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Feeling confident about my journey so far 💝

i wish i had the balls to shave my head but i'm too much of a pussy T_T wish someone just fucking did it to me

I took half my morning dose of hrt this morning, I guess with the intention of getting myself back on it? I haven’t taken my hrt for months. After taking it I quickly thought “How silly of me to think I could seriously commit to going back to being a girl.”

Fact is I can’t commit to either right now. I shaved my head 7 months ago and at this point my hair is kinda long… for a guy.

If I could commit to being a guy I’d go get a haircut and throw out my hrt, if I could commit to being a girl I’d take better care of myself and take my hrt everyday.

I’m doing neither. Genuinely could use someone throwing out my hrt and just shaving my head whether I like it or not.

I’ve been going through discord messages and my posts and such and I think detrans kink has been less appealing to me for several weeks now, pretty much all of May. I’m still getting off to it yeah, but at some point I realized how unhealthy it was for me, then I got really turned on by how unhealthy it was for me, and then I just started getting kinda sick of it.

I think I want to try to go back to one of my favorite kink fixations which was objectification through worship, which I was really into in 2022. Like yeah I’m dominant and alluring and powerful, but people only view that through the lens of me being porn, which makes it also kind of submissive. I miss those days. I want to go back to those days. I don’t even know if there’s a word for it.

I’ve been more clearheaded lately. I’ve been entertaining the idea that perhaps, actually, I am just a guy and I should actually detrans, not for kink but actually. My reasoning is that I only transitioned in the first place out of a desire to become a different person sort of, so being a girl is just kind of me pretending to be someone else. Am I genuinely a pretty feminine person? Yeah I guess so. Does that mean I am this trans girl I’ve been for the past few years? Not necessarily. I find that if I fall into who I am naturally… I honestly do seem to just be kind of a male sex pest, sooo maybe that’s what I am. Maybe that’s all I need to be.

I think the reason being a guy appeals to me is that when I have sexual fantasies I always picture myself in a male role partnered with a cis woman and i dont have fun any other way. In order to get in a situation like that long term I would have to be a guy, and I’m so confused about my identity just in general that that sounds extremely appealing…

Okie sorry for going crazy, back to horny times

Gonna explore my potential identity as a boy through kink <3

I’ve never really drank much… like at all, but recently I’ve been very interested in intox kink and gaining and alcohol is good for both of those.

To some extent the side of detrans kink I’ve been into is “getting worse”

I wanna become gross and fat and drunk and horny and trashy

Someone said this is self harm. It is. Hot right? Make me worse and worse and worse :)

I would like to talk to new people about intox kink, it’s something I’m sort of new to and want people to talk with about it.

At the moment I’m satisfied with being a girl I think btw :) that might change by the end of the night.

alt bimbofication is definitely a thing, i think. just might be hard for now because of your more masculine appearance

I wouldn’t say I have a masculine appearance, just short hair, and even then it’s not that short anymore. I can still pass as a girl. What made you think I had a “more masculine appearance” did I say that?

If anything I can pull off either rn

Maybe might take a different angle with this stuff and try to aggressively feminize myself and see if that works. Bimbofication stuff sounds helpful, I’m just hesitant because I’m not a fan of the bimbo aesthetic. I’d rather be more of an egirl/emo type that just also happens to be dumb as rocks and extremely feminine.

Someone help me 🥺

Even when I was a girl this was the kind of girl I tried to be lol

I can’t wait for your guy self to win. Do you think it’ll be long before it happens?

At the moment I’m the girl self so I can say something from kind of a different angle.

When I want to be a guy I take a lot of steps towards masculinization and try to sabotage my “girl self”

When I’m a girl I never really get more feminine. I never try to fix things. In fact I still engage in this detrans stuff.

It’s like… I’m just genuinely not in the mindset of BEING a girl ever anymore. A lot of the time I WANT to be a girl, like I used to be, but I’m just… not one. If I try to be all feminine it feels like I’m faking it. Like I’m crossdressing. I want so badly to go back to feeling comfortable as a girl, I just can’t seem to anymore.

So to answer your question, I’m not sure it will be long.

not really my place to judge, but i find it interesting that you frame detransition as "getting worse," inherently degrading and something you'd need to be forced into. it makes this kink seem like an elaborate form of self-harm.

not that i can judge, i browse these kinds of blogs because they make me feel miserable by proxy!

Yep.

lol yep.

You hit the nail on the head.

What can I say, self harm is really hot :P

Cutting my arms doesn’t do it for me, it has to be deeply psychological.

chat am i a boy?

