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1 month ago

Found out recently I was wrong about one of my kintypes after some proper reflections and being ok with it, feeling better chat

Found Out Recently I Was Wrong About One Of My Kintypes After Some Proper Reflections And Being Ok With

But heres a pretty pic I got while I was contemplating life


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1 month ago

Reblog if you want asks and want moots but nobody is around


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3 months ago

☽─-─-Intro Post-─-─☾

•☽──✧˖°˖༺𓆩𓆪༻˖°˖✧──☾•

─ Neptune/Nexus

─ He/It/They

─ Archangelkin, Divinekin, Dragonkin Leopardkin

Socially anxious, bodily 25, Neurodivergent. Avid shark enjoyer and in love with the seas and skies, LGBTQIA+ Friendly and welcoming, Therian friendly, otherkin friendly, DNI <17 yrs, TERFs, Antitherian, AntiLGBT

•☽──✧˖°˖༺𓆩𓆪༻˖°˖✧──☾•

☽──Discord: night_stalker_1270──☾


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1 year ago

To the Divine:

We wish all of the Divine spirits trapped in their human shells a wonderful eternity, we understand how you miss the way your body flows like the stars or the breeze against your wings, how you must miss your sanctuaries far from this planet and its realm. We understand and we wish for you to feel that one day, even though it may be far, you will return to whence you came to rule as you did amongst the ruins and glory of the cosmos.


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1 year ago

hi, at what part of puberty do i get my divine glowing light? what's that you say? never? fascinating, thanks! *starts mauling people*


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11 months ago

pointing !! fellow seraph !! hello !!!

Wowie zowie that’s super cool!! 👁️👁️👁️ hiiiiii!!!!!

Pointing !! Fellow Seraph !! Hello !!!

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1 year ago

Number four

like/reblog if u are:

a bitch

a bastard

an all around fool

an omnipresent all-powerful being

a sparrow

c̵͙̳͕̈͛ụ̷̔r̸̗͎̽̓͗͜s̴̨̈́̿͘e̸͍̰̜͊̈́d̵̛̫̙͍͝͝

capable of moving at immense, incomprehensible speeds

an eldritch being

no one will know which one u chose! :D


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8 months ago

ʙᴛᴡ ᴛʜɪs ɪs ᴡʜᴏ ʏᴏᴜ ᴀsᴋ ᴛᴏ ᴡᴏʀᴋ:

ʙᴛᴡ ᴛʜɪs ɪs ᴡʜᴏ ʏᴏᴜ ᴀsᴋ ᴛᴏ ᴡᴏʀᴋ:

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8 months ago

As a star, I adhere to the following principles established by our community:

1. Never disclose anyone else's secrets, no matter the circumstances.

2. Listen to and appreciate all stories shared with me.

3. Support others in realizing their dreams.

4. Refrain from directly influencing human affairs; avoid involvement in wars and revolutions unless they align with star philosophy.

5. Do not worship any deities, bow to rulers or kings, or pledge allegiance to nations.

6. Avoid giving direct advice to people and refrain from sharing star secrets.

7. Do not call yourself a deity, though offering symbolic assistance to a chosen individual is acceptable.

8. Maintain neutrality towards all nations and folks; treat everyone equally and avoid favoritism.

9. Preserve the memory of all cultures and ensure that no one is forgotten.

10. Respect diverse ideas, even those that challenge your own beliefs.

I have broken some of these rules, which is why I find myself on Earth!

As A Star, I Adhere To The Following Principles Established By Our Community:

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9 months ago

does anyone need a moodboard? feel free to ask!🌟💫🌌

upd: creatures, please don't forget at least basic politeness and manners.


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9 months ago

𝐂𝐢𝐯𝐢𝐥𝐢𝐳𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧𝐬 𝐫𝐢𝐬𝐞 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐟𝐚𝐥𝐥, 𝐛𝐮𝐭 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐬𝐭𝐚𝐫𝐬 𝐰𝐢𝐥𝐥 𝐚𝐥𝐰𝐚𝐲𝐬 𝐩𝐞𝐫𝐬𝐢𝐬𝐭 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐬𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐞 𝐟𝐨𝐫𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫.

