boymoder-echo

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rawr, x3, pounces on you, yeah yeah that’s all well and good but where’s the passion? where’s the artistry? what aspect holds a mirror up to the audience and makes them confront their own biases and the blood on their own hands? I once killed a man in Reno just to get in the headspace to write my hit outlaw country-western song “I Killed a Man in Reno” but I’m past that phase. Now I hope to enter the hot space of 21st Century pre-apocalyptic furry-core laconicism. What does “rawr” mean? What does it mean to ME? This is my nirvana, this is my hero’s journey, this is my arc of the convenient. How are we supposed to perceive the voice of reason when my inner-dialogue kicked the bucket long before I got around to it? I killed a man in Reno.

just took a break from sleeping for 16 hours to listen to kawaii future bass while doing your mom <3

your mother is such a bimbo that I asked for her number and she gave me her SSN, she’s a good role model for you <3

I love committing tax evasion!!! I have swiss bank accounts in over 7 states. I’m on Idaho’s most wanted list, they want me, but those hoes can’t farm my potatoes with a ten foot pole. <3

I’m so proud of you <3

I married your mom, do you know what that means? I’m your parent now. I know you thought we had something special, but that’s just going to bring a WACKY dynamic to thanksgiving. <3

I bought your mum a bowkay of roses and she cut her finger on the pedals, i licked up the blood and that’s how we got VAMPIRE DISEASE. Now we stay up all night monster mashing and sleep sunup to sundown. <3

I know I’m a few months younger than you but I am your parent and as the proprietor of a number of swiss bank accounts you are going to have to back off, ur mum is mine now and if you wanna slice of the pie you’re going to have to try again in your next life <3

Went to a New York Knickerbockers game at Madison Square Garden and that’s how I met your mother (she was the basketball) <3

Sorry you weren’t invited to the wedding, we only wanted to invite people making 7 figures or more and you didn’t make the cut. How many swiss bank accounts do you have again? 1? At most. Leave this to your elders sweaty <3

the slow march of time will consume (most of) us all. The year is now 2222. Humanity has been replaced with a complex system of pulleys and levers being operated by a single elderly man with a glass eye named Xebulorp. Of course your mom and I still have VAMPIRE DISEASE so we’re still kickin’ <3

Happy Mother’s Day!

sea 🎀

feel free to make bad choices with me in dms

thenn i will

totally not a little fantasy of mine to take advantage of someone, despite being a sub

I love that kind of thing, it is very welcome for me.

just know my place

and maybe i will <3 with your permission

Hmmm what if I said it’s more fun for me if you do it without my permission?

when the sub is the one that violates consent 😍

Pretty girl that i worship n maybe milk their cock..maybe

aw how sweet of you <3

I mean if you really want to maybe…

Welp okay at least I have an explanation for things now.

I just had an appointment with my psychiatrist and he put two and two together that I actually have a rare condition that causes episodes of sleeping too much, hypersexuality, psychosis, and extremely impulsive behavior, among other things.

This is probably why every once in a while I have a stretch of a month where I’m constantly sleeping and when I am awake I can do nothing but goon in increasingly self-destructive ways.

Feels kinda nice to know I have a medical condition and I’m not just a loser.

The other cool thing about it is that in most people it goes away some point before they turn 30 meaning that I might actually have a functional life before long.

I’ve been going through discord messages and my posts and such and I think detrans kink has been less appealing to me for several weeks now, pretty much all of May. I’m still getting off to it yeah, but at some point I realized how unhealthy it was for me, then I got really turned on by how unhealthy it was for me, and then I just started getting kinda sick of it.

I think I want to try to go back to one of my favorite kink fixations which was objectification through worship, which I was really into in 2022. Like yeah I’m dominant and alluring and powerful, but people only view that through the lens of me being porn, which makes it also kind of submissive. I miss those days. I want to go back to those days. I don’t even know if there’s a word for it.

