what happens when you lose a friend?
when he drops you without warning
stops talking to you, but tells everyone else how much he hates you
how annoying you are
and you didn't expect it
but maybe you did
you felt it coming in his exasperation
in the way he stopped texting back
in the way he laughed at everybody's jokes but yours
unexpected, but expected all the same
he did it to others, so why shouldn't it be your turn?
you tell yourself you're better off
and everybody else agrees
but you can't help but be a little sad, still
unexpected
like an anvil dropped onto my head
expected
i felt it in the way he sighed