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*lays on floor and smokes a blunt by myself*

Mary Oliver

Finding peace in knowing that it was all real for me. I may not be by your side, or even in your thoughts, but you will always be in my memories, and a part of my heart and soul. I’ll always miss my best friend as long as you aren’t a part of my life, but you have to figure things out and so do I. I refuse to hate you for that, instead, I choose to love you from a distance, I choose to remove myself so that you don’t hurt yourself to prove anything to me. I don’t know what the future will hold, but I’m going to make it better than my past.

But I will let go of the sadness, and make myself whole again. Anger has a way of corrupting the way we view not only the world but ourselves as well, learn from the past but don’t let it make you bitter and stain your soul.

And it’s back to the Kitchen I go, things are finally looking up. Truck will be finished early next week, went from 1/2 a job to 1 1/2 jobs, might have found a house to buy, and finally made an appointment to talk to a Dr. about my anxiety. It’s been a productive week so far. Just goes to show that even when things seem to be at their darkest, the light at the end of the tunnel could only be a day or two away.

“Most people do not listen with the intent to understand; they listen with the intent to reply.”

— Stephen R. Covey