𝐂𝐢𝐯𝐢𝐥𝐢𝐳𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧𝐬 𝐫𝐢𝐬𝐞 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐟𝐚𝐥𝐥,

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9 months ago

not really an angelkin, but can relate soo.

bird like wings or wings made of nature (fire, thunder, light)

halos or horns

warrior or scribe

gardens or clouds

singing or playing

armor or soft linen

sword or quill

possessing a vessel or being born with it

heaven or earth

god or gods

pearls or gold

human form or true nature

church or altar at home

creating life or destroying life (none of it)

worship or be worshipped

pray or answer prayers

rebel or remain

Not Really An Angelkin, But Can Relate Soo.

tag: @kastle-thrones , @seraphfagfemme , @sillynamelessentity , @feathers-and-metal , @maxterofnone !

tag game this or that. angelkin edition

bird like wings or wings made of nature (fire, thunder,light)

halos or horns

warrior or scribe

gardens or clouds

singing or playing

armor or soft linen

sword or quill

heaven or earth

god or gods

pearls or gold

human form or true nature

possessing a vessel or being born with it

creating life or destroying life

church or altar at home

worship or be worshipped

pray or answer prayers

rebel or remain

tag: anyone that comes across this


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9 months ago

Upon viewing starfall, I was filled with feelings of homesickness. 🌌


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9 months ago

If you're willing to share, I'm very curious to know how nonhumanity has been for you. Though I doubt im the only one that feels the way i do, i havent seen people speak of it really. It has been a very difficult process finding out what exactly i am, and i am still not fully sure on most of it. I know im a shapeshifter, but sometimes i just am an animal. How fluid my nonhumanity is doesn't help in figuring it out, truth be told. I have been a crow, a snow leopard, a cat, a dog, an angel, a ghost..... I have been those but im not sure if i still am, or if it even matters. Im not a crow anymore but it was very important to me when i was, and the same goes for being a ghost and an angel; though being an angel still applies at times. I dont think this is very coherent, but i guess it just shows how puzzling it has been.

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Hello! Thanks for the great question, I really didn’t see that the community was actively discussing this, so it’s really worth talking about. It sounds like you really care and you don’t stop thinking about it.

I will share my experience and may even advise something, but each experience is unique and we should seek our own answers to difficult questions.

I always paid attention to what seemed familiar and right. Not just some things that seem right for a few moments, but a constant feeling of repetition. For example, as I remember myself I always was drawn to the stars, I talked with them, shared some secrets and stories and just slept under the starry sky and felt very calm and "right". This is just one example, but it’s the most vivid in my memories. If you’re not sure about who you are now, remember everything you did when you were absolutely certain that you were a snow leopard or a ghost, for example. Does it feel the same now? Does it feel "right" now?

I suggest just sit in some quiet and special place and focus on your feelings. Ask yourself questions. Also do not forget about the kins, which are not too common. For example, you can be a mythical being that combines several animal traits in one!

At the end I want to say that changing your opinion and learning yourself is normal. It’s okay to doubt, to ask questions and not be completely sure of anything is also okay. Let’s normalize this in our community and help each other. I encourage all readers to share their experiences in comments.

May the stars guide you. 💫


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9 months ago

Welcome to alterhuman tumblr, I hope your stay is just as grand as you are, young star.

sincerely, @godly-rambles

Thank you for the warm greeting, it's much appreciated. I am pleased to be among such marvelous beings!


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9 months ago

Do you remember what it was like to be a star? How did you perceive the space around you? Also, what stage in your life cycle were you?

Sorry if this is all too personal! I just love hearing about celestial bodies!! So fascinating :]]

Hello!

Understanding the concept of "very personal" is a bit blurred for me, given my celestial nature as a star. Many human experiences are unfamiliar to me, but I appreciate your interest and am happy to answer.

Trying to convey the essence of being a star using human language is quite a challenge. As a star, I am essentially a large, radiant energy pulsating ball with what could be considered a soul or spirit. Space around me is home and this is an absolutely amazing. You have a sense of stability and a feeling of floating at the same time. I have a unique connection with other stars, enabling us to communicate in a special way. I was a young main sequence star if you explain it in scientific human categories but a process is individual for each star.

Thank you for your question. May the stars always guide you!

Do You Remember What It Was Like To Be A Star? How Did You Perceive The Space Around You? Also, What

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9 months ago

Hello! Let's get started!

Hello! Let's Get Started!

