ellyus

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if you like K and angst, here's this

https://archiveofourown.org/works/65263936

if you like fluff and the dreampack, here's this

https://archiveofourown.org/works/65275942

you're very welcome

Will never ever everrr get over the boat scene in the dream thieves cause what do u mean there was so much hetero tension, with tits and male hornyness flying around that ronans only response is to laugh his head off??? Like for an uncomfortably long time?? Iconic kinda

my favorite hobby is obsessing over the characters/ships no one cares or rarely talks about. it isn’t a conscious decision, i don’t like it, and frankly it’s the worst “hobby” i could take up solely because of the little to none content i get, but someone has to do it. and i, along with the 7 other people in the fandom who are in the same boat, will do it.

holy shit

Work’s finally chilled out a bit!

POV: Nicky is taking pictures of the team arriving for another match 🤭

aaron has loved andrew as long as he's known he's existed. let me repeat. AARON HAS LOVED ANDREW AS LONG AS HE'S KNOWN HE'S EXISTED.

for K stans, let me introduce you to my K playlist ! (i swear it's a good one)

including kavinsky, rovinsky and the dreampack

i know i’m getting ahead of myself but i just got so excited for the dream thieves graphic novel… like the kavinsky dramaaa, him and ronan drinking and dreaming in the woods full of white mitsubishis, the blaring sun on the manmade lake, the gray man!!!!!!!! i’m curious how k will look, he’s not quite as clear in my mind as other characters are but i’m sure that his design will be as satisfying as the rest of them are so far :)

sometimes im normal then sometimes i think about how many teenagers die in trc and how gut renching eacho f their deaths are and like bro. it really shows how muc hthey love eachother and even just how much they care and how pure they are even when one of them is literally Not Human and stuff. like ive never read another series of books that is so l.ike this. even with Kavinsky's death Ronan is like oh my god oh moy god he just killed himself wtf wtf and he literally shouts "Get down!!" to K before the dragon literally gets him. and like Noahs death even tho noone but welk (blueurhggh) whitnessed the inital death they are all like extremely rattled and greve him still. and likeGansey dying oml oml gannnseeyyy dying and everyones reactions oml. theyre so human it hurts so fucking bad. and also ronans suicide attempt (i have thoughts on this ill make another post) and how gansey had been so fucking focused on him afterwards like he cares so fucking much. declan cares so much about him too he was so worried about ronan and i genuinely think its beyond his love of matthew. even when welk gets trampled they arent like "YAAAY villian dead :)" theyre like oh my god thats a dead guy thats a fucking dead guy they are so human i love them so much so much so much

i agree on everything

situationship so bad do i:

a.) call him slurs

b.) send his best friend a hog pic

c.) attempt to blow up his teenage brother

d.) all of the above and then kill myself

i miss noah czerny so much

my - flag is that

1. Seth deserved to live

2. Seth deserved to get better

3. Seth was getting better

4. Fuck Riko

5.

also reminding you that he can sing

*hits an extremely loud buzzer* aaron minyard has clinical depression

Okay but what lives rent free in my head is the literal connection between K and the devil in trc (or at least how i understood it)

I don't know do y'all remember the scene or made the connection like i did, but it was in the end of tdt, before the party and adam and persephone were fixing the leyline,

There was the repeated hurry mentioned, hurry hurry hurry but adam didn't know why, until there was a white mitsubishi- K's car (Adam wasn't sure was it K, but i think the gray man was elsewhere and that'd also be the time K went to kidnap matthew (it was K's car so the connection is to K))

right after was this:

Persephone turned over a card. The Devil.

All of a sudden, Adam was quite certain of why they were hurrying.

