Amimi - Blog Posts
a reminder for you (but mainly for me)
the ideal university experience is a myth - all your mutuals on instagram posting about all their cool parties and cool friends don't live everyday like that, they probably don't look like that everyday either, people will only show you their best moments. people can be immature in uni just like they were in college and in school, coming to uni doesn't suddenly make you mature and neither does it make anyone else either. friendship breakups and all that petty shit happens to everyone. you're there to get a degree and not make friends, if the living environment or the people put you off, do you really want it that badly? i think i lost all my uni friends today because of a misunderstanding, some of them are in my classes and one is my flatmate who i can't avoid. but its only my foundation year and i'll meet other people next year. and when people have real jobs they have to work with people they dont like aswell, so its kinda like practice for the future. i think i'm gonna get back into movie reviews, drawing and painting again, and i was considering starting fencing? i think it would be fun. and i'm going to take my iron medication and vitamins too. because being alone isn't the end of the world. until next time (which is probably soon) Amina
The Boy and The Beast (2015)
Following the story of Ren, a nine year old boy who runs away and becomes the apprentice of Kumatetsu, a brash beast. Together, they fight obstacles within themselves and one another amidst a journey to save the world. To be completely honest, I haven't watched any movies in a long long time, but I was on a nostalgic spiral the other day and one of my childhood youtubers TheAnimeMan recommended this movie in one of his videos. My interest in this film was further sparked as it's directed by Mamoru Hosoda, the mastermind behind Wolf Children (2012), a film which I love dearly.
The narrative takes an alternate twist on the structure of a Heroes Journey. I loved how Ren and Kumatetsu defy the typical dynamic of master and student, their dynamic fuelling their character arcs on both sides. Films within this genre often change the core personalities of their protagonists within their arcs, however Ren and Kumatetsu both remain lovably the same in that aspect,stubborn, boisterous and impulsive. The world of Jutengai is vivid, colourful and immersive, in both visuals and character. Soft world building is impeccably done and draws you in as you learn about the kingdom alongside Ren. His journey in identity as he wavers between the two worlds is something I relate immensely to. There's not a lot more I can say without giving away spoilers, but I will mention I love the dynamic between Ren and Ichirohiko, and the unexpected friendship between Ren and Jiromaru. Please do watch the film, I heavily encourage you all! As I've returned to tumblr with a warmth in my heart. I hope I can watch more like it. Until next time!! Amina
STOP WAITING FOR SOMETHING THAT WILL NEVER COME!
THERE WILL BE NO CALL TO ADVENTURE, YOU HAVE TO CHASE IT YOURSELF!!
whats up what's up, my school IT admin has gone a bit mad with power and blocked social media, films, games etc from any device linked to our school system which means this blog has taken quite a blow as the only legit means of watching I have are film4 and BBCIPlayer so I can't just do whatever I like now. nevertheless i thought I'd let you know that this blog has not been abandoned at all and I've just taken some time away from social media to try and get back on track with school - however I aim on posting my remaining drafts and uploading my Jan recap next week!!
ps - if you know any other legit movie websites then let me know
see you soon!
Aminaurrrr
september struggles
Sat 30th Sep - 22:06 what's up! it's the start of a new (and for me, final) academic year.
this month has been so much and so little at the same time? if that even makes sense. i'm slowly learning to use an actual camera. so far i've borrowed two different models from my youth foundation, the canon eos m50 and the canon 200d with a 50mm kit lense. I found the m50 really fun to use and i picked up on how to use it really quickly! i had more difficulty with the 200D, or more specifically the ability to zoom in and out? i looked up tutorials on youtube but i couldn't find anything. anyways it was really zoomed in which i didn't really like seeing as i'm learning to use cameras for the sake of making a film portfolio, so i found i liked the other camera more as it felt more flexible. on the more school-focused side of things, i had a ton of trouble on my media coursework, which i found incredibly hard to start on - the aim was to make a film magazine which i haven't done a lot for yet - my teacher said my initial drafts feel more like a fashion or editorial magazine than anything else i had aimed to catch up for sociology entirely, but i only managed to do one of 4 sections.
