"he Is Risen" If You Believe In Him Then He Rose 2000 Years Ago. Put Down Your Roses And Get In The Dirt

Just watched your suicide video and although i understand your premise and the meaning behind posting it, I think you're almost blocking out the fact that sometimes suicide isn't about circumstances or a bad choice along the way, it's about serious depression and just literally having no desire to live so unhappily day to day. For some people being one in 7 billion or being here for a reason isn't enough when living is much harder than it should have to be.

That is an excellent point and I think that you're absolutely right. I apologize for my oversight and I promise that it was not intentional. Depression and suicide is such a complex issue and I wish that I knew exactly what to say to fix everything, but of course, I don't. Also, I cannot possibly understand what someone is going through when they're in that situation. I do know that I have a couple friends who've been there and they're doing much better now than they were. I will address that aspect right here right now. What would I say to those people? Hmmm..

"Open up to people. Don't do this alone, because there are people who want to help you. I have noooo idea what you're going through but I'll listen if you want to talk. I can't possible understand how hard this is but I do firmly believe that fighting this and beating it will be the best thing you ever do. And I'm always here for you." 

Here's some advice from people who actually know what they're talking about:

"It gets better, as much as I know it doesn't seem like it and it feels like it never will, I promise it will. Many people said that to me but when you're in that dark place it's so hard to understand! I never thought I would even make it to grade 11, let alone graduate high school. And look at me now! I'm moving away and feeling unstoppable! It will get better. You have to go through the worst before you can get to the best. You need to try your hardest to become a fighter, even though it seems like there's nothing worth fighting for, I promise there is!!!!" - Lauren

"The first thing I think is for you to be open to your family that you are battling the illness. I went through all of grade 12 without telling a soul and I deeply regret it. After telling my family the fight was much easier I found. The thing with depression is that you essentially feel conpletely alone. I thought no one felt the way I did. So once you've found the right people to trust and you realize you have a support system, your perspective can begin to change. As it turned out, I met someone, who became my best friend, who had a similar story to mine. Finding someone who feels the way you do can work miracles. 

Don't get me wrong I was terrified to tell anyone. It was only when I began to seriously contemplate ending my life that I realized I needed help. I don't want anyone to get to that point. It's scary, and I want people to feel they can be open about their thoughts and feelings much sooner than I had. So in saying that if you have any suicidal thoughts or are hurting yourself, it may be more important to seek professional help ASAP. For me, It's still a fight each and every day but I'm not in danger anymore. 

There are many blogs and chat rooms online for people battling depression. You can anonymously share your story or read those of others and can seek coping help. It helps to see that you aren't alone!

The biggest thing is to lean people do love you and care about you. Each person can find their own reason to get out of bed in the morning, it just takes some time!" - Bethany

These are two amazing young women who have been in school with me since kindergarten and now they're going off to fashion design school and doing science degrees and becoming astronauts and stuff! They're incredible, and I love them both. They both told me that they're open to talking with anyone who needs to talk, and they're more than willing to share their story. 

Again, I apologize for neglecting to address that side of the issue. Bottom line, I want everyone to keep living, and I firmly believe beyond a shadow of a doubt that suicide is most definitely not the answer, and depression IS beatable. 

Thank you for bringing this to my attention :)Peace and love! (so much love)-Katherine 

GOOD MORNING to the guy in my stake conference that told us that, if we experience or witness racism on campus, we should feel free to use the "laying on of hands" to combat it.

"Punching racists is morally acceptable and spiritually strengthening" was not the message I was expecting to hear this morning but gosh dang, am I excited to hear it

Lost Generation

like basically. if you’re not religious how do you deal with being alive. and if you are religious how do you not let the terror of that consume you. really makes u think

What are your thoughts on casual drinking?

Funnily enough, I was talking to someone about this today! 

Okay so I have this theory that God tells us not to do stuff to protect us. I know I’m so brilliant, right? lol :P But I mean, he tells us not to get drunk (See Ephesians 5:18, Galatians 5:21, 1 Corinthians 6:10, and 1 Peter 5:8) and not to gamble, and to avoid sexual promiscuity. Now all of these things have a fair amount of risk associated with them. When you’re drunk you can make some pretty stupid decisions and hurt people and probably regret a few things down the road. And also of course there’s the liver damage. Gambling can lead to addictions which can destroy your finances, your family and your life. And sexual promiscuity can lead to unwanted pregnancies, STDs and a whole bunch of emotional crap that I mentioned here. So this theory is that everything God tells us not to do is for a good reason and we’re probably better off without it anyway! 

