How Did I End Up Non Stop Smiling Over Stupid Crushing Quotes On Pinterest And Ended Up With A Private

i know i talked about buying the tweed jacket in the end but i didn’t have enough money so i bought a puma hoodie instead lmao

broke academia things

curling up in the corner of a public library and pretending you live there 

taking pictures of the ruins of your local cathedral because you need those aesthetic pictures for your blog

staring longingly at the tweed jacket you’ll never afford in the shop window

wearing the same red turtleneck (the only one you happen to own) in every outfit you can in a hundred different ways

staring longingly at the tweed jacket in the shop window

impulsively buying the tweed jacket and putting yourself in financial debt for the sake of aesthetic (totally worth it) 

i miss when new years was exciting

things i've been doing lately ( and things i should do be doing)

- notion, i found just messing around and looking at inspo on pinterest helped me a lot more than looking at videos - watching videos for learning - corbettmaths vids are soooo helpful - trying not to stress (kind of failing but we'll get there) - making a revision timetable for school and sticking by it kind of a lackluster supposedly weekly post but we'll get there eventually until next time! Amimi

the person reblogging this from you is rooting for you to have a happy, healthy, and successfull 2022

april anniversaire (always awful)

anniversaire = bday en francais oui oui mon francais est progression (yes yes my french is improving) i have my official french speaking exam in 4 days

i'm not prepared. i hope i can grind some revision and get a B. it was bday on the 15th! sweet 16! i had a nice countdown with friends and nice messages and wishes. otherwise, a pretty normal day i think lack of confidence is my fatal flaw similar to that of macbeths "vaulting ambition" being his hamartia. i'll ttyl! - Amimi

how to live life like a ghibli film

1. go out in nature more. every studio ghibli film has some aspect of nature intertwined with the storyline. sometimes its hard to get the energy to go outside, but just going out on your deck or opening the window in your room or taking a walk around the block is enough. if you feel like it, go for a hike! go into the woods and look at every flower, and every tree. look at the mushrooms and streams and notice the beauty of them. look at nature like you’ve never seen it before. wake up at 4 and watch the sunset. put plants around your room. realize how beautiful the world is around you. appreciate it. 

2. get a hobby! this step is certainly easier said than done, but its so worth it. struggling with mental illness makes it especially hard to get a hobby, but its very important that you don’t spend the majority of your time on social media. Start small. If you want to start drawing get a coloring book and fill in a picture with beautiful markers! If you want to write find a random prompt online, give yourself 30 minutes and see what you can come up with. Want to try baking? Start with an easy recipe, like chocolate chip cookies, and share them with your family or friends, or just yourself! Try out a bunch of hobbies, and see what you like best. Maybe you like making jewelry or writing poems or creating digital collages or making video edits or decorating your room or riding a bike or sewing or reading. The possibilities are endless, and getting a hobby you enjoy is very important, and fun.

3. start appreciating small things and noticing details. I don’t know how to explain this step, but in studio Ghibli films, small things always stick out. There are beautiful tiny details that make the story so much more magnificent. small details make the studio Ghibli films what they are. maybe on your way to school/work the sky was a really pretty color. Or the tea you made in the morning was perfectly steeped. appreciate small details of life that you don’t normally notice.

4. appreciate food. Pay attention to your food. If you can, try and make/bake your own food! But if you can’t, just be mindful of your food. Try not to eat while you’re on your phone. Dedicate times to just eating. Appreciating the food in front of you. Make yourself the ponyo drink with milk and honey, or ponyo ramen! Make yourself your own blend of tea like the Baron!

5. be kind and help others. Being kind doesn’t have to be a grand gesture, it can be smiling and waving at a baby in a café, or helping your mom finish the dishes, or paying for a friend’s coffee. Small gestures not only put good out into the world, but they also make you feel better. When you can, help others. Try volunteering at an animal shelter, or babysit for your aunt without charging her, or just listen to your friend when they’re going through something and be there for them. In every Ghibli film, the main character is always helping others, and being kind. Try to be like kiki, when she returned the pacifier to the mother who forgot it, or like chizuru from the cat returns, who risks her life to save a cat. Kindness comes in all shapes and forms, so just try your best to do what you can!

6. be your most authentic self. Stay true to who you are. dress how you’d like. Cut your hair like you’ve always wanted to. Stay confident and true to yourself. We all feel insecure sometimes, but we need to remind ourselves that we are great. Don’t try and force yourself to be someone you aren’t. Kiki felt insecure in her abilities as a witch, but she stayed true to herself, and believed in herself, and it paid off. Love and appreciate yourself, just the way you are.

7. (not really a tip but a fun suggestion) start collecting something! This is just an extra step that I wanted to include because I think its nice. But start a collection of things that interest you. It could be anything! Candles, stamps, teacups, antique figurines, 19th century photos, lip balms, books, key chains, flowers, hats. The choices are endless.

of course i find out the black phone is finally on the istreaming website i normally use when i need to sleep so i can get up for ncs, i'm gonna oijfiojgoithjhion. this is my motivation to get through five days

🌹 a flower for everyone not feeling their best today

academic slouch

i’ve been in such a weird phase lately, like normally i do pretty well on exams and tests and pay attention and keep everything neat but the other day i got less then 50% on a test and i just didn’t care? i’m weirded out by my own reactions lol. i can’t tell if i’m just losing my touch or if its because i’ve been so disconnected since returning to school from quarantine

“I don’t think that there’s anything worse than being ordinary.”

American Beauty (1999)