i think the first month back to school is always the hardest, it weirds me out thinking this is my last first month back ever. growing up feels weird. until next time! Amina p.s - times flown by so fast, its weird looking back and editing this in my drafts, i'm somehow posting on new years eve but its better late than never!
what up!! do you ever randomly have memories of complete strangers pop into your head?! I recall this one lady with blond hair and glasses and her ginger curly haired son from the line in poundland when I was younger. I don't remember what they said but I think I was anxious about being left in the line alone while mum popped off to get something she'd forgotten? she was so kind. I still remember her face so vividly.
an adjourned august abridgement
when it comes to alliteration thesaurus.com is an angel.
i realise this post is incredibly late, it's simply slipped my mind. to be completely honest, not alot went down during august, i visited bradford to reunite with my lovely younger cousins! i went shopping in cannon mills, which i'd like to think is the bengali/pakistani equivalent of a farmers market, and went shopping, and went shopping, did i mention shopping?
we did facemasks, enjoyed a vibrant funfair! went to the park to push around my cousins on the swings, visited my grandmas old house with my favourite cousin, visited my cousins new house, lots and lots of arguments between cousins and being told off and lectured for making the younger ones cry and visited other cousins (take a shot for every time i said the word cousin(s) ) in terms of schoolwork, not a whole lot occurred but towards the end of the month, (as in the 31st of august, the day of the deadline) i entered for the Immerse Essay Competition! in the film studies category! that was an experience in and of itself and after the results are announced (which to be honest, i'm not very hopeful for) i'll be sure to post about the competition in detail along with my essay! that's all for now! until next time! Amina
Warm Bodies (7 Days 7 Movies)
because sometimes watching a movie about the undead can make life feel worth living again. Warm Bodies (2013) takes place in an apocalyptic world filled with your typical brain-eating walking dead. Starring Nicholas Hoult and Teresa Palmer as R and Julie, ) the horror/romance (a combination of genres that sounded quite odd to me at first but works so well within the movie) takes on a love story in a comedic, dark way I haven't seen before. I first took interest in this movie simply because of Nicholas Hoult after seeing him in Skins as Tony Stonem but I ended up really liking this movie for a lot more than just the casting. If you haven't already caught on by the obvious character naming, the story is loosely based off of Romeo and Juliet and does well in referencing Shakespeares' tragedy here and there, within not only the obvious obstacles of love between zombies and humans but the persona of Julies' father and more significantly, the balcony scene - which was by far my favourite although I won't describe too much as I'd like you to watch it for yourself. In terms of writing, the dialogue and narration are witty and fun, R's inner monologue was one of the most enjoyable parts of the film, and I loved the contrast between his thoughts and physical actions. I also liked the added background, the reason as to why the undead act how they do, eat what they do, and so on. Subtle details across the board are so well done (To give an example or two: R not blinking until the water scene, colors becoming more saturated the more he becomes human) and the visuals are so damn pleasing. The soundtrack too, makes the movie what it is, after watching I was listening to Midnight City on repeat. Although not as typical, it's one of the best romances I've seen.
I hope you liked this post! be sure to let me know your thoughts and i'll be sure to take your feedback into account when writing next time! I thought I'd post this one a bit earlier than the others, and depending on the response I'll adjust my writing. until next time! Amina
july (juvenile jollification)
Sunday 6th August 1:35am writing this a bit late because im in a bit of a slump.
starting off the month with a bang, i went a bit of an adventure during homestudy (not very studyblr of me) and ventured off to birmingham with my bestfriend! it was sooo cool, we didn't explore everything, just bullring and the station, as well as the highstreet? i think its called (im really tired, forgive the lackluster writing). the highlight of the day was definitely trying wingstop, we each picked a flavour, lemon pepper and spicy korean bbq with cajun fries and... oh. my. g o d. i can understand the craze because it's been a month and my cravings have not stopped. lets just say the many many many runs to kfc and other fast food places can no longer satisfy my hunger. i bought a ton of clothes for the upcoming school year too! multiple ruched tops in brown, cream and pink, a long pink midi skirt, a brown mockneck sweater and a beige one too! oh and a cable knit pink cardigan (if you can't tell i like pink lolol) school ended on the 17th? i think it was, which is the wrap up of year 12. as far as the last day of school can go, i think mine was really good! they set up a bouncy castle, sumo wrestling and more in the school gym and it was so fun! i hadn't intended on actually using or trying anything but i ended up being spontaneous. i can gladly say that i crushed my opponent in sumo wrestling 3-0 so fear me. i grabbed oodles with two of my friends, which btw if you haven't tried. you NEED to. its to die for. udon noodles reign supreme. since the holiday started i haven't done much, mainly watching shows and movies like 25 21, and the second season of the summer i turned pretty - yi jin and jeremiah 4 lyfe. i promise the 7 days 7 movies series will be out soon! til next time! Amimi
7 days 7 movies!
