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that one scar that's bigger than every other one for some reason>>>>>>>>>>>

almost a year clean down the drain ffs man i hate myself

”you have to cut out ALL liquid calories if you want to lose we-“ YOU CAN TAKE MY HOT CHOCOLATE FROM MY COLD, DEAD, SOMETIMES GRAY HANDS YOU SON OF A BITCH

skinny girl shopping 🥗

the sweet call of the edge of a cliff lures me closer and closer every day

This shit is such a scam

The number goes down by a lot, body looks same

The number goes slightly up, AND I LOOK LIKE A ROTTING WHALE WTF

Sometimes i look at my $elfharm scars and think “Damn it wasn’t even that deep”

got termed again - new intro post ˚₊‧⁺⋆♱

hihi new people !!

used to be arch444ngel and 4rch444ngel - i always post under #arch44ngel if you ever need to find me

to whoever keeps reporting me, please stop. you're not helping anyone, you're taking away the only place where i can talk about my struggles. like I've said before, i'm not pro anything, this blog is only ever directed at myself. if anything from my blog triggers you, please block and don't report, it only harms me if you do that.

welcome to my personal obsessive-compulsive n!ghtmare ˚₊‧⁺⋆♱

my name's risa

my pronouns are she/her

i'm from the uk

i'm a taurus sun, scorpio moon, and leo rising, and an infp-t

i'm 17 years old, but i will literally talk to anyone

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i have ocd, and i've struggled with disordered eating for around 5 years now. again, PLEASE block, don't report if anything triggers you. this is only a space for me to track my insanity and keep my obsessions all in one place.

please dm me, i am always, always bored. dm to be friends, to vent, to just talk, best believe i will reply.

i may occasionally post something about my struggles, but it is always only as a way to track my thoughts and basically talk to myself. i am very much pro recovery, my thoughts are quite literally uncontrollable, so this blog is only ever directed at myself.

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some of the very many things i'm obsessed with:

religious iconography - sort of obvious (i have crippling religious ocd and years worth of catholic trauma)

classics of all forms

music - i'm not joking when i say this is my life, here's my spotify

manifestation (yes i am one of those freaks, thank youuu. subliminals, crystals, and angel numbers control me.)

the marauders, tsh, dps, bowie (iykyk)

THE HUNGER GAMES - anything dystopian, really. suzanne collins is a visionary.

anything and everything luca guadagnino, wes anderson, and sofia coppola

lily rose depp, kate moss, enya umanzor, timothee chalamet, matthew gray gubler, harry styles - i'm bisexual, evidently

currently specifically obsessed with organic chemistry??? (you are amongst a stem neek with way too much brainrot and not enough motivation to revise)

'i am nothing in my soul if not obsessive' fr.

(and slightly insufferable, but its okay, here's my pinterest).

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currently reading to the lighthouse. i would recommend, if you want a good distraction. been very obsessed with massive attack lately, but i listen to literally everything. my favourite book is probably 1984, or anna karenina. my favourite song changes almost every day, right now, it's wildflower wildfire by lana del rey. my favourite movie also changes often, but i really really like palo alto - here's my letterboxd. my favourite tv show currently is criminal minds (PLEASE talk to me if you like cm, i need to theorise). 

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anyways.

stats:

height: 170cm (5'6 i think)

sw: 125lbs (56.7kg)

cw: 96lbs (43.5kg)

gw1: 115lbs (52.2kg)

gw1: 110lbs (49.9kg)

gw3: 100lbs (45.4kg)

gw4: 90lbs (40.8kg)

ugw: 85lbs (38.6kg)

bmi: 15.5

numbers do not define me. numbers do not define me. numbers do not define me (daily affirmations).

2025 will be a good year. 

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i guess that's everything. i just really need other people to be insane with. please, please block and don't report. and as always, i'm pro recovery, this is just my personal way of processing things.

please be my friend, i crave companionship. 

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stay safe skinnies x

love from risa

"Well atleast I'm not doing drugs" I say as I do other destructive things

"why do u need to lose weight u look fine" well people actually treat me like a human now ive lost weight

i will always be a junkorexic i fear

someone make a marauders themed cal tracker for march pls you can have my soul

if im bloated tmr im gonna lose it

i have been gaining and losing the same MOTHERFUCKING kilogram for a month this is not okay

sometimes I think I’m cute but then I see actual cute and pretty people and I’m like “oh” and that is what drives my ed

i cannot finish anything on a weird minute, i have to stop doing things on a good number (ex: 12, 12:30)

𝜗𝜚 𝐫𝐞𝐛𝐥𝐨𝐠 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐢𝐟 𝐲𝐨𝐮’𝐫𝐞 𝐚𝐧 𝐚𝐜𝐭𝐢𝐯𝐞 𝟒𝐧𝟒 𝐛𝐥𝐨𝐠 𝐥𝐨𝐨𝐤𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐛𝐮𝐝𝐝𝐢𝐞𝐬

(my dms are open <3)

like an angel 🪽

me core 🎀

gonna have to cut my fast short bc me and my mum r going out tmrw 💔

shameless self promo i made an @na tiktok account if anyone's interested its cherry.angelic 💕

me after i binge

loving food and having an eating disorder is so confusing

Do you know any good low calorie meals? And I’m talking under 100 or 200.

i know that cucumber and boiled eggs are good, and rice cakes are about 50cal. i prefer chewing gum tho, the one i chew is 4cal a piece plus they make me feel fuller. fruits tend to be low cal, and salmon is pretty low cal and had a good amount of protein

Hating your bone structure is torture there’s nothing you can do to change your bones.

I’m so bad at having an eating disorder. I can’t even be above average at being mentally ill.

is it bad that i love it when my friends get concerned about my eating habits like yess validate me