ANYONE WHO CALLS ME MALE TODAY, OR EVEN AMAB, I WILL REMOVE YOUR SKIN ONE SQUARE CENTIMETER AT A TIME.

I AM NOT LIKE YOU.

I AM BETTER.

I AM A REAL GIRL.

I AM A GOD.

I’ve been more clearheaded lately. I’ve been entertaining the idea that perhaps, actually, I am just a guy and I should actually detrans, not for kink but actually. My reasoning is that I only transitioned in the first place out of a desire to become a different person sort of, so being a girl is just kind of me pretending to be someone else. Am I genuinely a pretty feminine person? Yeah I guess so. Does that mean I am this trans girl I’ve been for the past few years? Not necessarily. I find that if I fall into who I am naturally… I honestly do seem to just be kind of a male sex pest, sooo maybe that’s what I am. Maybe that’s all I need to be.

still love this gif

Either way, itd be hot to be a pretty girl getting her cock milked right? It sounds hot

being a pretty girl sounds nice yeah, getting milked? idk i’m more of a dominant type regardless of my gender. I have been submissive in the past but in sort of a power bottom way. The main way I like being submissive, at least in a sense, is through being the object of someone’s desires. I used to be really into being a hot untouchable egirl findomme, but it made me feel submissive in a sense because people were pursuing me, and I liked teasing them for it. Kinda want to go back to that ig.

I mentioned I shaved my head in October… my hair is long enough at this point that if I put some makeup on I do look pretty, but it’s still not effortless. A lot of why I fell so hard into detrans kink the past half year or so is because when I looked in the mirror I felt like I saw a guy. That’s a little different now I guess but I would still like my hair to be longer.

You should be edged until you admit that you're a worthless girl like all the others. You squirm like a girl, you moan like a girl. I bet you look even more like one in panties, too. Just admit it. You want to be a big-titted bimbo that gets her stupid, soft cock milked until your legs shake.

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I don’t think I’m submissive enough for that. Ask me again 1 year from now when I’ve had bottom surgery.

Let’s be honest chat, I’m pretty girly.

What if this becomes a force fem blog or even a bimbofication blog lol

Reinforce my femininity 🥺

I love when I enter a space full of nominally supportive, also mentally ill people, but I’m too mentally ill for even them and they’re clearly uncomfortable being around me.

I think the reason being a guy appeals to me is that when I have sexual fantasies I always picture myself in a male role partnered with a cis woman and i dont have fun any other way. In order to get in a situation like that long term I would have to be a guy, and I’m so confused about my identity just in general that that sounds extremely appealing…

Okie sorry for going crazy, back to horny times

Gonna explore my potential identity as a boy through kink <3

I’m sorry for my strange behavior.

For anyone wondering, I am not okay.

My problems are a lot to unpack and I know I’m supposed to just be horny on here.

For anyone wondering the nature of my problems does actually indicate that maybe detrans is actually an option.

I feel like I don’t really have an actual personality or identity, I just always try to become someone else.

It’s entirely possible that’s the only reason I wanted to be a girl in the first place. I just wanted to be someone else.

rn I’m in between identities. I feel like I want to craft a definitive, ideal, permanent self to strive towards. I don’t know what the nature of this self should be. Even then I’m still just creating a character and filling a role, which I have done in the past. All I know how to do is play a character. I have no idea how to be my own person.

Should I actually be a guy maybe? I mean that would be easier. I think I do genuinely prefer being a girl but that isn’t easy. i don’t knowwwww ahhhhhh!!!

This whole thing is making me doubt even my name, which I changed 4 years ago. I only did that to try to become someone else. idk if that’s healthy. i dunno.

I can only think of this in the context of creating a new fictional character to become, I have no idea how to just be my own person.

I need help.

please help me

It can’t possibly be 2025.

It’s not.

That would be ridiculous.

Oh? You’re worried about me? Didn’t you read the label on the tin?

