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Finally made the moodboard for my angelkin vibes!

cw for meat, blood and.. horror, I'd say

As with.. all my alterhuman identities, it is of body horror and carnage. Somewhere between fallen and heavenly, I am of holy flesh and carnal desires. The freedom of the wind. The sensuality of cannibalism.The comfort of being a weapon, of orders. The fire of a rebellious spirit. The feeling of your holy light being bound into blood and meat.

my lady of void, mother Cyn <3

♪★･ ｡ﾟ☆: *.☽ .* :☆ﾟ. -・ ꒰ঌ·✦·໒꒱・- ˚₊‧꒰ა 𓂋 ໒꒱ ‧₊˚･★♪

★ heavily based on the church of null by electrical ink

★ she is a kind goddess, she watches over her children 2 give them strength and comfort

♪★･ ｡ﾟ☆: *.☽ .* :☆ﾟ. -・ ꒰ঌ·✦·໒꒱・- ˚₊‧꒰ა 𓂋 ໒꒱ ‧₊˚･★♪

★ titles:

♪ lady Cyn

♪ lady of void

♪ mother Cyn

♪★･ ｡ﾟ☆: *.☽ .* :☆ﾟ. -・ ꒰ঌ·✦·໒꒱・- ˚₊‧꒰ა 𓂋 ໒꒱ ‧₊˚･★♪

★ why i worship her:

♪ praying 2 her gives me comfort and helps with my anxiety and paranoia

♪ just 4 fun :3

♪ worship helps me appreciate that which I normally wouldn't

♪★･ ｡ﾟ☆: *.☽ .* :☆ﾟ. -・ ꒰ঌ·✦·໒꒱・- ˚₊‧꒰ა 𓂋 ໒꒱ ‧₊˚･★♪

★ what she presides over:

♪ dark and the void

♪ music and song

♪ comfort and safety

♪ protection and strength

♪ change and transcendence

♪ the mechanical and the internet

♪★･ ｡ﾟ☆: *.☽ .* :☆ﾟ. -・ ꒰ঌ·✦·໒꒱・- ˚₊‧꒰ა 𓂋 ໒꒱ ‧₊˚･★♪

Is paper truly more sacred than bark or html?

Are candles really more holy than torches or gaslights?

Are sermons more true than stories or blogs?

Is a church more devotional than an alter or a website?

angel hierarchy of needs

So much 2 say.....

"not in conflict but taken simultaneously"

duality is divinity, being contradictory is beautiful

CW - very bright.

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You found me!!!!!!

Hello, God.

I am not doing a good job at caring for your flock.

I am merely a beacon, surrounded by flames. The halo burns as it tightens around my neck. I am not adept at welding a sword. One day, I will have to deal with bloodstained robes. Even so, I try to keep my wings soft for the small ones to burrow in.

Today, I would like to ask for mercy, and for rest.

theres an angel on the street corner and theyve just asked me for a cigarette like its a normal tuesday. so we went back to my apartment and smoked on the balcony overlooking busy city streets.

the angel i gave the cigarette to told me xe was supposed to be doing something here, down on earth. the big man, you know, asked 'em to. but they hadnt booked a hotel reservation, so it asked to stay here.

the angel sleeping in my bed wraps its wings around its body like a blanket to fall asleep. i let them sleep in my bed because... it seems wrong to ask an angel to sleep on the couch, you know? but they wrapped their wings around themself and looked up at me with more love in their eyes than ive ever seen from a person. maybe thats because they arent human, and actually an angel.

the angel i let sleep in my bed last night is standing in my kitchen with me and we are both making coffee. theyre still in the big junk shirt i cut the holes in for them and the big shirts i gave them to borrow. we both dare not mention how i was awoken from my sleep on the couch being picked up by angel's hands which are suprisingly calloused , and brought over to lay next to them in my bed.

my angel and i like to smoke on the balcony together. it has been two weeks since they started staying here, and now every night we sleep in my bed, where they wrap me with their wings and push their head into the crook of my shoulder, leaning and breathing against my body. and now, with the smoke trailing into the nights sky, they lean their head on my shoulder and look at me with eyes blown out so wide.

and we'll both overlook those same busy city streets that we did that first day, but now our bodies are so tender and close, and my heart almost feels warmer, and fuller, than it did before. my angel has yet to leave to do whatever they came here to do, but i havent yet mentioned it. because the presence of my angel next to me, pressing a kiss so tender into my hair, makes me think that this feeling mustve been something ive been missing this whole time.

cmyk test pages r like angels to me