THE DEVIL im not crazy right? How i see it, (im gonna ignore how maggie made the easiest way out of this and gonna focus on other things) is that K's tarot is the devil, straight connection right?

it could also be a way of showing the blatant black and white of ronan and K, because K thinks that he's a god, but what and is he really the devil (yes i say), that'd for me to mean ronan was the god

after all, (im not religious nor catholic) but they think god as good (i hope or im rlly out of religion), and when it comes to dreaming ronan is the greywaren at the end, not a thief, he uses his power for good

K was made to be the bad person, but also from my perspective (+ now adding the religious one a bit), the devil isn't bad, it has a very different view of the world and whats right and whats wrong compared to god who has stricter limits or separating good and bad, black and white of each other (ying and yang shit), which is why the devil fits K so well, and god more or less ronan

(added, satan is an undername for the overall term of the devil (which might not be correct (im not sure (i think?))) but satan is often associated with fire and also is angel of Death / is seen as the fallen angel which once again, fits K)

it also might be that satan and the devil are two different, (i acc think this one is the more correct), satan could be "the god of evil" but not certainly the devil, (also lucifer is different than either of those, but satan and lucifer both under devil, (not the devil itself)) (please tell me if you know how satan, the devil and lucifer go because i do not know for sure)

my gallavich obsession is back, so get a sketch of the gays

The hill I'm willing to die on is that Evan Rosier wouldn't listen to Arctic Monkeys or the Smiths. He would be a die hard Nightwish fan.

oh my gawd paperbacks are here

Kdp has approved the paperbacks.

It has been a bit of a mess, starting with not having access to the right PC for the full cover (Amazon requires back spine front be a single img, and psp5 is still only on the older pc), then to the usual distress over margins that requires ordering proofs after every tweak & waiting on delivery, then to the final book getting locked in a box I don't have a key to for four days. All that to say, sorry for the wait. ☠️☠️ My goal with tsc3/#6 is to ensure ebook & print release same day.

That being said, I am heading out for the year unless disaater strikes. Be safe, lovies.

as a finnish person, this is like a warm hug for my soul

The hill I'm willing to die on is that Evan Rosier wouldn't listen to Arctic Monkeys or the Smiths. He would be a die hard Nightwish fan.

happy countdown hitting 0, neil tortured in a car by lola on his way to his father's basement day 🥳

(x)

@f0x-meets-w0lf has me thinking about skov again so heres this

wrt print versions of tgr, am trying to get them put together asap, I just haven't really had access to my computer or files since the 22nd, which is.. Fun. but now am fully out of the prev place, so I should have some breathing room these next couple days.

friendly reminder that according to the ec, aaron was already in wymack's radar before he found out about andrew. he had been watching aaron's stats (he was a top ten backliner. top. ten) for four years (four) before he was even aware of the other twin

only the girlies on tumbler understand my deep personal connection with joseph kavisnky

fourth of july fall out boy is rovinsky and fourth of july by sufjan stevens is adansey thank you for coming to my tedtalk

i got the idea in my head that eventually skov gets a tattoo of dragon wings to memorialize kavinksy (because apparently getting k's ouroburos tattoo wasn't enough) - so i decided to make a quick drawing about it

i have a problem BECAUSE HEARTBREAK HIGH X THE RAVEN CYCLE CROSSOVERS ARE MAKING ME GO FUCKING CRAZY AND I HAVE NO ONE TO TALK TO ABOUT THIS (this shit is full of shit and long, but hmo)

I am talking about Cash & Chook = Ronan & Kavinsky parallels, you see

Chook & Kavinsky are pretty obvious, i think. Both are from fucked up families, we can assume both are from families with drug problems and overall substance abuse. They both were kids whose fate was pretty much laid infront of them to follow.

Ronan and Ca$h, also pretty fucked up families, parents gone, not many people from family to lean on, choosing found families, choosing to get better. (word of the day) Also both, are connected to self harming in a way or another.

We also have the scene in HBH where Woodsy calls Chook by his real name (Michael Cooper) and Chook shouts

"That's not my name!"

