My Life Is Annoying
My life is annoying
So lately I've been trying to figure myself out, in all ways.
The summer holidays have just started, and when I go back to school the exams are gonna hit. Hard.
I haven't studied much over the last year but I'm not falling behind in my subjects or anything. As soon as we get back from holidays, college applications start, and I need to decide which three subjects I want to do. I'm thinking of criminology, maths, and graphics, because crime is cool, maths is good for uni (and just life in general) and graphics involves a lot of art concept and drawing tablet work, which I'm super psyched about.
I've also been trying to come to terms with my sexuality. My 16th birthday is a nosehair away and, I've known since I was 9 that I'm not exactly straight.
This girl asked me out when I was 9 and I said yes. Everyone else called us lesbos but we didn't care. We held hands, hugged, and occasionally kissed (the way 9 year olds do).
The thing is that I was living with one of my sisters at the time, and I was homesick. Homesick because I missed the place that I was born in, with my parents. My parents couldn't look after me at the time so I went to live with my sister. My behaviour wasn't that great so after 2 years I moved back to my dad's.
Without telling my friends goodbye, or my girlfriend for that matter.
Since then I've known I was somewhat gay, and for the last two years I've been trying to figure out whether I'm bisexual, pansexual, or lesbian.
I don't look at boys the way I look at girls.
I look at males and think 'eh'
I look at females and instantly measure how much I would want to date her, how hot she is, and then I become all fuzzy on the inside.
I'm pretty sure I'm a lesbian. I could never imagine me getting with a man but every time someone calls me gay the first thought I get is me dating this crazy hot girl.
I tried to come out to my parents (my dad and his gf) a few months ago, but they just shut me down, saying that it's a phase (they are kinda homophobic)
I don't want to speak to my mother about it because the moment I speak to her I feel guilty and I haven't spoken to her in a few months anyway. I have to speak to her soon anyway because tommorrow is her birthday.
Anyway,
I need to accept myself for who I am, and acknowledge that I am gay.
But at the moment, I can't.
My life is annoying.
Thank you if you took the time to read this whole thing, I just needed to let off some steam.
I really appreciate it :)
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Do you really want me to destroy you?
👀 I like seeing art. Even if you cant do it regularly it would be nice to see what you create.
OK thanks! I've gotta start doing digital drawing again. Just finished something cursed and I might post it but I'll definitely start drawing more. I've done some drawings but they're nothing substantial or worthwhile. Might still post them though-
You're actually the first person to respond, so thanks! I hope some more people respond as I have no idea where this blog is going haha. I'll probably start with making a new icon for my blog. Had this one for a while...
Damn I wish I could draw like that
HE’S DONE FUCK I’M SO TIRED
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They just made the pub at the end of my road a gym; lookat my boi he's so cute!
I can't be arsed to save to get a team rocket top So I got a team magma one instead
I'm walking round the block to try to hatch my eggs 🥚
Lol
Reblog the friggity frog
Reblog the Frog.
if you have an identity that falls anywhere on the ace or aro spectrum I hope you find twenty dollars on the ground today.
Then once the enemy trainer has fainted, steal all of their pokemon, money and their house keys so that you have somewhere warm to sleep for the night ( or nights to come)
Forbidden pokemon tactic to win battles;
Go for the enemy trainer instead of the pokemon
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So, I moved recently. And my new neighborhood is full of kids. I met about 20 of them the day I moved in because they helped me chase down my dog when he got loose and I can already tell you, me and these kids are gonna be besties. They come over to play with my dogs at least once a day. A few little convos we’ve had so far:
(On the day we met)
6yo: My name Kendrick but you can call me KJ cause my friends call me KJ and you my friend now.
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KJ: I’ll walk your dogs for 5$!
Me: Imma think about it, okay?
KJ: Ok ok, 3$!! But that’s the lowest imma go. What a deal right?!?!
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9yo: You know my Mama’s got a boyfriend.
Me: That’s nice!
9yo: My grandmama don’t like him cause he ain’t got a job.
Me: Oh.
9yo: Do you got a job?
Me: Yeah.
9yo: *screaming across the yard* GRANDMAMA!! THIS GIRL GOT A JOB!
(I might be her new stepmom, y’all. Idk)
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12 yo: You ain’t got a man?
Me: Nope.
12 yo: You got a woman?
Me: Nope.
12 yo: It’s just you and these dogs?
Me: Yep.
12 yo: Girllllll! You living the life!
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9yo: *banging on my back door* HEY!! Open the door!!
Me: *opening the door, freaking out* OMG! WHATS WRONG!
9yo: Nothing. You got a popsicle?
Me: Ummmm...no.
9yo: You want one?
Me:???
9yo: *pulls a popsicle from behind her back* I think you need this.
Me: Thank you.
9yo: Alright. Imma see you tomorrow. Bye!!
Me:...okay
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I mainly draw BNHA stuff (especially midnight lol) and I'm constantly trying to improve so please give me tips and advice!
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