addendum:
it goes beyond like degradation and stuff, i'm just really terrible at making myself get over the anxiety of doing something. i guess i'm just so afraid of people not liking me for something i do. is that normal..?
sometimes i wonder if i'm too nice for my own good
as much as i love the IDEA of doing it, i'm really awful at degrading people because i want everyone to feel good :D
it mostly comes from a place of anxiety, i guess. like a voice in the back of my head that tells me that everything i'm doing is wrong.
oh what a dilemma i have found myself in... i'd appreciate any tips if people have them, mostly about swallowing that anxiety (even though i don't think anyone would really read this)
this but they're all just completely impossible to interpret and understand, let alone put into words.
i wanna start just posting my unfiltered thoughts on here but most of them r like i need to have freaky nasty sex and then get brutally murdered and that’s about it
need more women in my inbox and dms
MOMMY? MA’AM? MISTRESS? MISS? WHERE ARE YOU ?!???
bitches call me goro akechi the way i'm autistic and evil
i wish i could scream at the top of my lungs but i live in a suburban neighborhood in a house full of 5 other people and multiple pets.
when i can drive again, i'm going to just drive out to the middle of nowhere and scream to relieve some of this nagging ache from my chest.
i don't care if my throat BLEEDS, i need to scream.
13 :3
Dirty talk
Specifically really graphic, visceral dirty talk (explaining what you want/want to do to or with me in great detail)
Or just descriptions in general. I've been realizing that I actually enjoy erotic literature (when it's not... y'know, cringe) and I think slow, gradual descriptions of scenes is really one of my favorite things
Beyond that, tears, mental illness, glasses (not even sexual I just think they're cute), and like uhhh I guess even though I hate showing it, I do really like being doted on. Like a mother or something who just wants the best for me. (I never really got that much attention if you couldn't tell)
it'll be shit like this and then right next to it is the fluffiest, silliest ace attorney yaoi i've ever seen.
also just this, in general.
Kid raping their parent? Grinding on dad’s lap cause they saw it on TV? Sucking mom’s tits when they’re at no age to be feeding?
shorty got me sayin oh my stars
the confusing urge to sadistically hurt someone followed by the inexplicable emptiness when i breathe the wrong way in front of the same person
what do you find hot about sh?
mental illness, primarily. both the fact that i am mentally ill and the fact that i love mentally ill people. trauma is just hot. physical and emotional.
manifesting ace attorney now... give me lawyer yaoi, tumblr WHERE ARE YOU HIDING IT???