiction metaphor, as far as the idea is deeply personal to me of going from a very disconnected, removed life [where] self-destruction makes the only sense because my behaviors don’t impact the world around me to a character who is by circumstance forced to look at this other idea, which is she accidents into a more connected life [and] realizes people are real, including herself. This is, of course, a much more vulnerable place to be at than this pseudo-punk rock idea of, “Nothing means anything and I don’t care. No one can touch me and I can’t touch them.” Just as soon as it crystallizes that we are of this world, then we have to be participating members — including the discomforts of the injustices that are a part of the daily news cycle that will rock you with their horrors and make you not want to go on because it all seems like to much, to the realities of life’s arbitrary nature and fragility. … Life is full of these moments and I think it speaks to the universal themes of discomfort and curiosity of the experience of what it means to be a thinking, feeling person who’s having these kinds of colliding thoughts. … It’s a very human experience, as well, to wonder what it’s all about.”

— Natasha Lyonne on Russian Doll and existential crisis (Interview)

So, if the time loop is a metaphorical labyrinth, and Nadia and Alan are both Ariadne that leads the other out to their safety, Perseus for slaying the monster they had to face at some point, and The Minotaur for in the end being that same monster that is ultimately responsible for their own demise and imprisonment due to their own selfish actions In their lives…

What does that make of the Cat? Is he God? Is he the little girl? Are Oatmeal, The Little Girl, and Horse the 3 Fates? The cat’s actions are what ultimately cause the loop to begin with, he tricks Nadia into getting hit by the car the second Alan hits the ground from his fall, thus trapping them in the labyrinth, while also giving them a way out in the form of themselves.

What about the carnival parade, shouldn’t Alan have been there due to Horse? In the original Timeline Nadia doesn’t get him back home after finding him with Horse, whose “we got another one” line clearly refers to him finding another guy for the parade, but if that’s so, how can he jump to his death AND be at the parade at the same time?

Is the parade a metaphor for them transcending purgatory then? Is Horse the Devil? Is he Dionysus, who saves Ariadne the savior after she is been (metaphorically, in this case, and due to a higher will like some instances of the myth state) and abandoned by the hero she saved?

Is the little girl Athena? Or are they all just angels? The prayer from episode 2 states that angels are all around us, and the Rabbi does mentions how people are haunted and need to surrender to the Abyss, is this why they ultimately got free, because they surrendered to the circumstances of their life and shit?

How about the stairs, in the first episode she’s about to fall down the stairs and die but she gets caught by Mike, then she’s about to get hit by the car again but John catches her before she dies, is this a metaphor for how alone we are all destined to succumb and die, but with the help of others we can ultimately survive our life, hence why she gets down those stairs with max in the finale?

Or is this all just rambling? I’m confused.

god that second to last episode of russian doll was so fucking dark and deep and i was not expecting that at all. wow i love this show. it is so deeply poetic. fuck. alan’s speech to beatrice broke my fucking heart. and nadias conversation with ruth. wow. “our bodies, they cant keep lying the way that our minds can. for years i’ve just been hollow. i thought if i worked hard enough, if i kept putting the time in, and if i kept my head down and did everything right this aching, gnawing feeling of being an absolute failure would just go away. and now i’m stuck in a body that’s broken in a world that is literally following apart, and a mind that wants to kill me.” It hurts how relatable that is. the depression and the loneliness. and now he’s finally changing because he let somebody(nadia) help him. “lives are hard to change” ugh he is so sweet and precious and so fucking sexy too. i love him with all my heart. it hurts thinking how alan and nadia are connected bc they both basically are just these humans going thru the motions of life with no will to actually live because of the shit theyre going through mentally and emotionally. and only they can help each other. seeing such a precious sweetheart like alan being so tortured really hurt me. giving up all his money and shit to the homeless bc he decided he was gonna end his life so it didn’t matter. wow.