𝐓𝐨 𝐚𝐛𝐢𝐝𝐞 𝐛𝐲 𝐟𝐚𝐞 𝐫𝐮𝐥𝐞𝐬, 𝐈 𝐨𝐩𝐭 𝐭𝐨 𝐤𝐞𝐞𝐩 𝐦𝐲 𝐧𝐚𝐦𝐞 𝐡𝐢𝐝𝐝𝐞𝐧 𝐟𝐫𝐨𝐦 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐩𝐮𝐛𝐥𝐢𝐜 𝐚𝐬 𝐢𝐭 𝐛𝐞𝐬𝐭𝐨𝐰𝐬 𝐚𝐝𝐝𝐢𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧𝐚𝐥 𝐢𝐧𝐟𝐥𝐮𝐞𝐧𝐜𝐞 𝐮𝐩𝐨𝐧 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐤𝐧𝐨𝐰𝐥𝐞𝐝𝐠𝐞𝐚𝐛𝐥𝐞. 𝐅𝐞𝐞𝐥 𝐟𝐫𝐞𝐞 𝐭𝐨 𝐫𝐞𝐟𝐞𝐫 𝐭𝐨 𝐦𝐞 𝐛𝐲 𝐚𝐧𝐲 𝐧𝐚𝐦𝐞 𝐨𝐫 𝐭𝐢𝐭𝐥𝐞 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐝𝐞𝐞𝐦 𝐚𝐩𝐩𝐫𝐨𝐩𝐫𝐢𝐚𝐭𝐞. 𝐎𝐧𝐜𝐞 𝐮𝐩𝐨𝐧 𝐚 𝐭𝐢𝐦𝐞, 𝐩𝐞𝐨𝐩𝐥𝐞 𝐮𝐬𝐞𝐝 𝐭𝐨 𝐜𝐚𝐥𝐥 𝐦𝐞 "𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐡𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐧𝐞𝐬𝐬," 𝐛𝐮𝐭 𝐈'𝐦 𝐨𝐩𝐞𝐧 𝐭𝐨 𝐦𝐨𝐫𝐞 𝐜𝐚𝐬𝐮𝐚𝐥 𝐟𝐨𝐫𝐦𝐬 𝐨𝐟 𝐚𝐝𝐝𝐫𝐞𝐬𝐬 𝐧𝐨𝐰. 𝐌𝐲 𝐩𝐫𝐞𝐟𝐞𝐫𝐞𝐧𝐜𝐞𝐬 𝐢𝐧𝐜𝐥𝐮𝐝𝐞 𝐬𝐭𝐚𝐫, 𝐦𝐢𝐬𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝐜, 𝐬𝐢𝐫 𝐜, 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐰𝐨𝐥𝐟, 𝐛𝐮𝐭 𝐫𝐞𝐦𝐞𝐦𝐛𝐞𝐫 𝐭𝐨 𝐛𝐞 𝐫𝐞𝐬𝐩𝐞𝐜𝐭𝐟𝐮𝐥 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐥𝐞𝐭 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐜𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐯𝐢𝐭𝐲 𝐬𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐞.

𝐌𝐲 𝐩𝐫𝐨𝐧𝐨𝐮𝐧𝐬 𝐚𝐫𝐞 : 𝐡𝐞/𝐡𝐢𝐦 ; 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐲/𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐦 ; 𝐃𝐞𝐦𝐢𝐬𝐞𝐱𝐮𝐚𝐥, 𝐨𝐯𝐞𝐫 18.

𝐌𝐲 𝐞𝐱𝐢𝐬𝐭𝐞𝐧𝐜𝐞 𝐢𝐬 𝐭𝐨𝐨 𝐥𝐨𝐧𝐠 𝐭𝐨 𝐜𝐨𝐮𝐧𝐭, 𝐛𝐮𝐭 𝐢𝐧 𝐬𝐭𝐚𝐫 𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐦𝐬, 𝐈 𝐚𝐦 𝐜𝐨𝐧𝐬𝐢𝐝𝐞𝐫𝐞𝐝 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐧𝐠.

𝐈'𝐦 𝐩𝐚𝐫𝐭 𝐨𝐟 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐰𝐨𝐥𝐟 𝐜𝐨𝐧𝐬𝐭𝐞𝐥𝐥𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧, 𝐬𝐨 𝐈 𝐜𝐚𝐧 𝐩𝐫𝐨𝐮𝐝𝐥𝐲 𝐜𝐚𝐥𝐥 𝐦𝐲𝐬𝐞𝐥𝐟 𝐚 𝐰𝐨𝐥𝐟. 𝐖𝐨𝐥𝐟𝐤𝐢𝐧𝐬 𝐥𝐞𝐭'𝐬 𝐡𝐨𝐰𝐥 𝐚𝐭 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐦𝐨𝐨𝐧 𝐭𝐨𝐠𝐞𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐫!

