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When your mums having a mental breakdown and you don't know how to help so you start stress cleaning>>>>

Vent post (aka part of my dark backstory) lol

Tw: sexual abuse, physical abuse, emotional abuse, manipulation, self harm, rape, suicide attempts, sucide encouragement/baiting, incest, trans inclusive radical feminist mindset, emotional manipulation, transphobia, fatshaming (Also Anything along those lines)

My step father: he emotionally & verbally abused me. He would also often grope me while I was 9 - 10 years old but the worst didn't happen to me. It happened to my mother and sister but I was still there to witness it all.

I couldn't take it anymore. At 9 years old i made a plan for sucide and failed. So I made another plan in my diray and wrote a sucide note about how everything my step father did was effecting me which my mother found and ended up showing my step father who didn't give two shits. That was what finally got my mum to stand up to him and kick him out.

My bio father: abused me physically (but did it less the older I got) and emotionally abused me. At 6 years old I was raped by my own father, nothing was the same after that. I started gaining weight, I became withdrawn among people my own age and only really talked to adults. I would overeat when stressed and would later get fatshamed for it so much I now struggle to eat twice a day. (My mother was not aware of most of this they had been divorced since I was 2) my father encouraged my sucide attempt and my self harm. I ended up attempting suicide 7 seapreate times. He made sure i felt too guilty to ever tell my mother.

Because of these experiences i distanced myself away from any males, and hyperfemnisted myself. Because masculinity was evil and like all the father figures i ever had, and feminity was my mother, my friends and everyone who made me feel safe.

So unfortunately I ended up down the trans inclusive radical feminist mindset, to specify I included trans women & nonbinary people in radfem mindset but not transmasc people.

I thought trans man were superior to man for their female experiences and feminised them. They were not included in my kill all men mindset and I believed they were nonbinary people in denial. (Which wtf younger me???)

This of course was not good for me. I eventually realised how wrong my mindset was after I had a really caring male English teacher who cared deeply about my well-being, got me a counsellor and helped me heal a lot.

I however made no effort to change this mindset until a few years later. I still have a long way to go towards healing my relationship with masculinity. And i generally sympathise with a fem person quicker than with a masc one still but I'll get there.

I need to make a fic based on this holy shit

youtuber atsushi who rants about his shit life and other such strange happenings and everyone (not from yokohama) thinks he's just shitposting / making stories

atsushi.n: (new upload): RANKING: my coworkers most used suicide attempts - least troublesome to most troublesome

comments:

someguy: lmao this kid's so fucking funny

someotherguy: suicide is not a joke!!

someguy3: there's no way that coworker is real askdfja

someotherguy4: is this part of like a comic or manga ?? it's really interesting!!

someguybutfromyokohama: ah is this about the detective from the ada???

'Trans men are not wrong for that at all'

Transphobia check! Type "trans men are" and let your phone finish it for you

character type

Vague project plans lol

I do something similar except it's in the Wattpad commets-

“What do you do in your free time?”

“Oh…y’know…normal…..stuff” (I’m ‘Leigh’ in the comments in the pics btw)

Meanwhile what I do:

Hi names Eagan!

[He/him or if you're feeling silly they/them]

I'm just a trans masc teen trying to get though the living hell that is life

My girlfriend is on here too @purpleblobfrompluto !

My analysis of my most used playlist

Anyway feel free to send me an ask if you want!

This is my personal blog so all stuff on here will either be rebolgs with a comment from me or about my day to day basically

I'm usually funny, talk about issues, life or sometimes vent in Shakespearean

My other blogs: is in the post below I also run the @queer-questions-and-polls blog

Me and sir Leer wish you the best on your travels!

Go right ahead!

bring back tumblr ask culture let me. bother you with questions and statements

Did I sleep last night? No.

Did I watch 5 MCU movies instead? Maybe...