So basically, if God says not to do something, I trust that he knows what he’s talking about, and I figure that’s a good enough reason for me not to do it. By this logic, I choose not to get drunk. That being said, I see no problem with casual drinking. It’s all a personal decision anyway! I choose not to get drunk, but I always try a sip of my friends’ beers (it ALWAYS tastes disgusting) and I took a shot for my friend’s 19th birthday, but I’ve never consumed enough alcohol for it to have the slightest effect on me. Lots of my friends drink, and I’ve seen my friends get drunk. I’m not gonna tell anyone what to do, and if you drink I don’t care, that’s your business! If you’re a Christian and you drink casually, I’m not judging you. If you’re genuinely wondering my opinion because you are trying to figure out where you stand I say choose for yourself, draw your line and know your limit. 

Hope this helped! :)

Peace and love! -Katherine

Don't be fooled by kids and their follies, you have wisdom beyond fear.

I don’t know where this came from but I like it!

10 Awesome Quotes from C.S. Lewis

“Though our feelings come and go, God’s love for us does not.”

“The Christian does not think God will love us because we are good, but that God will make us good because He loves us.”

“You don’t have a soul. You are a soul. You have a body.”

“I believe in Christianity as I believe that the sun has risen: not only because I see it, but because by it I see everything else.”

“Imagine yourself as a living house. God comes in to rebuild that house. At first, perhaps, you can understand what He is doing. He is getting the drains right and stopping the leaks in the roof and so on; you knew that those jobs needed doing and so you are not surprised. But presently He starts knocking the house about in a way that hurts abominably and does not seem to make any sense. What on earth is He up to? The explanation is that He is building quite a different house from the one you thought of - throwing out a new wing here, putting on an extra floor there, running up towers, making courtyards. You thought you were being made into a decent little cottage: but He is building a palace. He intends to come and live in it Himself.”

“A man can no more diminish God’s glory by refusing to worship Him than a lunatic can put out the sun by scribbling the word ‘darkness’ on the walls of his cell.”

“To be a Christian means to forgive the inexcusable because God has forgiven the inexcusable in you.”

“God can’t give us peace and happiness apart from Himself because there is no such thing.”

“Pain insists upon being attended to. God whispers to us in our pleasures, speaks in our consciences, but shouts in our pains. It is his megaphone to rouse a deaf world.”

“I didn’t go to religion to make me happy. I always knew a bottle of Port would do that. If you want a religion to make you feel really comfortable, I certainly don’t recommend Christianity.”

Katherine's Favourite Things - Favourite Musical Artist

Okay, you probably wont ever catch me posting about music every again because my tastes are pretty eclectic, and I don’t have a very extensive knowledge of music, but this one time, I really really really wanna write about music.

 My favourite artist is Macklemore. This is unabashedly, unashamedly, a Macklemore appreciation post. And I know that if I’m a Christian I suppose my favourite artist should be like Tenth Avenue North or something (don’t get me wrong – I love Tenth Avenue North, and Sidewalk Prophets, and Bluetree, and Mikeschair and all of those fantastic people) but it’s Macklemore. Furthermore, at least four of the people in my life who are the closest to me have expressed concern at my recent obsession with the poor guy.

 Hear me out.

 Reason #1 why I love Macklemore: He is independently produced.

And the fact that he always has been, and chooses to remain, independently produced and the reasons he does so, tells you a lot about him. Take a look at some of his lyrics…

 “I’d rather be a starving artist than succeed at getting f***ed.” – Jimmy Iovine, Macklemore

 “Not gonna lie, that s*** sounds so nice, but I got creative control and my soul’s mine.” – Victory Lap, Macklemore

 “If I’d done it for the money I’da been a f***ing lawyer.” – Make the Money, Macklemore

 “I was put here to do something before I’m lying in the casket. I’d be lying on the beat if I said I didn’t know what that was.” – Vipassana, Macklemore

 “I make a living off my words and do what I love for work.” – Ten Thousand Hours, Macklemore

 “If I’m not making music, why the f*** am I existing?” – Inhale Deep, Macklemore

 “People fear that if they’re steering away from the mainstream then their album won’t sell. Well I could give a f***. I’m just gonna freestyle and spit what’s in my gut.” – I Said Hey, Macklemore

 Please note, four out of seven of those quotes were taken from songs that were written after he actually became successful. As you can see from his writing, he’s independently produced because this is not about the money for him. He makes music because it’s who he is and what he was made for, and because it’s the only way he knows to express himself. He was actually offered a record deal and turned it down because he prefers to write what he wants instead of what will sell. Admittedly, he has said “I’m not dissin anyone who’s trying to get paid; I’m trying to get paid too.” (BBoy) and “I’ll be honest, I’m tryna become famous.” (Ego) and that’s perfectly understandable and acceptable, but he does it on his own terms, and that deserves mad props.