coming up soon! a series of properly written reviews ( to satisfy your needs for some properly thought out content ) movies i'm thinking of right now: warm bodies the truman show edward scissor hands isle of dogs summer of 84 hugo the goldfinch this isn't the official list, just some stuff i've jotted off the top of my head, i want to include a variety of genres and such though (in particular maybe another animated movie) so if you have any suggestions then be sure to comment and let me know! until then, Amimi
june (jolly jraining)
............
really had to force the jalliteration (jmastermind ji jknow)
also, before anyone tells me that the title doesn't make sense
yes it does.
sorry for the lack of posts in may, it was a mess and nothing was very new from april so i thought it wouldn't be very notable to write about.
this month has been a whirl wind of events. most notably, i applied and got into a summer residential at the University of South Wales, i'm afraid because of my parents and their safety concerns, i won't be able to attend. i also got tickets to an open day at a film school in London! whether or not i'll be able to attend in July is still quite unclear.
i also went on a bus and travelled outside of my own city for the first time, which was super, super stressful but also really exciting! even if it was a village only 20 minutes away, the friend i was supposed to meet slept in that day and had me bawling on the empty street before grabbing the first bus i saw and hoping i was going the right way. another friend from mosque ended up taking me out to try Baskin Robbins (their chocolate brownie fudge ice cream is to die for)
if there's anything i'm going to always remember from this month though, it has to be my first time at the theatre to see WICKED! at The Apollo Victoria.
I can't even begin to describe it, every detail was on point, the staging felt so real it was surreal, it felt more like a movie than a live performance with all the effects and fantastical props (especially the Wizards giant puppet) and costuming (the emerald city costumes were my favorite) the *minor spoilers* love triangle was very unexpected when it was first introduced, I like how perfectly the narrative fit with the original story of The Wizard of Oz instead of twisting it. Defying Gravity gave me goosebumps. if i had to have one complaint, it would be that the crowds cheering didn't let me catch every word.
After the show was over we got to have our own little qna with the main ensemble, i can't remember everything off the top of my head but the two parts that stuck with me were the answers on starting their careers and being constantly rejected at first. Fieros actor had said "it's not rejection, it's redirection" and the actor for Glinda saying that everyone has a thing "let's say yours is wearing pink, even if you get rejected because of that keep doing it, you'll eventually find someone else who loves wearing pink too". She had called it a weird analogy afterwards, but it was on repeat in my head and pink happens to be my favourite color to wear so it felt a little special coming from someone so cool.
that same day we got to walk around London and all i can say is that I've never felt so at home. well, until next time! Amina
april anxiety (among additional activities)
Thursday 23rd April 2023 - 7:32pm
Alliteration! so stuffs gone down this month lol!!! i'm not doing so well right now but i think collecting my thoughts and letting 52 people read them is a fun way of coping. i'm really behind on school work, like half a year behind due to constantly being ill. if i don't catch up i was told i might have to sit AS-Level Sociology (40% of an A-level) which means in turn that i'd have to stay in school for an extra year sitting another subject not of my choice. they want a meeting aswell which really really really can't happen currently, i don't have school equipment but hopefully i can pull through?!?!?! idk maybe things will get better soon until next time! Amina
ps - this has been sitting in my drafts and its now june... idk how that happened
7 days 7 movies
a series of posts i'd like to do where i watch a movie and write it about it the same day, every day for one week (starting Monday June 26th because I've got exams rn). send me recommendations either via my inbox or even the comments of this post and i'll get back to you soon! know that any and all recommendations will be appreciated!
