Latest Posts by dysfunctjon - Page 2

I miss my mom so much I can’t stop bawling my fucking eyes out

“I’m sorry, my baby, for letting you down on so many occasions”

“I only wished I had more time with you, and that I not wasted so much of the time I did have”

“I hope and pray I see you soon, my baby, like I always do”

I’m so fucking sad man why do I have to be like this I can’t take it

Everyone who considers themself a friend of mine is lying to themselves and staying to not take the guilt of me blowing my head off

I genuinely am such a fucking loser

I am so fucking worthless when will this end

I am so ugly and incapable of everything and I need to kill myself

Please god fucking help me

I’m legitimately going crazy and I feel like I’m out of control. I need friends. I need a life. I need to get better. My borderline and OCD control everything. I can’t go days without wanting to be off the face of the earth. I am legitimately so close to just ending it. I want to be better and I know how to be better but it feels everything that is thrown at me is meant to tear me down and to discourage me and keep me in one place. I can’t stand being like this anymore. I need help. I need a fucking life. I’m safe right now but the thoughts are still there and all it does is keep me in my bed and completely empty inside knowing that it would all be better if I just went away.

Please let me be free

Everything just hurts

I hate being schizophrenic because I was straight up so paranoid I was pregnant and it added onto my breakdown yesterday I beat the fuck out of my uterus and now I’m cramping and I don’t know if I work right down there anymore

I don’t have anybody left I am going to die alone

I’m going to beat myself until I fuck myself up and piss blood

I have lost the only person who actually cares Color me shocked that’s what happens when you are a disgusting fucking abuser😂😂😂😂😂I have the audacity to bitch and moan when all I do is ruin people’s lives Jesus Christ no wonder my own parents don’t even lvoe me

Why have I been in sk many near death situations and haven’t gone away yet why do I have to do it why can’t I just be taken out god praying for death DOESNT work and it’s obvious Everytime I try I fail I can’t take it god please whoever is up there get me out of here I don’t care if it’s Heaven or hell I deserve to rot in hell I’m disgusting oh my god I’m going to die alone even in the afterlife L.O.L😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂I am miserable and venting about it like this makes me feel even more selfish

I am going to kill myself

I actually have not been this freaked out in forever I broke my self harm streak my stomach is swollen from how hard I beat myself everything hurts I just can’t do it anymore

It's all my fault I've ruined my own life and now I have to deal with it and instead of taking accountability like a man I'm threatening suicide like a pussy and this is why I don't deserve to live and why I should be killed I am actually so evil I’m not kind I’m not nice I’m not thoughtful I am actually genuinely so evil

I will encourage people to bully me into suicide I don’t want people to feel bad I want everyone to be happy that such a scum on earth cannot hurt anyone anymore or annoy anybody or burden them with things that are not important and extremely insecure and self deprecating

When I die nobody will be at my funeral

I am legitimately thinking about going on Tiktok or any social and encouraging them to genuinely be mean I will give them fuel I will tell them I’m autistic and transgender and was raped as a kid and sexually assaulted throughout my life and that I have no friends or ambitions and that I have family issues and then will encourage them to bully me into suicide and ill get more mean comments than nice ones because I’ll be seen as corny and attention seeking so no matter what I’m getting hate that will ruin my mental and finally drag me to do it

THATMOMENT WHEN YOU ARE THE ENTIRE REASON YOUR BEST FRIEND IS NOT YOUR BEST FRIEND ANTMORE AND YOU FINALLY REALIZE YOU REALLY HAVE FUCKED UP YOUR LIFE BEUOND REPAIR AND YOU WILL ACTUALLY DIE ALONE THAT MOMENT WHEN YOU WILL NEVER BE RELATED IR LOVED EVER AGAIN OH MY GOD IM GOING TO BLEED OUT I HOPE MY BOYFRIEND CATCHES ME

My life is over

RHAT MOMENT WHEN YOUR BEST FRIEND FOR LIFE IS NOW NOT YOUR BEST FRIEND ANYMORE AND WILL VERY SHORTLY MOVE ON WITHOUT YOU IN THEIR LIFE😂😂😂😂😂😂😂

Kinda sucks that when I follow ppl on here it redirects them to this blog where it shows the most disgusting and emotionally rawest parts of myself lol that totally won’t get me judged and Not accepted from other people who claim to be mentally ill Lol Jesus Fucking Christ can I just get killed already