 Reason #2 why I love Macklemore: He is conscious of the responsibility associated with his platform as a rapper.

Anybody making music for the general public could be called a “role model”. I’ve heard the arguments that it’s not their job to raise your kids and that they never asked to be a role model, and honestly, I call bulls***. Whether you like it or not, the minute you picked up that microphone, stepped into that recording booth or onto that stage, you made yourself a role model. Kids are listening to your lyrics and those words are infiltrating their psyche and shaping their worldview and you better own up to the responsibility that comes with that. It’s up to you what you do with it, but be aware of it.

 And Macklemore gets it. And he uses his power for good and not evil!

 “And if you want to you can go and label me cautious, but remember there’s a kid at a bus stop beat boxing whose life will be affected by what’s inside of his Walkman.” – I Said Hey, Macklemore

 “Us as rappers underestimate the power and the effect that we have on these kids.” – Otherside, Macklemore

 “How can I talk about the problems of someone else when I don’t have the motivation or confidence to change myself?” – Inhale Deep, Macklemore

 “Not to say that I’m a role model, but I know these words are power.” – Contradiction, Macklemore

 “Am I building the empire up or using my fire to burn it down?” – Contradiction, Macklemore

 That last quote there is probably one of my favourites ever of all his lyrics, because it demonstrates his entire philosophy towards making music, and I find it extremely gratifying to know that he is aware of the power in his lyrics and that he’s consciously trying to write things that are productive and edifying and positive.

 Reason #3 why I love Macklemore: He addresses the duality of Caucasian culture.

My mom calls me a reverse racist, because instead of thinking my race is superior to all others, I think that mine is inferior to all others. She’s technically right, but I would like to tell you that that’s not entirely accurate. Okay, from an esthetic point of view, I have to say that white is my personal least favourite. That’s not the point. The point is that I’m kind of uncomfortable being on the privileged side of injustice. You know? My skin colour has such a history of hate and judgment and inhumanity associated with it. My skin colour still gets treated better. And I don’t understand it and I don’t think it’s fair and I don’t know how to deal with that so it manifests itself in this subconscious desire to not be white.

 And I like to think that Macklemore knows what I’m talking about. He wrote an entire song called “White Privilege”, specifically about the “cultural appropriation” of hip hop music by white people, and in that song, he said that we’re “so scared to acknowledge the benefits of our white privilege.” In the song “A Wake”, he says “white privilege, white guilt, at the same d*** time.” I’ve probably never heard a lyric more accurate in describing my feelings towards my pigment.

 Here’s the extended quote:

 “And my subconcious telling me stop it

This is an issue that you shouldn't get involved in

Don't even tweet, R.I.P Trayvon Martin

Don't wanna be that white dude, million man marchin'

Fighting for a freedom that my people stole

Don't wanna make all my white fans uncomfortable

But you don't even have a f***in' song for radio

Why you out here talkin race, tryin' to save the f***in' globe

Don't get involved with the causes in mind

White privilege, white guilt, at the same d*** time

So we just party like it's nineteen ninety nine

Celebrate the ignorance while these kids keep dying”

 Snap.

 Reason #4 why I love Macklemore: His transparency.

In the song “Can’t Hold Us”, he says “I shed my skin and put my bones into everything I record” and that’s a pretty good way to describe it. He’s completely genuine in all his writing.

 “A lifelong passion, journey and drive; an emcee. People ask me what it means/I don’t know where to start – it’s the deepest connection between my soul and my heart”

…

“This s*** ain’t complicated man just be who you are.”

…

“Now who’s got the passion? Stand the h*** up! Cause I wanna hear somebody rappin who’s got it inside their cuts. Or you can get intricate displayin your fancy cadences, but if you’re not speakin truth you might as well not be saying s***.”

…

“If I don’t speak me, what’s the difference between my lyrics and what you hearin on MTV?”

-I Said Hey, Macklemore

 “Whatever happened to the heart that pumped the passion into the art?”

…

“If you gotta think to feel, that’s not rapping that’s acting.”

…

“In the end what’s classic? Radio bubble-gum or a voice filled with passion?”

-BBoy, Macklemore

 “I use my veins to create the colour I paint from. Delve into something til my heart becomes my paintbrush.” 

…

“I stare into this paper instead of sitting in a cubicle/take all the ugly s*** inside and try to make it beautiful/use the cement from rock bottom and make it musicle/so people can relate to where I’ve been, where I’m going, what I’ve seen, what I’ve heard.”