does anyone have any tips/tricks/recommendations for cv-writing, job applications and looking for opportunities like internships and summer programs? trying to get admin/managerial and/or film/art related places has been really hard as a student still in first year of sixth form. please interact and let me know as any and all input would be appreciated <3
january journey (jovialess)
i don't think jovialess is even a word but it is now. sorry this post is a bit late, i've been super busy. this month felt so long??? so many things have happened that i can't recall them off of the top of my head. fell out with some people, had my first mock exams (they weren't amazing but i wasn't crying so that's something!) stressed and stressed and stressed about school work. like it didn't actually hit me until now that i'm in sixth form. growing up feels weird. until next time Amimi
emotion is the hardest thing. you can know why you feel a certain way, what makes you feel that way, every detail inside and out but you can't actually put a stop to it. you'll just be going on with things and realise you don't feel that way anymore, for how long do things have to go on for until that realisation though. i'm stressing myself out by waiting.
movies (for when you want to cry) pt2!
link to pt 1 miracle in cell no 7 (live action, kdrama) - this movie made me cry so much i couldn't bring myself watch it again. the story of a little girl and her father, a man with an intellectual disability, who was falsely imprisoned and sentenced to death. 20th century girl (live action kmovie 2022)
i watched the spoilers and prepared myself for it yet its still so crushing? na bora is a highschool girl collecting information her best friends crush hyunjin (her bestfriend being away for surgery) while doing so, she encounters someone who she falls in love with along the way. hotarubi no mori e (anime 2011) - the shortest film on this list with a runtime of only 45 mins hotaru is a small child when she first meets gin, a spirit who seems not to age like humans do. after her first encounter with him one holiday while staying over at a relatives. the book thief (war/drama, 2013) Liesel is a young girl, living with her foster parents during the war. She steals books from the mayors house and bonds with a boy named Rudy. i hope you all liked this post! until next time! Amimi
i just wanna throw it out there that louis partridge would be amazing as darlington if there was ever a movie or series. I NEED HIM AS DARLINGTON. like...
tell me he isn't him.
movies (for when you want to cry)
believe it or not, my blog was supposed to be all about movies and film (thus the name filminah, innovative i know) i don't know if i enjoy torturing myself or what but here are some movies that made me cry. when marnie was there (anime 2014) - follows teen anna sasaki through a journey of self exploration that takes place due to a mysterious girl she meets named marnie. now, this is definitely not the best ghibli film ever, a little awkward at times especially in the dub but yonebayashi hiromasa does not know how to make a bad movie. the twist was kinda expected but it's ghibli and it's so damn charming you can't help but get attached to anna and marnie and feel everything the way they do. i want to eat your pancreas (anime 2018) - the title is weird, i know. an introverted boy, haruki finds out the secret of his very popular, bubbly polar-opposite-of-him classmate named sakura. she is affected with a severe pancreatic disease. the way they build the connection between the main two characters is so so good to watch, fulfilling what you know will happen in the most unexpected way and showing the aftermath of the movies major events. a silent voice (anime 2016)- this was the first movie i ever found sad enough to make me cry actual tears. ishida shoyo bullied a nishimiya shouko in middle school. shouko is deaf. now a highschooler, after being unable to commit s**c*d* he finds himself becoming friends with shouko, helping her get better and maybe himself along the way. imo this film is one of the best representations of a lead with struggling mental health and they show that incredibly well in both visuals and dialogue, kyoto animation always impresses with their work and the sound work is impeccably done with the way they establish an atmosphere or put you in a characters shoes, embodying them. link to pt 2 (to be added)
christmas eve, wanting to leave
