Qi-ge has always been the center of Shen Jiu's world
He was what kept Shen Jiu going
His light in the dark
And seeing his Qi-ge whole and hale, after having not come back as promised, shattered his world
And Qi-ge's silence prevented it from ever healing. So the shattered pieces of his life spin and cut and hurt
And his instinct is that this perceived rejection is his fault. Because he is "rotten from the start".
He must be
Because he wished Qi-ge had died rather than abandon him
That's why there is always tension and quarrels
Because when Yue Qingyuan gets too close Shen Jiu gets angry
"How dare Qi-ge act like he cares! It's too little too late! Stop lying to my face!"
But if Yue Qingyuan pulls away Shen Jiu gets angry
"How dare Qi-ge abandon me again! Hasn't he run away enough!? Is he ashamed of me!?"
As long as Yue Qingyuan is silent the pain will continue
But Yue Qingyuan has reasons for not telling
For one, what he went through was as traumatic as what Shen Jiu went through. There are still blood stains from where he beat his head in the caves, desperate to get back to the center of his world.
He has to be ready to speak his truth
Secondly, he thinks it's a poor excuse. In his mind he should have tried harder, left earlier, done something different somehow and kept his promise. All his reasons, now matter how valid we see it, are weak and pathetic in his eyes
To tell Shen Jiu the truth would feel to Yue Qingyuan like he was making excuses for failing. He feels it would be insulting to Shen Jiu to even imply he has legitimate reasons for failing because he doesn't feel it was legitimate
So even though simply talking would heal the rift it's not as easy a fix as it seems
But unless they do Shen Jiu will continue to be shattered glass orbiting Yue Qingyuan
Qijiu Week 2024 Day 4 - Feast (of your touch) πΈ
I think Shen Yuan being Shen Jiu's emotional support chronically ill child is a really fun dynamic
He leaves you for Shen Qingqiu
guys please help this family, gaza is in critical condition right now, but I don't have any money because I'm not yet working.
Don't stop supporting me.My brother is in dire need of your donation. He was injured again and suffered an amputation He is now in Al-Aqsa Martyrs Hospital in great need of treatment and pain relief, which will continue until he travels outside the country for treatment. Here there is an increase in all prices, whether health medicines or healthy food I have no choice but to raise funds for my brother and my family, as he also has a baby who needs milk And some of the proteins and vitamins that my brother needs, he also cannot provide his family with their own needs. I lost my little son. I don't want to lose what's left of my family I am happy again to help my family from this danger that we face. Please, friends, why do I have hope but you?My family is now facing severe famine. There is nothing to eat due to the closure of commercial crossings and the lack of humanitarian aid You are the only hope. I hope that this difficult situation will end, that the war will stop, and that we will live in peace But do not forget, my brother, I really want to treat him, it is an urgent matter. Thank you ππ΅πΈπ
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Muse and Artist
Being a muse is far exceptional, a role of no other.
The reason that is an artist's affection is just as exceptional.
Capturing the very thing you adore by your own hands feel just as luxurious as having your being appreciated and into a media of art.
Being deemed as worthy of an artist's affection to be immortalized as a piece of art, is as precious as creating it, able to capture your beloved into an art you made by your own hands.
To have the experience of loving, and being loved is one half of each other, a perfect pair.
For that is why, the role of a muse is indeed special, for you receive the tender affection of an artist.
And the role of the artist is as enjoyable, for you're blessed by their very own presence you deem as art not yet portrayed as an oil painting at the main entrance of an art museum.
(im new on tumblr and not a native speaker of english, im sorry if theres some embarassing mistakes! )
on the yqy gets truth serumed thing: we find out because during a peak lord meeting, lqg says smth smth sqq sux and i hate him, and usually what gets said is "shidi is permitted to his own opinion, of course, but blablabla-" what comes out the sect leaders mouth THIS time, however, is "oh fuck your mother you foul tempered brat; jiu can do as he pleases and so help me if he threatens to leave because of this i will use your skin as a rug ^^" no one was ready.
YES
Exactly this is the vibe I picture if Yue Qingyuan got dosed with a truth serum.
Someone says something about how Shen Qingqiu's whoring is dragging the sect's reputation down, but what could they really expect from a man like that. Complete with a meaningful glance. And of course it's expected that Yue Qingyuan will take his side, even if he tries to word it diplomatically, they all know how he is...
And then Yue Qingyuan says "I'm going to break your jaw and rip out your lying tongue for slandering Shen Jiu. We don't even have anything in the rules forbidding sex you stupid piece of-" at which point Liu Qingge and Mu Qingfang both tackle him because something is clearly wrong with him and they can't rule out possession right away.
Everybody is mortified when Mu Qingfang confirms it's a truth pollen, but Shen Qingqiu just sits there completely floored because Yue Qingyuan would commit violence for him? Despite everything?? Then why hasn't he done any of that?! At least put in a little more effort when standing up for him to discourage the rich idiots from picking on him! Useless shixiong.
They wrap Yue Qingyuan in immortal binding cables because they don't trust his word that he always thinks like this and the risk of him acting on it is not one the can take, and he kneels in front of Shen Qingqiu and tells him that he would do anything to have his trust, his love back. If Shen Jiu asks him to rip out his useless, treacherous tongue, to crack open his chest and hand him his still beating heart as proof of his love, he would do so even if it's the last thing he would do in this life.
And Shen Qingqiu swoons because okay, there's something fishy here, but that's the kind of devotion he wants (devotion to match his own) and he is still fucking mad, don't get him wrong, but keep talking he's listening.
For all of my American followers, a quick piece:
Bonus:
Au where Shen Jiu's ghost has been silently haunting Qing Jing Peak since Shen Yuan took over. And yeah he's pissed and hurt that everyone prefers the imposter but then Yue Qingyuan in the meeting says it would be better if he was as he was before and eh softens a bit
And he spends most of his time with Yue Qingyuan and sees him mourn in private because even though he doesn't know Shen Jiu has been replaced he knows his Xiao Jiu is gone
But he also spies on Shang Qinghua and the Imposter. Especially post immortal alliance conference and finds out about transmigration and the system and investigates MORE and finds the system
And Shen Jiu does was Shen Jiu does best and because of that when Shen Qingqiu is being accused left right and center in Jin Lan City an angry man with more then a passing resemblance to Shen Qingqiu shows up and says he didnt do any of that and couldn't get because he was too busy being sad and why are you believing a demon anyway? Leave his little brother alone you weirdos.
Shang Qinghua and Shen Qingqiu are the only ones to recognise him because that's the plant body! But that's not Shen Yuan! What the fuck!
Shen Jiu is having a lot of fun and it takes like 3 more seconds for Yue Qingyuan to recognise him
Anyway Shen Jiu lawyers them out of there and Cang Qiong is back home freaking out and ask him who he is:
Shen Jiu: i'm Shen Qingqiu's older brother
Liu Qingge: what's your name
Shen Jiu making deliberate eye contact with Shen Qingqiu: Shen Yuan
Shen Qingqiu: *faints*
[|π| scrawling around tumblr, does nothing to help the community]Shen Jiu defender and apologist, also a 79 enthusiastMultishipper and Multifandom, just awfully invested in svsss rn
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