15.4.19

Person A: “How good of a mood are you in right now?”

Person B: “…..What did you do?”

me at any random moment

My therapist: we need to talk about your childhood

My brain:

Friendly reminder that mental illness fucks with your head and that your thoughts and feelings are not facts. Feeling alone does not equal that you actually are alone. Feeling worthless does not equal that you’re actually worthless. Feeling unlovable does not equal that you’re actually unlovable. Feeling hopeless does not equal that there’s no hope. So please don’t treat the negative feelings and beliefs caused by your mental illness as facts. Question them. Challenge them. Remind yourself that not everything you think and feel actually corresponds with the facts of the situation.

16.4.19

ate. 1061

burnt. 503

didn't eat all the ice cream or chocolate bar had 2 bowls of cereal because im fatatatattatat

Me at my stomach:

Shut the fuck up

Them: you wont like yourself better just cause your skinny. Skinny isn't magic!

Me: but ive never tried so...

I want skinny

I'm going to take this month by the neck and get skinny

I have really been struggling lately so I'm going to kick start it with like tops 1000 calories then when I get that mastered ill go down to 900 for 2/3 days then keep going down until 500 and try keeping that up for as long as I can