Abnormal

Psychology

Case

Study

This goes so much deeper than detrans kink. This goes so so so much deeper.

Identity is like a mask to be worn. I’m someone without a face. I need those masks or I am no one and nothing. I am not a person, I am just the mist, the entity between lives.

You don’t know who I am, because I don’t exist, and I never have.

This mask hurts me. That is the whole point. This mask hurts me because the pain feels good. You’re judging me for that??? Masks have a purpose. I just want to feel better okay???

Someday I’ll leave behind a lifelong schizo ARG and only in the 22nd century will people understand the art in my madness.

Please just stop stop stop stop stop stop stop stop stop stop stop stop stop stop stop stop stop stop stop stop stop st

I’m actively hurting myself and making bad decisions in order to hurt myself and I have literally no one to talk to and I’m just losing it and I made so so so many bad decisions last night and this just feels like a breaking point for me idk I just can’t keep doing this I can’t even function. I have literally no one I feel like I can talk to about this and I’m just losing it. I don’t know if I’ve ever been this bad before and the idea of that alone really sucks.

this is a cry for help please help me

I might delete this account and replace this blog with a similar new one because I made the mistake of making this my main blog lol

me: *becomes an alcoholic but in a cute and sexy way*

I’ve never really drank much… like at all, but recently I’ve been very interested in intox kink and gaining and alcohol is good for both of those.

To some extent the side of detrans kink I’ve been into is “getting worse”

I wanna become gross and fat and drunk and horny and trashy

Someone said this is self harm. It is. Hot right? Make me worse and worse and worse :)

I would like to talk to new people about intox kink, it’s something I’m sort of new to and want people to talk with about it.

At the moment I’m satisfied with being a girl I think btw :) that might change by the end of the night.

you just made it sound like that i guess 😭

Okay well I also said I’m intersex lol 😭

Even when I go off hrt for two months I don’t think there’s a remarkably high amount of t in my system.

All I’ve noticed from going off hrt for a long time is

1. Easier to get erections

2. I’ve noticed like two (2) new strands of facial hair on my cheek.

I do kinda look like a boy but that’s just because I’ve been wearing a lot of t-shirts and hoodies and that combined with the short hair comes across as boy coded.

Also I turn 25 soon and if I try to look like a guy I look maybe 20 at the absolute oldest. I actually put a picture of me right before starting hrt (when I was 19) and a picture of me a couple months ago (at 24) and I look younger in the picture from 2025, which just kind of demonstrates that at worst I look like a boy, not a man.

This was kind of a lie ig lol

I’m definitely a girl right now and I am actively sabotaging any possible boyification.

I can’t wait for your guy self to win. Do you think it’ll be long before it happens?

At the moment I’m the girl self so I can say something from kind of a different angle.

When I want to be a guy I take a lot of steps towards masculinization and try to sabotage my “girl self”

When I’m a girl I never really get more feminine. I never try to fix things. In fact I still engage in this detrans stuff.

It’s like… I’m just genuinely not in the mindset of BEING a girl ever anymore. A lot of the time I WANT to be a girl, like I used to be, but I’m just… not one. If I try to be all feminine it feels like I’m faking it. Like I’m crossdressing. I want so badly to go back to feeling comfortable as a girl, I just can’t seem to anymore.

So to answer your question, I’m not sure it will be long.

alt bimbofication is definitely a thing, i think. just might be hard for now because of your more masculine appearance

I wouldn’t say I have a masculine appearance, just short hair, and even then it’s not that short anymore. I can still pass as a girl. What made you think I had a “more masculine appearance” did I say that?

If anything I can pull off either rn

Maybe might take a different angle with this stuff and try to aggressively feminize myself and see if that works. Bimbofication stuff sounds helpful, I’m just hesitant because I’m not a fan of the bimbo aesthetic. I’d rather be more of an egirl/emo type that just also happens to be dumb as rocks and extremely feminine.

Someone help me 🥺