Lol can you fucking imagine Look at this stupid bullshit I am such a fucking faker Jesus Christ No wonder people pump and fucking dump me I’m not worth anything besides sex and to be abused Jesus Christ No Fucking Wonder people sexually assault me then Leave me I fucking deserve it Lol I’m suchafucking idiot I am So fucking Stipid I am worthless not even my own boyfriendlikes me😭😂😂bi am so ugly Jesus Christ I am so fucking ugly inside and out I need to get killed

I’m grateful for my screenshots of so many new music recommendations to listen to in my phone! I’m grateful that because it’s a holiday my mom let me have two tiny shots of fireball! I’m grateful that I get to wake up early in the morning to watch my favorite cartoon before bed as if im a child despite being 18! I am so grateful to re-try a drink I once loved, don’t appreciate anymore, then take a sip of my favorite drink to remind me again why it’s my favorite! I am grateful for my five senses to be able to view the world!

I’m grateful for being alive even though there are days where I am blinded by my traumatizing experiences. I love my life and I love myself. I am growing up and that is amazing! Everything will be okay. Everything will be so very okay.

I’m going to account to nothing my prime is up now I’m the ugliest fucking tranny in the entire world not even my own family or boyfriend or best friends see me as a male they’re just pretending Lol I can’t even blame them who fucking looks at me and says I’m a male I’m actually a fucking traumatized raped girl who’s sexual assault made them Fucking trans Oh my fod Lol I’m such a fucking stupid retard I Actually need to kill myself no wonder I was a fucking accident if I wasn’t an accident then my life wouldn’t be going this way but if fucking course God needed a FUCKINGN Jester Clown to laugh at and mock I am worse than fucking Lucifer I am Lucifer I am the fallen Angel from Heaven and that’s why God is being so fucking cruel to me I am Satan and I am getting ounishedplease god rip him out of me I don’t want to be the Devil anymore I want to be okay again and happy butiruin everything I swear Please God Jesus Or whoever If you’re listening please fucking kill me Please kill me I will pray I will worship I will go to church Wednesday and Sunday and Every OTHER FUCKING DAY oh my fod I’ll give up everything if it means Lucifer can get out of my body or if you just fucking Kill me Olease god I’m directly talking to you please listen to me please stop doing this I’m not strong I’m not a soldier I am a fucking weakling Human please stop doing this to me please it hurtsosb ad I will literally give up everything if it means that I can not be this way anymore please just fucking stop or kill me please Fucking Kill me or stop . Imso fucking sick of being like this please kill me. Please fucking kill me please just find a way to kill me I don’t want to do it myself I don’t want to hurt other people but since I already fucking do I might as well have everyone in this fucking house hear the gun go off and hear my bloodpainthee walls oh my god Olease just stop this I can’t be like this anymore I just want to be fucking Normal I want to be Hapoy I want to be aokay again I don’t want to be a fucking depressed worthless sack of shit oh my god please fucking kill me god kill me god fucking kill me god please god please Jesus fucking Kill me

Please fucking Kill memplease fucking Kill me I can’t take living like this anymore I’m shaky my heart hurts my ear is fucked up im sweating I feel nauseous fucking Kill me please make me have a fucking heart attack right now and kill me please fucking Kill me I want to scream it from my lungs oleasefucking kill me please god F stop fucking soiingthis go me please kill me

I’m fucking retarded and depending on anonymous tumblr anons to reassure me not to blow my fucking head off lol I am so pathetic I actually need to overdose so fucking bad when I get medicated bupropion I’m giving myself brain damage and serotonin Syndrom and seizing out in public while I get recorded and published on a stupid gore website with the title saying “WORTHLESS RETARD TRANNY OVERDOSES BECAUSE OF COURSE IT NEEDS MEDS!!!!” Oh my fucking Godlol I’m nothing I deserve to be fucking killed and splat on the pavement im so sick of this shit I literally think I cannot be more pathetic than I already am Then I pull some of the lowest shit ever and it’s like Jesus fucking Christ. Even all the notably bad people can’t compare to how fucking filthy and rotten and disgusting I am I need to slit my wrists and bleed out in a field in the middle of Nowhere lol I want to give people my location so they can take me the fuck Out if any of you legitimately want to hire a hit man to take me out I will give you money and my address and fucking everuthing just kill me holy shit just fucking kill me

I’m fucking devastated nothing will be okay I’ll never be okay I am going to fucking end my life