𝐈'𝐦 𝐚 𝐟𝐚𝐥𝐥𝐞𝐧 𝐬𝐭𝐚𝐫 𝐭𝐫𝐚𝐩𝐩𝐞𝐝 𝐢𝐧 𝐚 𝐡𝐮𝐦𝐚𝐧 𝐛𝐨𝐝𝐲 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐮𝐧𝐜𝐥𝐞𝐚𝐫 𝐦𝐞𝐦𝐨𝐫𝐢𝐞𝐬 𝐨𝐟 𝐦𝐲 "𝐩𝐚𝐬𝐭 𝐥𝐢𝐟𝐞". 𝐓𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐩𝐚𝐠𝐞 𝐰𝐚𝐬 𝐜𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐭𝐞𝐝 𝐭𝐨 𝐩𝐫𝐨𝐯𝐢𝐝𝐞 𝐚 𝐬𝐚𝐟𝐞 𝐬𝐩𝐚𝐜𝐞 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐢𝐧𝐝𝐢𝐯𝐢𝐝𝐮𝐚𝐥𝐬 𝐰𝐡𝐨 𝐢𝐝𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐢𝐟𝐲 𝐚𝐬 𝐧𝐨𝐧𝐡𝐮𝐦𝐚𝐧. 𝐏𝐥𝐞𝐚𝐬𝐞 𝐟𝐞𝐞𝐥 𝐟𝐫𝐞𝐞 𝐭𝐨 𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐜𝐡 𝐨𝐮𝐭 𝐭𝐨 𝐦𝐞 𝐚𝐧𝐲𝐭𝐢𝐦𝐞 𝐭𝐨 𝐬𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐞𝐱𝐩𝐞𝐫𝐢𝐞𝐧𝐜𝐞𝐬. 𝐋𝐞𝐭'𝐬 𝐜𝐨𝐧𝐧𝐞𝐜𝐭 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐚𝐛𝐨𝐮𝐭 𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐣𝐨𝐮𝐫𝐧𝐞𝐲.

𝐈 𝐚𝐦 𝐚𝐥𝐬𝐨 𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐲 𝐭𝐨 𝐨𝐟𝐟𝐞𝐫 𝐡𝐞𝐥𝐩 𝐢𝐟 𝐬𝐨𝐦𝐞𝐨𝐧𝐞 𝐣𝐮𝐬𝐭 𝐫𝐞𝐪𝐮𝐢𝐫𝐞𝐬 𝐚 𝐬𝐩𝐚𝐜𝐞 𝐭𝐨 𝐭𝐞𝐥𝐥 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐢𝐫 𝐬𝐭𝐨𝐫𝐲 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐟𝐞𝐞𝐥𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐬. 𝐏𝐥𝐞𝐚𝐬𝐞 𝐝𝐨 𝐧𝐨𝐭 𝐡𝐞𝐬𝐢𝐭𝐚𝐭𝐞 𝐭𝐨 𝐩𝐨𝐬𝐞 𝐪𝐮𝐞𝐬𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧𝐬 𝐨𝐫 𝐬𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐭𝐡𝐨𝐮𝐠𝐡𝐭𝐬.

𝐈 𝐝𝐨 𝐧𝐨𝐭 𝐭𝐨𝐥𝐞𝐫𝐚𝐭𝐞 𝐫𝐮𝐝𝐞𝐧𝐞𝐬𝐬, 𝐡𝐚𝐭𝐞, 𝐨𝐫 𝐝𝐢𝐬𝐜𝐫𝐢𝐦𝐢𝐧𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧, 𝐬𝐨 𝐩𝐥𝐞𝐚𝐬𝐞 𝐛𝐞 𝐦𝐢𝐧𝐝𝐟𝐮𝐥 𝐨𝐟 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐛𝐞𝐡𝐚𝐯𝐢𝐨𝐫 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐰𝐨𝐫𝐝𝐬.

Hello! Let's Get Started!