-Vipassana, Macklemore

 “Now for artists and musicians you see the target’s to listen to the heart and then script it with no margin or limits. To make the pain, strengths, sunrays a part of the picture and convey it in every shade and take it farther and vivid.” – As Soon As I Wake Up, Macklemore

 To me, this demonstrates a respect for the art form and his true passion as an artist. You will never find a song on one of his albums that doesn’t draw either from his own experiences or his own convictions. He’s adamant about the dangers of talking about things in your music that you haven’t lived yourself. And now I know a lot about him and his life just by listening to his lyrics and what I see through those words inspires respect and admiration.

 Reason #5 why I love Macklemore: His humility.

I have mad respect for people who strive to remain humble, especially when they’re routinely performing for thousands and thousands of screaming fans. He wrote an entire song (“Ego”) about the ego associated with hip-hop culture, and the evidence of that same ego inside of himself, and the struggle to conquer the ego.

 “Put those gloves on, sparring with my ego.” – Ten Thousand Hours, Macklemore

 “I got my city right behind me. If I fall, they got me. Learn from that failure, gain humility, and then we keep marching.” – Can’t Hold Us, Macklemore

 “I’m just a flawed man, man I f***ed up. Like so many others I just never thought I would.” – Starting Over, Macklemore

 In case you didn’t know, Macklemore used to be a drug addict and an alcoholic and went to rehab and got clean and was clean for 3+ years and then relapsed. The song Starting Over is about his relapse. It’d break your heart. The first time I heard it, I kinda just wanted to give him a hug. Some of the lyrics:

 “Everyone that put me in some box as a saint that I never was, just a false prophet that never came.”

 “Will they think that everything that I’ve written has all been fake or will I just take my slip to the grave?”

 “I’d rather live telling the truth and be judged for my mistakes than falsely held up, given props, loved and praised.”

 “God wrote Otherside, the pen was in my hand. I’m just a flawed man, man I f***ed up. Like so many others I just never thought I would. I never thought I would. Didn’t pick up the book, but doing it by myself didn’t turn out that good.”

 “If I can be an example of getting sober, then I can be an example of starting over.”

 It takes great strength and vulnerability to be so open about your failings, your mistakes and your struggles to millions of strangers. He doesn’t mind being imperfect, even in his position as a popular musical artist. That humility will keep him grounded, and it will protect him from the pressure in his culture of music and media. There will never be a scandal about him because he’d probably be the first one to admit his mistake to his fans, in a song. That integrity is rare and valuable.

 Reason #6 why I love Macklemore: His commitment to his fiancée.

They’re engaged after seven years of dating. ‘Nuff said.

 Actually, not enough said. Let’s talk about this girl – Tricia Davis – shall we? This chick is phenomenal. I can’t imagine it’s easy sticking with someone through addiction, rehab and relapse. And she’s been with him since his humble beginnings all through his rise to fame. The way he talks about her in songs like Love Song and The End is truly touching and so an extension of my respect for Macklemore is my respect for his fiancée.

 Reason #7 why I love Macklemore: He uses his struggles to help other people.

Okay, so he screwed up. We all do. The truly amazing thing is that he’s completely turned his life around and is using his past mistakes for good. He’s very open about his battle with addiction in his music and the song Otherside has reached thousands of people who either struggle themselves or know someone who struggle with addiction. He’s a shining beacon of hope for everyone who is trying to quit or kick the habit. How many of us can say that we can take our failures and turn them into something positive? That’s just his attitude towards life – keep marching, keep looking forward, and use everything that’s behind you to propel you onward. Incredible.

 Reason #8 why I love Macklemore: the sheer quality content of his songs and the fact that he tackles tough issues head-on.

This is the reason I’ve always loved rap more than any other genre. Because I am a very words oriented person, I appreciated the songs with a story and with profound messages than the fluffy worship songs that were just the same three lines over and over again. It’s just me – a well-constructed sentence, not a pretty tune, tugs on my heartstrings. So when I discovered (very late in his career, I am ashamed to admit) this rapper on pop radio, I was astounded and impressed that the same guy who had a song on the top hits with Ryan Seacrest, was rapping about these topics:

Homelessness (see “City Don’t Sleep”)

Racism (See “A Wake”, “Claiming This City”, and “White Privilege”)

Homophobia (See “Same Love”)

Consumerism (See “Make the Money” and “Jimmy Iovine”)

Materialism (See “Wing$”)

The justice system – specifically juvenile incarceration (See “Soldiers)

Politics – through satire (See “Bush Song” and “American”)

Religion (See “Church” and “Neon Cathedral”)

Drugs (See “Vipassana”, “Inhale Deep”, “Otherside” and “Starting Over”)

 Like, are we not gonna talk about this? I’m so proud of him because someone who actually talks about stuff that matters made it to number one on iTunes! He’s the type of artist who makes you want to go right out and change the world. So I’ll leave you with one final quote of his:

 “You wanna see change? Then put your ones in the air. Then point em to yourself cause change starts right there.” – City Don’t Sleep, Macklemore.

