Just watched and interview with will angell and I almost cried at some points he’s too cute and very kind and conscious about what is to be a human being
By somehow he intensified and at the same time enlightened my wishes about these relationships with older mens, he talked abt how there’s a search for something that goes beyond sex with these mens that resonated with me deeply
I’m still so strange and wild
Ion know it feels like I’m always searching for something bc I never felt the way I wanted like I still think abt opioids and other drugs bc I never achieved the high I wanted and bc of that it keeps me craving to do it in order to fulfill this search and this goes beyond drugs, I feel like I’m always too excited to go out and walk around the city and pick up a lot of drinks in the middle of the walk bc I never done this, I never felt that feeling of “That was awesome” after doing something
by Tom of Finland, 1988
Kristofer Weston