That Hit Me Deep

Person: what’s your secret to weight loss?!

Me: i’m not sponsored or anything but I use ED™ at the low price of my life!

normal people: wow i only ate 1500 cals today how impressive i feel thin!!!

me: OH NO I JUST HAD 800 CALS IM SO FAT UGH IM SUCH A PIG WAIT I GOTTA DO JUMPING JACKS 

Don’t think about defeating your eating disorder. Think about spiteing it. Every single time you decide you are worth enough to eat, (or your body decides that in the form of a “binge”) your eating disorder takes a hit. You have essentially held the middle finger to the disorder. You drew tiny dicks over Ana and Mia’s stupid little meal plan diary of torture they had for you. You popped bubblegum into their stupid faces. You tied their shoes together and laughed as they fell. Every time you eat you spite them more and more. You are doing the lords work. In those moments, you hold the power over them. Recovery isn’t a grand game-of-thrones final battle, but a series of small victories that you wag over your disorders head. And you control your victory. So drag them sisters 👯

guess what

failed my diet BUT WHO CARES I'm starting to like get back into again but like skee yano anyway yeah yeeto I should get my act together

Reminder:

Eating is good

Three meals is not too much

It’s okay to eat “unhealthy” foods

You do not need to purge to feel better

Eating is healthy

You deserve to be healthy

Eating is good.

i need my space unless youre the right person then dont go anywhere

Do you ever panic because summer is coming up fast and you’re still a whale

I gave up on 'food blogging' so I'll just post these from now on

I'm starting a new diet surprise surprise hopefully I stick to this time the rules are:

>900 calories

no chocolate

no sweets

no fizzy drinks

work out 3 times a week at least

don't be in red

Burn off any unplanned food

drink alot of water

I've been eating like really weird so I'm making my calorie limit pretty high so I can get used to it I'll lower it every week if I succeed

this is my fuck you to tumblr for deactivating my account

Friendly reminder that mental illness fucks with your head and that your thoughts and feelings are not facts. Feeling alone does not equal that you actually are alone. Feeling worthless does not equal that you’re actually worthless. Feeling unlovable does not equal that you’re actually unlovable. Feeling hopeless does not equal that there’s no hope. So please don’t treat the negative feelings and beliefs caused by your mental illness as facts. Question them. Challenge them. Remind yourself that not everything you think and feel actually corresponds with the facts of the situation.