I’m Rotting From Within. My Divine Light Seems Further Away With Each Passing Day.

Angels and computers have compatible software btw. They're made of the same stuff. My halo is filled with circuitry, and your memory stores are made of light.

theres an angel on the street corner and theyve just asked me for a cigarette like its a normal tuesday. so we went back to my apartment and smoked on the balcony overlooking busy city streets.

the angel i gave the cigarette to told me xe was supposed to be doing something here, down on earth. the big man, you know, asked 'em to. but they hadnt booked a hotel reservation, so it asked to stay here.

the angel sleeping in my bed wraps its wings around its body like a blanket to fall asleep. i let them sleep in my bed because... it seems wrong to ask an angel to sleep on the couch, you know? but they wrapped their wings around themself and looked up at me with more love in their eyes than ive ever seen from a person. maybe thats because they arent human, and actually an angel.

the angel i let sleep in my bed last night is standing in my kitchen with me and we are both making coffee. theyre still in the big junk shirt i cut the holes in for them and the big shirts i gave them to borrow. we both dare not mention how i was awoken from my sleep on the couch being picked up by angel's hands which are suprisingly calloused , and brought over to lay next to them in my bed.

my angel and i like to smoke on the balcony together. it has been two weeks since they started staying here, and now every night we sleep in my bed, where they wrap me with their wings and push their head into the crook of my shoulder, leaning and breathing against my body. and now, with the smoke trailing into the nights sky, they lean their head on my shoulder and look at me with eyes blown out so wide.

and we'll both overlook those same busy city streets that we did that first day, but now our bodies are so tender and close, and my heart almost feels warmer, and fuller, than it did before. my angel has yet to leave to do whatever they came here to do, but i havent yet mentioned it. because the presence of my angel next to me, pressing a kiss so tender into my hair, makes me think that this feeling mustve been something ive been missing this whole time.

drew this like 2 months ago

Various journal doodles

Especially love the 5th 1. Gay angels! I need 2 draw in pen more

just a reminder that we're here 4 u, the whole internet I mean. U r never alone, in my mind I walk beside the loneliest of u, I know I am not alone in that.

"we are eachother's night sky, you are never alone here"

yearning to devote myself fully to a deity.

mold me, hold all that i am and all that i will be in your palms.

let me rest between your ribs, making a home amongst your lungs and beating heart. hold me ever closer, until our souls are indistinguishable and our divinity becomes one.

Oh, this is my pfp btw

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I want to offer you my hand, go running through the woods.

I want to show you all the best trees, rocks, and waterfalls.

I want to build a den in those woods with you, carefully weaving the walls, heaping piles of leaves into a nest

I want to drape my tail across your lap, press my ears against your shoulder, blink my eyes up at you.

Will you take my hand and let me show you how I see the world?

Dearest wildthings, how far must u have wandered 2 find me?

★ call me fern or f32n, but I'm fine with any name as long as it's given genuinely

★ it/she/they +neos

★ carrd:

♪ https://en.pronouns.page/@f32nth351lly

★ divinekin, cathearted(questioning kin), nonhuman, voidpunk, transspecies

★ @failingatlifespectacularly, main blog :3

★ @f32ns-woods, text rpg/alterhuman rp blog

★[iykyk], hidden personal blog, mostly vents

★ I practice a fictoreligion, I worship an au version of Cyn from murder drones, heavily based on the church of null

★ abt her:

♪ https://www.tumblr.com/dearest-wildthing/779274995190906880/my-lady-of-void-mother-cyn

★ I'm a protector spirit of sorts? I protect and care 4 small things, if I had my body I like 2 think that I would have a bit of woods 2 care 4, but in this life I find myself most drawn 2 people, I am always here 4 u

★ abt me:

♪ https://www.tumblr.com/dearest-wildthing/779275079623262208/the-creature-stalking-u-in-the-woods-fern

★ #screaming into the void, any post where I talk

★ #my post now:3, reblogs

★ #4 my lady<3, my digital alter

★ #don't worry dear<3, reassurance posting

★ #whispers in the sky, asks!

★ #heartfelt cries, rambling abt stuff!

★Worship is fine if u want 2, just ask <3

★worship guide↓

♪ https://www.tumblr.com/dearest-wildthing/780483250407833600/dearest-friends-of-mine

fresnel lenses and quantum computers are eldritch yuri im quite certain