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bpd culture is having a violent/euphoric/“happy” episode only to immediately crash and have a really bad breakdown

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All I want is you. Please don’t leave. Please don’t leave to be with her. I love you so much. Please leave her and be with me. Please please please please please I love you. You’re literally the male version of me we’d be so great together. Please I’d make you feel like a king every day. I love you please don’t leave. You’re so soft and warm and beautiful and you have the greatest smile and laugh and eyes and I love you so much. Please don’t leave.

My heart aches.

my mind flickers to the thought of him and her just conversing….him not thinking about me at all. I just. I don’t want to be thinking like this.

honestly i dont need therapy i need a machine to go into my body and manually stretch all my muscles and crack all my joints and then i need the machine to go into my brain and deep clean it with soapy hot water

missing him.

I hope he misses me.

do you remember me? do you remember my laugh….the excitement in my voice when we spent our time together, how about my name, do you remember that?

I hate how I want him to miss me.

i don’t know who i am anymore, there’s too many versions of “me”

missing his voice.

do you know what it’s like to crave a person?

you don’t understand my heart literally lights up when he texts me how can he not be for me when I feel this strongly about him for like four years now it’s not fair it’s not fair 😭😭😭😭😭

HE TEXTED ME AHAOWNDOANFHEJEHEHDNFJEOWKFHEOFNWOFHEISNEIFJEOFNSODNIEHR this has to be a a disease at some point right I mean this is not normal

The way I was so upset and tired and I started to dissociate and drift off and then I got a text message from you and my mood instantly changed. I couldn’t stop smiling and I was bouncing on my feet. And you have no idea. Text me back u rat I need saving again.

he has no idea that I’m literally on my knees praying and crying for him every day it’s actually ridiculous that he’s consuming my brain LIKE A PARASITE and he’s just completely clueless. I hope he has a dream where he sees how much he’s in my head and in my heart and in between my teeth and under my skin and he gets hit so hard with it he fucking dies. No one could love him like I would.

it hurts me physically that he’s not mine we’d be so disgustingly toxic and perfect together don’t you fucking see he’s literally the male version of me I want him so bad

(me, insane since the day i was born) sorry haha this has just been an off day for me

i hate myself

no you guys I’m acc down so bad it’s not even funny anymore

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born to be an idgafer forced to be a yearner