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I love him and this is not the scary part. He doesn’t love me and even this isn’t the scary part. The scary part is that I won’t be able to love anyone else like I love him

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If only it could be so easy

Truthfully.. I dont feel love for you in my heart anymore. Not in the same way. It makes me so sad. I mourn the death of my happiness. I buried it alive and smothered it to death in graveyard dirt. But... I dont want to love you anymore. You were too much of a pain to my soul. It wasn’t meant to be. I was merely clinging to fallout. You were my whole world, but the planet that was us is gone and now im floating aimlessly through space without a meaning to my life anymore. Maybe I will find a new planet.... maybe I’ll be hit by a comet. We’ll just have to see I guess.

Me: multiple chronic illnesses with a wide span of symptoms.

Abled Person: have you tried yoga?

AP: gluten free?

AP: therapy? mindfulness?

AP: exercise?

AP: very expensive trial treatments?

Me: yes, none of it works.

…

AP: well I guess you just don’t WANT to get better then.

Broken Hearts Club

brainfog rituals

Entering a Room Meditation

1. enter room

2. press hands together

3. lift fingertips to lips

4. exhale

5. close eyes

6. pause

7. what the fuck am I doing here

Maybe if we went inside

Chronic Illness flare clinics need to be a thing.

They need to have holistic chronic illness clinics. You can go to them while you’re in a flare. They have low sensory rooms with soft beds and low light tv’s. Have doctors to administer flare reducing meds/pain meds, but also have holistic professionals like massage therapists, acupuncturist, mindfulness workers, physical therapists, chiropractors etc etc.

Basically so that you’re entire body and mind can heal because the reality of this is mind and body health need to be aligned.

This is especially necessary because going to an ER for a flare can be so terrible and increase the intensity of the flare. It’s so bright and you have to wait for hours to be seen by doctors who let’s be honest don’t specialize in chronic illness, and are trying to jam in as many patients as they can because of being over capacity.

This is what healthcare would look like if it was designed by the sick.