Latest Posts by chocolatehabeneroboi - Page 3

Facts, I've never seen or heard a chaotic pride event unless straight people/christians/etc. show up with some type of weapon and now its a fucking mass shooting instead of a small area where people can just be with other lgbt people

wow what a rant

„I have ptsd“

❌ Boring

❌ Weak and breedable

❌ Gives in to your therapists agenda

❌ Gives fuel to your enemies

„I am plagued by visions“

✅ Fresh and sexy

✅ Threatening aura

✅ Keeps your therapist on their toes

✅ forces your enemies to consider the homoerotic subtext in your rivalry

Oops

How do you gently and nonjudgmentally tell someone "I'm sorry but my trauma is you"?

#narciss

They've told us that cooking is drudgery, but we know the truth. With every loaf of bread, every pot of soup, every roasted chicken, we're declaring our independence. As we reclaim these lost skills, we connect the earth to our plates. And that is when everything changes.

- Jill Winger (@ jill.winger on IG)

The other day I woke up with heart racing and I felt really weird and sick and head foggy and eyes blurry

I just found out that is low blood sugar and it happens when u ⭐️ve yourself so I just wanted to warn all the restri anas about this please stay safe and if this happens EAT SOMETHING, that’s all, goodnight loves

70 CAL STARBS DRINK

Here’s my go to Starbucks order!! 70cals! And 12g carbs!! Found this on tiktok and it’s so good. All on a Venti size!

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Trans people are 4 times more likely to develop an ed than cis people yet still majority of surveys, movies, online spaces and treatment options is heavily centred around cis people while absolutely ignoring the existence of trans people. They don't care about us at all and it's so fuck1ng tiring.

January Calorie Tracker

I couldn't find one of these so I self edited it. Sorry it's messy I've never edited before and many apologies for my Samsung emojis :/ feel free to use!

oops my bad i thought i was only fasting for 45 hours.... hahah nope i input the info into the fasting app and I've apparently been fasting for 60:11:45 damn thats great that I couldn't tell lol

So I was working with my family member at their job, and it's a graveyard 'stay up all night' kind of job with heavy lifting.

The only thing I ate that entire time was a turkey bacon roll from wawa at 2am which was 510 calories, and then went home and slept until this morning at 10am, which means I'm now not only back on my bullshit, but also 45 hours into fasting.

i’ve come to realize that you can display every single symptom of an eating disorder and if you aren’t skinny it won’t matter

im gonna lose sm weight over winter break when people see me after they'll be concerned

Nobody:

Me “reading” the menu at the restaurant that I totally didn’t look up a week ago to order a totally non planned spontaneous meal:

Nobody:

Me “reading” the menu at the restaurant that I totally didn’t look up a week ago to order a totally non planned spontaneous meal:

It’s like my gender dysphoria and body dysmorphia made one of those Dragon Ball fusion dances and my ED came out

Ed bitches be like "I wanna be fragile and dainty" bro you eat less than a toddler should, you are definitely fragile on a medical point

Ed bitches be like "I wanna be fragile and dainty" bro you eat less than a toddler should, you are definitely fragile on a medical point

Don’t mind me just coping with disordered eating humor

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im not even looking in the mirror anymore

"Treat others how you want to be treated."

That phrase is one I've heard all my life growing up, yet it's clear how my family wants me to treat them.

My uncles want to be left alone, even in the worst circumstances,

my grandma wants to keep in touch and love me always,

my dad wants nothing to do with me (same as my sisters apparently) my brothers want space and nothing but space and for their annoying younger brother to stay away

and my mom.. well,

if she wants to be treated as how she treated me, then surely I should kill everything she loves, throw her to a rap!st for 1.5 years, bring men around that will treat her like shit (oh wait she already does that herself), betray her repeatedly, destroy her room and let crackheads sell everything/destroy everything she has, tell her no matter what she is to upkeep the majority of the house chores (yes even with fresh SH! cuts), tell her her medical problems are not only a burden but a detriment to how I'M living MY life and that she needs to think of the family when she complains about anything, call her a bitch, cunt, monster, manipulative, etc., call her just to scream at her for manipulating my friends into helping her get necessities out of life, neglect her in a trap house for 6 years with no outside support except begging neighbors for essentials like hygiene products, drivee with her in the vehicle but almost crash it about 5 times each time, demean, aggravate, punish, abuse her as she's abused me.

...And then tell her that she's not allowed to seek outside help or support, and not even utter a single fucking word about what goes on in the house, because as she's told me over and over, what happens in the house stays in the house.

And she still thinks she deserves forgiveness? She treats me like a criminal not knowing she's a serial killer of souls and hope.

I've forgiven her actions of the past, but that doesn't mean the pain and absolute agony of a life I once knew just disappears.

Do you ever have a thought that doesn't necessarily haunt you, but leaves warm caresses of hope in your ears? Thoughts of opportunity, of what could be that seems so misty like a vast raincloud? Thoughts like that seem to feel like watching the sun set in your mental psyche. They wash over you while you're just doing ordinary things in your usual life, almost like a whisper of something better should you decide that. It feels like both the beginning and the end of a decision all at once.