This Was So Relatable The First Time I Read The Mangas

i have found another relationship to appreciate

these two big bros

i love love love to imagine how these two started to interact cuz theyre the older brothers in their family and toman. draken, chifuyu, baji, and kazutora all have the "only child syndrome", mikey is the middle child mess, we dont know anything about mucho's life and i think practically everyone ignores him and sanzu. so among the mess they found themselves in, these two created a tight bond no one ever expected.

their contrasting nature works: mitsuya with his polite way of talking, respects everyone unless they give him a reason not to, and generally is a friendly nice guy while smiley has a rough way with his language, disregards anyone who is not worth his time and once you peel back the layers is just as amiable as his twin. yet they share that responsibility of being the big brother, of taking care of their younger sibling/s. they get each other.

i imagine the day the kawata twins were introduced, nahoya and mitsuya locked eyes and nodded cuz they have that "older sibling" vibe to them that only the other one gets. they just went "i feel u, bro" and left mikey and draken to wonder wtf is going on.

they can also telepathically communicate!!! whenever one of them is having a rough time, the other acknowledges it and tries to destress them. nahoya catches mitsuya struggling to be strong and offers him a handkerchief, tells him its okay to cry it out. one day, mitsuya happens to stumble upon one of the kawata twins arguments and gently intervenes, explaining to souya that his brother just wants him to be safe and telling nahoya that he doesnt have to raise his voice and could also explain things in a soft voice because souya is not a three year old anymore.

i also would like to imagine these two eat together and just talk about the hilarious stuff their siblings have done or advice each other on how to get them to sleep quicker or what to give them for their birthdays.

"luna tricked mana into letting her cut her hair yesterday."

"seriously? man, shes got bal-"

"nahoya."

"confidence. shes got the confidence that every girl should have."

mitsuya sighs. "gods know what mom wouldve done to me if she saw half of mana's hair gone."

they just get along with each other and its a mystery to others. their bond became so close that they swore to take care of each others siblings in case something happens to them.

naturally, them being close also meant souya and luna and mana see each other very often. they get together every once in a while and although souya is older than luna and mana, the three of them are a pact and already have inside jokes. oh and hakkai's there too.

im so tired of never being the first choice. im so tired of craving intimacy so desperately and never having it within arms reach. im so tired of keeping all this anger and sadness and confusion as well as joy and happiness and love inside of myself, never with someone to share. im so tired of reaching out and caring for others and never receiving anything back. im so tired of smiling and nodding and shaking hands while my back hurts and my waist feels empty. im so tired of crying myself to sleep, wrapping my arms around myself because i dont have anyone to share my bed with. im so tired.

my teacher just asked us in the groupchat if we had our games period or not. IN THE GROUPCHAT THAT ONLY ADMINS CAN CHAT SMH

to all the true crime fans out there: pls pls pls, take care of yourself and your mental capacity to handle the horrible things about the world! as someone who enjoys true crime, sometimes i feel like i consume too much of it and it effects my mindset and moods. i've noticed i get bitter and often think about gorey things, remembering strangely specific details of a horrific case. it gets so difficult to be happy when there is a voice in the back of your mind going, "remember that case you heard about yesterday? the one where the girl was tortured for 40 days?"

sometimes, its okay - and important - to take breaks from consuming true crime things. take some time for yourself, tune out the horrible stuff, play music, dance, hang out with friends, whatever you want!

this is not to say you should not listen to true crime podcasts or watch true crime videos or read true crime books. it is simply a reminder that though there are bad things happening in the world, and bad people roam the streets, there are plenty of other things to be happy about!

a puppy taking its first step, a couple getting engaged, a brother reuniting with his sister, someone getting their drivers license, someone getting their first ever binder, a girl being able to see her worth, someone finally asking out their crush, a man walking out of an abusive relationship, two best friends meeting up after ten years, someone rescuing a cat from a busy road.... and much more!!!

we know first and foremost that humanity can be evil and not deserving of life ... but i hope that we remember that, sometimes, humanity can be beautiful and cherishable.

i go to the tokyo revengers hashtag and the first word i see is size kink

i have a very important question tk ask

is it kokonui or kokonoi?

*in a soft, broken whisper* but why not me?? why not me?? why couldnt it have been me instead? am i lacking something? was i not enough for you??? what did i do wrong?

also i have a feeling hes gonna name his kids after mikey

somehow

idk how

mikey 2.0???

mikey but spelled differently like the name mikey gives him???

pls he's such a softie. this just speaks to how sweet he rlly is, he couldve easily ignored the kids but he didnt. he tried to help them calm down and stop crying. he views himself as useless even though the steps he took would say otherwise. sure he might not have been successful in trying to get the kids to stop crying but the thing that matters is he tried to make the situation better.

thats better than just standing around and witnessing a kid getting lost from their parents.

he's naturally this kind and caring.

(he'd make a good father too. hina rlly did bag the most kind-hearted man.)

romantic or not, i really like the bond mitsuya and yuzuha have. something that really struck this thought was mitsuya saying how much he respects yuzuha for what she has done for hakkai. they are both the older siblings to their youngers ones, are protective and caring and loving, have to bear the responsibility of being a parent at a young age. they both know what it takes to be the shield for thier younger siblings. they both know how tiring it is, how much it hurts, how much one requires energy and the patience, how much they have to sacrifice themselves for the safety and happiness of their loved ones.

i really love that mitsuya recognizes the situation yuzuha is in because he himself has been in that same situation. its saying 'i know what youve been through, ive been there before, and youre so brave for being so strong. rest now, ill take care of things from here.' and yuzuha is so happy, so relieved, for being so appreciated because for so long it was kept a secret that she was the one taking taijus punches for hakkai. now theres someone who knows how exactly it feels like.

they both love their siblings and would do it all over again if it is to ensure their happiness and safety. but in the process theyre both starving themselves of their own happiness.

i relate to them so much it hurts.

so i did this

then, for shits n giggles, i thought, why don't i put myself??

then this happened

yeah... didnt expect to get attacked like that😀