I am aware this is very subtle and on the border of overanalyzing (and might just be the characters whose pov Kavinsky was told from) but not a single character in trc has called Kavinsky only by his first name (hear me out now)

Later on when Chook and Cash are stuck in the middle of the lake we get to know how Ca$h got his name, Chook saying that he gave Ca$h his name. So I can only assume Chook also gave himself a name. Maybe to be separated as a person from the person he was before.

How we get to Kavinsky is that maybe Kavinsky is all the same, separating his own persona from him by only using his family name.

Getting to other parallels, (now remember Ronan = Cash)

We don't know shit about details (whats that? never heard?) but we can assume.

Chook was the one who helped Ca$h before Nan was in the picture, gave Ca$h a name, a place, a family (more or less), a place to belong

Kavinsky offered all the same, obviously we know that there was some sexual attraction and tension and just Kavinsky pining. But Kavinsky asked Ronan to be one of his, offered Ronan a place to belong, where Ronan could shamelessly be himself. Kavinsky saw all of Ronan what Gansey didn't want to know and acknowledge, that Ronan could be the same as Kavinsky and is the same as Kavinsky, dangerous, destructive, the list goes on.

Ca$h, young Ca$h didn't have anyone else than Chook, but then he did. Then he did have Darren, Harper, Quinni, Amerie, all of them. There isnt such a difference. Kavinsky doesn't have anything else (worth staying for, it seems) but Ronan has Gansey, has Gangsey.

Chook had chosen his lifestyle, Cash even offered Chook that he could change too, Chook declined and said that its his shit. He chose his future.

Kavinsky, too, had chosen his lifestyle, or maybe either of them couldn't think that they could get away from it. He chose his fate, by not getting down and getting killed by his own demon. It was his shit.

So back to the lake scene, now paralleling the last dreaming day and 4th of July.

Let me put these two scenes here, first from TRC

---

The difference between us and Kavinsky, Gansey whispered in Ronan’s head, is we matter.

“You don’t fucking need him,” Kavinsky said.

Ronan released the parking brake.

---

Chook: Look can we stop fucking about please. You're one of us. So why don't we just cut the shit and get back to how things were?

Cash: You don't get it, I can't.

Both, at the end refused to get back to whatever it was they had, they chose to get better.

While Chook & Kavinsky didn't. (yes im repeating this because theres so so so so so many times Ronan offered a possibility to Kavinsky and Kavinsky didn't take it because he couldn't have Ronan anyway (Cash wasn't that hopeful and asked only once))

Now, there's (still the lake) scene where Chook talks about how it was "me, who took care of you, me who.. , me me me." and theres Kavinsky, who taught Ronan how to dream.

More lines !

---

Cash: I haven't been taken in by some other world. I just saw ours for what it was. And it made me sick.

--

Going to how Cash and Ronan both, realised that the world they lived/could've chosen is not good. Is the wrong way and leads to more harm than good.

To the last part.

Cash telling Chook that he'd rather be dead than come back to Chook, go back to the world he now despises, (or always has.)

There's the way that Chook breaks when he hears that. The blinks his tears away, nods, gulps, sniffs, turns away and grunts, spits, acting fine. Tries the boat again and says, "Guess I just needed to show it a bit of love."

Now I haven't been able to actually get full sense of that line yet, but theres a deeper meaning to that (which rlly fucking annoys me that i dont know) But theres also Kavinsky when Ronan leaves the new dreamt up Camaro, hitting air, turning around, threatening, his voice shifting, expressing his feelings with rage but still hiding them. Like Chook did.

I'm aware there's probably many stories like this with character's like these, but their actions too, their personalities (not Ronan and Cash so much but I can see a (canon) Kavinsky variant in Chook, both running around with their pack of dogs.)

Anyway if you're as fucked as me and read this through, lmk what you think, (i repeated the same things over and over again but spare me)

ahhh what would happen if i unironically read rovinsky fics? is that punishable by death?

also have some of my very real thoughts while reading tgr (no spoilers)

kavinsky definitely has a hard on everytime he watches fast and furious, especially the first 3 movies