Asymptotic

What's left in this world?

The dreams crushed

By love or lack of it

The waves of ruins

crashing nearby

While the light of hope

Setting on the horizon

The silence sings along

With our pain

Untill the mind craves oblivion

To run towards insanity

To seek shelter from reality

To me...

You were my pain

A cruel feeling

That consumed my mind.

Till I forgot everything else

You are all I thought

And you are all I felt

You were my anchor

That didn't let me surface

I was bound to you

Until the day I drowned

And it was relief I felt

With the release

Of my last breath..

To you,

I was your shadow

Always following you

In stormy nights

In grainy lights

Even in your darkest hours

When you were too immersed

In your own darkness to see me.

I was your air

Essence of your life

But unnoticed

Until the day I left

And you realised

What suffocation is.

I was your sun

You frowned

Whenever you looked at me

Hid yourself

In my presence

But you didn't realise

Without me

No dawn is coming.

To you,

I was your shadow

Always following you

In stormy nights

In grainy lights

Even in your darkest hours

When you were too immersed

In your own darkness to see me.

I was your air

Essence of your life

But unnoticed

Until the day I left

And you realised

What suffocation is.

I was your sun

You frowned

Whenever you looked at me

Hid yourself

In my presence

But you didn't realise

Without me

No dawn is coming.

You are right my lady

I'm no one's judge or jury

I lack a heart to know your beauty

Nor am I a commander of truth

What do I say; what do I do?

When I'm just your eyes

Reflected back at you.

Mirror, mirror on the wall;

Save your breath, save your words;

What makes you my judge and jury;

You see an image, not my beauty.

Whoever says mirrors don't lie,

When your very reflection is inverted.

It's all a lie

They tell you that the world is round,

That what you give, also comes around.

Then, why was I given deceit,

When I offered my trust?

Why, after all the secrets I shared,

You left me defenceless and bared.

So, tell me universe,

Was it all a lie?

They say time heals all wounds,

But mine gets sore with every ticking sound.

For once in my life,

I lowered the fences guarding my heart.

You smiled at me,

I thought, I already got the world.

But then you slashed me open,

Just to see what colour I bleed,

Did you ever stop to wonder,

how I would feel?

They say it's better to have loved and lost,

Than never to have loved at all.

And forgive me universe for I don't believe you,

As it changed my notion of life leaving it askew.

Before I used to see the beauty of starry sky,

Now all I see is the swarming darkness.

As it left me stuck in a time,

the world long since forgot.

As it left me Stranded on a road,

people no longer venture.

So, forgive me universe for saying this,

but love is nothing but an illusion,

like the beauty of the ocean,

as it lures the guileless heart,

only to steal it's breath.

Misshapen

Sometimes I feel a weird kinship

with those misshapen clay pots,

That lay discarded and forgotten.

At first like a new born baby,

It too sits on the centre of potter's wheel,

Soaking up all the attention it needs.

But as the life goes on,

And the wheel of time is spun,

Just like the clay in the hands of potter,

We are strained by the hands of humanity,

Bending to the world's whim,

Smoothing out our deformity,

To be accepted by the society.

But when after all those pottery,

We still turn out misshapen,

Just like those deformed clay pots,

We're easily discarded and forgotten.

In the crowds

I've never found a place of my own

Yet yearn to loose myself in them.

You were something wild

And I'm self destructive from the start

May be that's why I loved you

So you could tear me apart....

I wanna forget for a while

Forget the rules of the world

Forget about this heaviness resting on my shoulder

And the pressure around me that has already created a crack

For a while, I wanna forget

The mocking memories

I wanna close my eyes

To the terrible possibilities

For a while, I want the voices to be quite

That's the only wish I have

For a while, make me feel alive

*A Lie*

A lie

That's how all of it started

A lie that you told yourself

With such conviction,

Even I believed it

A wound

I was trying to forget

Was opened all over again

You said that you're the balm,

And also the healer.

But only succeeded

In making it wider

But a day came,

Your delusion shattered.

You realised, you're not the hero

You believed yourself to be.

I do not know,

If you noticed or not

When my lips smiled

And said, 'Don't sweat it.'

My eyes were struggling

To hide the grief.