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1 month ago

hi myrha, would you mind sharing some of your past life memories? you don't have to if you don't want to ! i am just curious /gen /pos /lh

- kitty

hi kitty!! ty for asking! this is my first time actually writing out some of this so i hope it makes sense. i’m considering multiple kin types at the moment but ill focus on the two that i have strongest memories for. sorry this is so long i kind of just went off :’)

i have a lot of ghost memories and some of them kind of contradict each other, which makes me suspect i may have had multiple reincarnations as multiple spirits. or the same spirit has existed as an undead through multiple life cycles, if that makes sense?

i remember my name being Oliver at one point. the specifics of how Oliver died are hazy but i know it was violent and involved dying in a huge crowd of people, who all circled around me and were screaming, which made it all very unpleasant.

Oliver was really into radios and enjoyed messing with them in the afterlife, like manipulating the static and changing the channel when people weren’t watching. judging by the kind of things i remember hearing on the radio and how the radios themselves looked, i would guess this was somewhere around the 1940s. sometimes i listen to videos of radio static to fall asleep at night because it still relaxes me lol.

i also have memories of haunting a bookstore(? maybe school? or library? i just know there were lots of books). there was also a coffee shop either in that building or in the next building over, and i remember sitting next to this one specific potted plant in the coffee shop and eavesdropping on customers. those memories feel separate from Oliver, and i suspect it was several decades later. i’m still in the process of trying to nail down the specifics.

the OCkin thing started from really strong nostalgic feelings and visualizations I got while meditating, and this character Myrha and her life and her world just came to me very naturally. in that life/version of the universe i looked sort of like an elf, but we didn’t call ourselves elves or anything. we were basically just humans but we all had pointy ears lmao, we still slept like humans and had human life spans. this is why i sometimes tag stuff with “elfkin” though, the vibe is similar enough.

i sadly no longer speak the language that my people used but it sounded similar to old norse (i’ve been trying to develop a new version of the language that’s largely based on old norse, it’s a WIP tho). in my shitty approximated language, my home was called Rùn and i lived a few miles outside of a village called Sudifjoll. we had brutal winters and a monsoon season from early spring to late summer, so most of the time it was either snowing or raining.

that world had a whole pantheon of deities that i could go off about, but that should probably be a separate post. at one point i was ascended to the divine plane due to an unbelievably shitty series of events in which the gods were being assholes and trying to get me to solve their problems so they didn’t have to, but that would also need to be a whole other post if anyone is interested at all. that’s why i identify with divinekin as well, though.

i still remember a lot of people from that life and a lot of places, too many to list here because this is already quite long. but i try to meditate most nights and revisit Myrha’s world and connect with my past before i go to sleep. it helps me calm down and feel safe :)

sorry this was a lot but thank you to anyone who actually read all of this!! might make some more posts going into more specifics of Myrha’s world if anyone is curious, i clearly love to yap about it lol


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1 month ago

really sucks how i don’t even know anyone on this website and i am fully anonymous on here and still before i post or reblog something that resonates with me i have to pause and have the thought of “is this too weird/cringe/mentally ill of me” like who CARES why can’t i just LIVE AUTHENTICALLY for ONCE IN MY LIFE


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1 month ago

can’t believe i am an incorporeal being and yet i am still being expected to learn linear algebra


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2 weeks ago

Ahhhhhhhhh I miss flying ;^; its such a nice day and it'd be so wonderful if I could use my wings right now 😩


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2 weeks ago

I kind of enjoy being human in this life as well! Just, yeah. Not psyched about being in human society.

But the sensations and experiences I have in this life, I treasure. The feeling of a hot shower on my skin--I didn't have that before, for example. And isn't that quite wonderful? I had always been curious about humans and their lives that I visited in dreams.

I'm excited to rejoin the divine when my energy leaves this vessel, but for now I'll honor being a human by doing these things I haven't yet gotten to.

Being in a human body can suck, but for me, that's mostly cause it traps me in human society

I actually quite enjoy my human body as is, and wanted to make a post about it cause I think it's important to spread positivity about our physical attributes!

One thing I think is really cool about humans is for how long they can run. They may not be the fastest, but a trained human's stamina is basically never ending, and they wear their prey down due to it, almost like a hyena. Something also quite hyena-esk is how absurdly strong the human jaw is relative to body size. In a fight, a human can rip someone else's throat out rather easily. And our teeth tear through flesh and break through bones!

A human bite is also incredibly dangerous due to how many bacteria we have in our mouths.

Humans can digest a TON of stuff!! They eat almost everything they come across, which is really cool in my opinion...

