Latest Posts by cherry-vanilla-tea - Page 2
when the mental illness hits so you whip out the playlist from junior high
(the music is shitty, nostalgic, and made it worse.)
Why are all my mooties so suicidal lately like same but is it something in the air or did the government poison the diet coke to weed out the anorexics
how it feels having a 900-1000 cal intake on edblr while everyone else eats 0-200 cals
"fuck you my child is completely fine" your child's immediate response to feeling rejected is to sexualize themself
i feel so guilty every time i eat 😭 i havent had anything today but a rice cake and a piece of fried fish and i feel like a pig im just not going to eat tmrw
unfortunately i think i’ll always be a junkorexic
so close to being in the teens for bmi AGHHH
just dont eat, fat lasts longer than flavor
convinced everyone im better but im actually worse
me because i did sm work convincing everyone that i got better and i cant destroy that now
i want to die but i know ill never have the confidence to do it myself, but nights like these i feel awful, its like a constant emptiness inside me all the time
"oh u have an ed? do u mean ana?" no bitch, ALL OF THEM
it’s so interesting and a bit scary to me to see how other/healthy people are eating
you’re telling me you had THREE meals today ?? you had a snack just because you felt like it ?? you’re eating white bread without freaking out ?? 😭😭
i can’t imagine for the life of me what that’s like
really craving a cheesestring rn but i ate lunch today so im chugging water instead, plus i only have three left 😔 rations are low
told one of my friends about my ed for the first time she actually reacted well? i love her shes so nice
idk which to do, and i dont want to inconvenience my friends ☹️
day thirty!!!
i can't believe i got thru this, im so happy, so if anyone's interested heres the 10 facts and my current stats:
1. i love philosophy, im doing it for gcse
2. cheesestrings are my favorite safe food
3. i have four older sisters
4. my most recent read was the karamazov brothers by fyodor dostoeyevsky
5. i once failed a science test with 12%
6. i am bisexual
7. i play the guitar and the drums
8. my favorite musicians are olivia rodrigo and dominic fike
9. i really want a pet cat and a domesticated pigeon when im older
10. my favorite animal is a black rain frog, search them up :)
and my stats are now this-
sw: 56.7
hw: 58.9
cw: 48.8
lw 48.6
cheesestrings are my favorite things ever 60 calories for one, fun to eat AND the taste and texture are perfect for my autistic ass
ass so flat it hurts to sit for a long time
id really like to sleep for a week straight but unfortunately chemistry and greek exist so no rest for me
me after eating a full meal and sleeping properly, wondering why I still feel like shit
the past three years of starvation and running on caffeine:
day twenty nine
my definition of beauty is like a mix of asian standards and western ones, id love to be skinny and pale, with longer lashes and bigger eyes, but i quite like being shorter than average. i want longer fingers and a big thigh gap too
what? an eating disorder?! i say as i retreat slowly, dropping my protein bars and laxatives 😊
oh to have long, thin fingers
reblog this if you’re a member of the glorious pickleution i need my moots back
“But ur a healthy weight ☺️!!”
Yes I know, that’s part of the problem.
ate lunch today and i feel worse than ever. this morning i reached my lw of 48.4kg but now i think im back over 50 i feel so ill
i fear i am overdoing this (potential foods to eat for my bsfs birthday)