Why wouldn’t you want to be a girl still? If you were able to pass. Do you regret changing that at all?

Honestly I’m such a mess. I don’t know what I’m doing. It’s like half of me wants to be a guy 100% of the time and half of me wants to be a girl 100% of the time and I’m fighting with myself over it. The guy half is definitely winning. I probably look more like a guy at this point considering my short hair and all.

I took half my morning dose of hrt this morning, I guess with the intention of getting myself back on it? I haven’t taken my hrt for months. After taking it I quickly thought “How silly of me to think I could seriously commit to going back to being a girl.”

Fact is I can’t commit to either right now. I shaved my head 7 months ago and at this point my hair is kinda long… for a guy.

If I could commit to being a guy I’d go get a haircut and throw out my hrt, if I could commit to being a girl I’d take better care of myself and take my hrt everyday.

I’m doing neither. Genuinely could use someone throwing out my hrt and just shaving my head whether I like it or not.

hi baby, i'd love to go into your dms and send you some pretty pics to look at... but only if you admit that you're a perverted man (fixed fake boy)

Do you mean I’m a fixed fake girl? I promise I am just a gross perverted man now.

I’d love come into your DMs but only if you swear you’re a man… I’m a straight girl

I promise you I’m a man <3

that gif you reblogged… I need to be the girl worshiping your bulge

Then don't be shy, come in my dms and become my girl <3

me and who? (im the guy)

please do

im curious

please reblog this if it is okay to anonymously confess something to you.

how femininely did you use to dress, like what did your wardrobe/style look like?

At risk of identifying myself I wore a lot of striped tops and had short cut bangs with my hair often dyed orange, I usually had an egirl makeup style with winged eyeliner and lots of blush. I was cute. Sometimes I jack off to old pictures of myself.

Looks like I'm a straight man then.

if you watch this all the way through you are a straight man

I'M NOT A GIRL AND IT FEELS SO GOOD TO SAY THAT!!!

please someone come in my dms are scrub any hint of femininity out of my head!!!

I need to be brainwashed out of touch with my feminine side, just completely erased and out of touch with anything remotely feminine

please please please but also it could be a girl too maybe

god i just. i need a detransed Daddy, ideally older but i'm not fussy, to just take full control of my detransition. no asking what i want, just taking the reins and turning me into exactly the boyfriend he wants, whether that's a manly skinhead leatherfag or a prissy sissy crossdresser, i just NEED a cured man to choose for me

reblog if you're an mtf boy who wants people to come into your DMs / inbox and tell you how masculine and manly you are

instead of pouring water in your pill bottles you ought to piss in them

Oh that’s so insanely unbelievably hot. I know it’s an awful idea but I might have to do it. I’ll keep you updated.

you are a man

well duh

First of all I LOVE dms please dm me!!! Asks are cool too!!!

Also I’m poly and actively looking for new online/long distance partners!! (especially former ftm girls with a breeding kink but anyone is welcome) Come in dms and see if we click!!! 😳

Bio:

Hi I’m Echo, my real name is Elliot, I’m 24 years old, I use he/they but umm i’m more comfortable with he/him 😣

I’m a femboy and a boymoder, and a total twink (but a straight one I swear!!!) and I really identify specifically with striving for femininity and having it denied to me, forcing me to retreat back in my baggy hoodies :3

I’m intersex but I have a massive dick so what am I really?

Oh I used to be a pretty trans girl. That feels like ages ago though… I could never really be a girl now, that’s just not really my place.

I’m a total porn addict and kind of a creep lol I’m so obsessed with hot girls. Kind of curious about guys too but I’d need someone to guide me into that.

Kinks: Hypnosis, Transformation, Identity Changes, Orientation Play, Breeding, Detrans <3, Being forced into certain roles, Blackmail, Toxic Relationships

Limits: Illegal Stuff Obvs, besides that just don’t kill me i guess? oh but snuff is actually kinda hot… well that would be illegal though wouldn’t it? Um, yeah totally don’t kill me :3

This is the part where I’m supposed to say this is all kink and play and i’m not a boymoder i’m just a trans girl with short hair having an identity crisis but like, is it though? Maybe I just want to be this now. Don’t judge me.

Force me to get another haircut please :3

Just realized I refilled my pill organizer for the week and it didn’t even occur to me to put hrt in there. I’m used to being off of it now, it didn’t even register as an option. I have a huge stockpile of spiro and estradiol pills piling up.

Huge points to anyone willing to try to convince me to poor water in those pill bottles and ruin them <3

Seriously come in my dms and manipulate me into doing that pleeeease. that sounds so hot.