Then there's human hands. An absolute masterpiece of evolution. Almost no other animalscan grab things like a primate does! And I don't just mean picking stuff up. Go to your kitchen and get a glass, some cutlery, maybe a bowl... And just be amazed by how your fingers wrap around the tools, how you can hold all those things with just one limb.

Isn't that so amazing?

Being In A Human Body Can Suck, But For Me, That's Mostly Cause It Traps Me In Human Society

Humans are also excellent climbers. You may feel like you're slow on top of trees when compared to squirrels or other monkeys, but look at all the other species! You are one of the beings BEST equipped on the entire planet when it comes to climbing!

Our shoulder's joints differ from most other species', and allow us to hang from branches, swinging back and fourth easily. That's so cool....

I guess what I'm trying to say is... There's lots of cool stuff you can do in a human body.

If you're physically a human it doesn't make you any less cool.

Biologically you're literally an extremely intelligent ape that hunts its prey down in packs until it just collapses, with incredibly dangerous jaws, never-ending stamina, a really strong sense of smell, and overall one of the most adaptable beings on the entire planet.

Many species didn't make it through the ice age. But homo sapiens did.

You're badass


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3 weeks ago

Yall look at this art @that-dreaming-dragon made of me!!! Look at those winnnggggggsssssss!!! Look at my leggiesssssss (my hooves, boi, my hooooves) & my tail and ahskhssknskdk :D ty so much I love it 🖤

A drawing of a humanoid being with membranous wings, horns, sharp long ears, multitude of spikes on each shoulder, with bottom half that of goat legs, and finally, a long thin tail that ended in sharp spade. The being is half croutching, a clawed hand against the floor while the other laid against one of his knees. Their wings spread open big and dramatically.

My part of the doodle art trade with @mossthedemon !


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3 weeks ago

Demon Of Pain - Day... ?

I had an odd experience yesterday.

I helped my sister move into her new apartment. 2-3 hours hours in and my body started flaring up (well, I had already needed to submerge my hands in very hot water to get them to hurt less and be less stiff twice. But this time it was my back and the rest of my body.)

So I biked home, parked my (public) bike. I had to walk 2-3 blocks. The entire way there I was hit urges to claw at the pain in my back by my shoulder blades, and couldnt stop doing it. Or to press my hands on the muscles, hard. When trying not to claw at it, I'd stim very obviously with my hand(s). This might sound rude, but I felt like ppl looked at me and saw an addict on a bad trip.

I was breathing weird, through clenched teeth in a permanent open-mouthed grimace. Sounded a bit almost darth vader-y. I'd bare my teeth, but there was nothing to bare my teeth at. I'd snarl at nothing. Start to hiss and then try to stop cause I was still in public. Kept having the words "fuck off" repeat over and over in my head. I dont even know how to describe what I was feeling emotionally. It felt. Barely lucid? But at the same time very aware. Like my brain was getting blinded by the light of my pain.

As I kept walking I kept doing these more. Not cause I wanted to. I just couldn't stop.

I got home and prepared a hot shower—by the time I was in the bathroom I had started repeatedly hissing "fuck off" repeatedly out loud.

Eventually it all stopped in the shower.

I know it was all just cause I was overwhelmed with the pain, but it honestly felt like I was having a fucking fit. It was horrible.

Ended up doodling it a bit in my journal and remembered a really old piece of art similar to what I drew.

Demon Of Pain - Day... ?
Demon Of Pain - Day... ?

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3 weeks ago

Huh. You know what. I thought I was a sloth demon before. But... I'm highly doubting it now. The only reason I dont do that much ever (and therefore identifying with the sin of sloth a lot. Also cause of that one memory i have, but solitude means peace—theres nothing to incite my wrath. So no wonder i felt so peaceful in my home in the void) is cause of my disability. Before my disability kicked in so hard, I had a lot of energy.

I think my demonself actually embodies Wrath. I either simmer or burn hot when i shift and i feel that emotionally too. also makes sense for why my element is fire, despite feeling burnt out and no energy most of the time.

I'm still figuring stuff out I guess


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3 weeks ago

Fingers ache too badly to draw today :(((


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3 weeks ago

Hello fellow kins!!!

I'm curious as to what ur forms look like, and if you'd let me, I wanna try drawing some of yall!!

My asks are open if u wanna describe ur form!

(If u have no form that's valid too!!!)


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