Bsdndprplplld - You Can't Comb A Hairy Ball

yes, this. taking photos of the blackboard and writing down only the "sketch" of the lecture usually does the trick for me: I have all the details I need but I'm able to actually listen

a thing that i didn’t understand as a student, that many of my students don’t understand, and that i still sometimes struggle to put into practice: taking the most detailed notes is not always the best way to learn the material. trying to write down every single thing a teacher (or other person who is presenting auditory information to you) says is not only slow but it also can easily stop you from being mentally present during the lesson, internalizing the main ideas and how everything fits together, which is what will actually help you learn the material.

13 III 2023

I remember putting it in my bio a while ago that I dream of doing actual research one day. well this is already happening, as I mentioned in some post, my advisor found an open question for me to write my thesis about

the progress for now is that I'm done with most of the reading I need to do to tackle it and I'm slowly moving forward with thinking of ideas for the solution (or at least a partial one)

this is what I want to do for the rest of my life: reading papers and trying to write my own ones

ofc I don't know if I manage to solve the problem or achieve anything at all with it but the process itself is fun

other than that I've been catching up with homeworks and assignments from work. fortunately I found an MIT lecture recordings for statistics so hopefully I might not die from boredom

watching probability and stats lectures from MIT has been my relationship's idea of netflix and chill for a while now, gotta cultivate the tradition

the algtop professor asked us to write down a full detailed solution for an exercises we did in class, because the person presenting was unable to explain it so I sent him mine

I don't know yet if it's correct but I'm pretty sure it is. I wrote this down partly because who doesn't want extra points and partly because I didn't have a chance to present it, the person who did was faster

I like how my life is right now, I want to keep it that way

mathermatical notation explained

symbol        meaning

=                   equals

=/=                not equals

<                   left

>                   right

!                    LOUD NUMBER

~                   worm

π                  stonehenge

√                   right answer

x                   wrong answer

⋯                  soon…

∮                   what Exacrly the fuck

∝                   fish

∞                   fish with 2 heads

↯                    lightning

:⇔                 he Scream

i am! obsessed! with this book from the late ming dynasty about scams to watch out for (esp. if you are a traveling merchant). this guy is like, there ARE immortals who can survive without food but you WILL NOT encounter them because they live alone in the mountains and don't talk to anyone. if a monk comes to your house and claims to not need to eat, it's probably because he's secretly eating human fetuses, or something. eunuchs are invariably corrupt and the court system is useless. however, do NOT try to bribe anyone for a better SAT result for your idiot failson; this never works. nuns WILL try to seduce your wife into cheating on you. if your idiot failson does really badly on the SAT, make sure to have his father's remains buried somewhere with A+ fengshui; this is Guaranteed to work (unless your wife is cheating on you).

hey be nice to me im just a teenage girl who has legally been an adult for years

“Mathematics is a giant room, full of toys—some of which have very long instruction manuals.”

— Jacob Lurie

29 VII 2021

got vaxxed today and spent the rest of the day with bf

sleep: trash. been falling asleep at 4am again, "i'll try to go to bed before 3" my ass

concentration: alright. i'm as always extremely productive and i didn't find it hard to focus recently

no phone time: alright. i'm so immersed in my work that i forget to check the phone and i don't really feel inclined to talk to people or look at social media anyway

didn't do any pure math today, did some applied instead, which was working on SVM with friends from my uni. we got stuck on solving the quadratic programming problem but we're almost done

tomorrow i'm planning to go back to the chapter about operations on topo spaces, finish the art comission I got and finish some functionalities in the digital animation project i'm doing with bf. much finishing, this is how i like things to be

7 XI 2022

I think I found an advisor and a topic for the bsc thesis! or rather they found me

one of the teachers that prepares us for writing our theses approached me and started asking about homology I mentioned during our presentation, he wanted to know what courses I took and how familiar I am with that stuff. I told him that I know a bit about homology only from self-study but I enjoyed everything from algebraic topo so far and I would be happy to write about something from that. "ok then I'll find the right topic for you" was his response. then he suggested I read Groups of Homotopy Spheres by Milnor and Kervaire and write about surgery theory. I was sold the moment I heard that name, it's almost as funny as writing about the hairy ball

so there she is, very high level, very complicated. I barely skimmed the first half of that 34-page paper, it's gonna take a lot of work before I learn the basics necessary to even comprehend what is going on. it feels good to be noticed tho, I'm so happy to start writing asap

other than that my mood hasn't been in a great place, because commutative algebra is super hard and I am struggling to find the right resources to study. the last thing we did was tensor product and I've been procrastinating actually studying it by making pretty notes lol

I found a textbook that seems decent. the theory is very thoroughly explained here and there are plenty of exercises ranging from easy to difficult ones

recently I've been trying a new method of tracking, which is instead of writing to-do lists, I write down what I did each day, here is what it looks like for now:

I find it much less anxiety-inducing than the to-do approach because I know damn well what I need to do and writing down what I actually completed feels much better than crossing things off of the list

this week I hope to study the tensor product, representable functors (yoneda is still not done with me) and probably start the complex analysis homework. if I have time I will study the prerequisites for the Milnor's paper

Me, playing poker: Man, I fold

The sphere sat across the table: yes?

" 'They' isn't singular!" Oh yeah? Show me its multiplicative inverse matrix then.