 And he lives it.

 Sooooo….in conclusion: dear friends and family, I think the question here is not “why do I love Macklemore so much?”, it’s “Why don’t you??”

 Who’s your favourite band/musical artist?

Who, me?

I would just like to throw it out there that if God can use me, God can use ANYONE. My friend once said something to me to the effect of “I wish I could be like you. You’re so amazing and spiritual and wise.” HA! We were texting, so to that I replied “L.O. - freaking - L.” And I told her exactly what I’m about to tell you…in less than 140 characters. You get the extended version.

My friend looks up to me, but she doesn’t see the insecurity, the fear, the lack of discipline, the pride, and all the GUNK that messes up the inside of my heart. She reminded me of an instance where I was giving her advice and she said that I said the exact right thing. I remember that particular moment very well. It was the moment where I was sitting there praying silently, “God, I have no idea what I’m doing, I’m way out of my league here, I really need your help! Give me the right words to say!” And He DID!

Not because I was worthy, but because I was willing.

See, we don’t have to have it all together before God can use us. We don’t have to be mature and confident and eloquent and spiritual and have great faith and know everything to be used by God. In fact, if we were able to minister to people on our own, what would the point even be? If we could witness to people all on our own power, what would we be witnessing about? There’s a verse in the bible that says “I will boast in my weakness because in my weakness, God’s strength is revealed.” Paul wrote it. And that’s the whole point. We can’t do this on our own and that’s the beautiful part where God’s holiness fills in all the gaps in us. In Him, we are whole.

So it’s not up to us to “convince” anybody of anything. Truth is truth, and we are called just to give it all to God and let Him flow through us. We need merely be the mouthpiece, and He will do all the work on their hearts, through His Holy Spirit. Doesn’t that take the pressure off? One pastor once said “I couldn’t save a blade of grass.” And it’s true, we can’t save anybody, God does that.

So my whole point is that no matter who you are and how bad you think you are, God CAN and WILL use you, if you’re willing.

A great resource I drew upon as part of my inspiration for this post was the message of pastor Brad Noel at a youth conference in 2010. He called his message “Lessons in FAITH from Doubters, Wimps, Jellyfish, Murderers and Whiners.” Here are some examples of Bible “Heroes” he gave who did great things for God, and definitely didn’t have it all together! Gideon was afraid and insecure. Elijah didn’t think he was spiritual enough. Peter denied Jesus in a moment of panic. King David was an adulterer and a murderer. John the Baptist felt that he couldn’t hear God’s call anymore.

As most of us probably know, these guys are prominent heroes and role models of the Bible. Gideon was always portrayed to me as a great warrior and leader. Elijah performed more miracles than any other prophet in the Old Testament. Peter founded the first early church with his oration skills. David was called “a man after God’s own heart”. John the Baptist seems like the ultimate example of selflessness and humility in his fervent witnessing. And yet, these guys weren’t superheroes! They were normal people, like you and me.

Finally, I can testify that if you ask God to give you the right words, whether you realise it or not, He will. You would be surprised how He uses the randomest stuff you say. Or do. I weep at the realisation that my words have actually made an impact on people. Because I know that it’s all God using me. And it’s so humbling. I can’t believe that God would use me, as messed up and undeserving as I am. I mean, I can’t even handle my own mortal life, let alone my own eternal life, and DEFINITELY not someone else’s eternal life! I need Jesus, and astoundingly, He doesn’t need me, but He wants me! And He actually sees me as something lovely, and something useful! I am so honoured that I am usable to God.

And like I said, if God will use me, He will definitely use you. The world sees your physical qualifications, but His eyes roam the earth, searching for a devoted heart. Faith the size of a mustard seed can move mountains. Have enough faith to stop trying on your own and give it all the God, and watch the mountains move as the Holy Spirit flows through you.

Self Respect and Slut Shaming Another one of my rants, because you know I can't resist giving my opinion on a sensitive topic. This one is on video! Yay! *Pixelated some stuff because I'm conservative **Song in the background is Revo by Walk Off The Earth