i will never understand people who create drama and then act like nothing happened? like??? working on my notion set up in an attempt to try and organise myself so i can be prepared to work nonstop for the next week and catch up on all my work. i will post screenshots of my set up once it's finished!! i got my own library card and bank account yesterday!!! i'm so excited, it'll be so fun and like i'm a real adult and useful :DD being able to take out books for myself!! the bank thing is okay aswell i guess. i'm trying out adult fiction woah. the book i chose being ninth house by leigh bardugo. i'm stoked!! the sequel of ninth house and the second book in the trilogy is coming out this january and i can't wait! hopefully i'll be able to purchase both books from my local bookstore which will be super cute. i already know i'm gonna devour it in two days and then have to wait an agonising three years for the third and final book to be released D: BUT there is apparently a TV series depicting the Alex Stern series in development?? and with the second book coming out as well as the success of Shadow and Bone and it's second season i think that we'll hear more about it in 2023. so far i'm halfway through and i really love the characters of darlington and alex, when i first started reading i imagined darlington as a lot older until i heard his real name and MINI SPOILER caught the romantic implications between them. i really like how detailed and descriptive it is, however the first two chapters are quite confusing but i have discovered the amazing hack of reading the glossary and explanations at the back first. i'm gonna continue reading sooo that's all for now! Amimi
beach weather is going on tour next year?if i get to go it will be my first concert!!! been having a lot of firsts lately, it's almost the end of december and the end of 2022. my monthly diarypost and yearly wrap up are going to be really long i think! also this is my 150th post!! only somehow took me 4 years - by that logic it'll only take me another 28 years to get to 1000 lolol
recently i've been having those kind of dreams where its just better scenarios of things i regret and mistakes i made but done right- mended friendships and happier times. it's so real and so tangible that when i wake up it takes me a few minutes to realise. maybe i'll even remember text convos and then i'll check and realise it's not there. that's it's not real after all. i have a theory that dreams are just created from thoughts and repressed memories that linger in the back of your mind, which come to the forefront and get muddled together which is why they become so weird (well at least ik some of my dreams are).
winter wakeup (ill rambles about studies n clothes)
imo winter only starts when it's december - i heard that some people count november as winter aswell? like nooo?? november is its own season. nightmare before christmas kinda season. it's currently half 3 in the afternoon and i'm still in bed because i'm sick, i had a ton of sociology work that was due today so i think i'm going to be slaughtered by an angry mike wazowski (my sociology teacher) next friday. i think there's a stomach bug going around school or something. i ordered stuff from shein (ear muffs, a scarf and leg warmers) and i'm praying it comes early because according to the website it'll come literally the afternoon of my trip and if it does i'm going to cry bc i'm going to be halfway to london by the time it arrives if that's the case. coming up with winter outfits is so hard? like the outfit almost always consists of your coat, shoes and bottoms from the knee down. idk abt you but i don't have a coat or shoe collection. that brings me to actually cute winter trends though. EAR MUFFS??!! I'm soooo glad those are coming back because they are v cute!!. puffer jackets are always cool, idk how to feel about long puffer jackets bc imo they're never very puffery, just a sad deflated blanket. it's like if santa was victoria secret model kinda thin vibes. just doesn't look right. i LOVEE flares with all my heart!!! they give me bratz doll vibes. super super cute!! i helped someone w work yesterday (it wasn't much effort i was just copy and pasting and typing stuff) and he paid me :DD i think i'll buy some new gold chokers bc two of my other ones snapped :(. I also need some new dangly earrings because i lost my fav ones D: rn, jewellery, claw clips,makeup and movies is the only thing keeping me alive. i really need to catchup on a level media homeworkwand pull a folder worth of work together this weekend. what do i even put in it?? pls help ok i'm gonna go back to sleep bc i feel gross but there's a giant spider in the bathtub so i have to wait for it to disappear. until later probably lol Amimi
november nutshell
26/11/22 nonsensical. as of writing this it's 1:18pm, my rooms a mess and i feel gross. this month has been really shit i'm not going to lie but i'll write about it anyways because who knows, it'll probably be a turning point that i'll look back on. there's been friend drama, dropping grades and a confession i stressed over for a year, took slander for and threw my exams away for, that boiled down to absolutely nothing. my efforts and tears meant nothing at all. i guess it's had it's good moments now and then though. like the BBC Share Your Story Tour! that visited my academy which was really unexpected and cool. i feel kind of numb after yesterday to be honest. i don't know what to think anymore. that aside, there's some cool things going on and things to look forward to. in art we're starting an independent project to test how well we work without support, simply being given a list of themes to choose from and interpret however we like. the theme i chose was telling stories. that sends me back to the BBC share your story tour in which the story of BBC Correspondent Navtej Johal really stuck with me. i decided i'll create work based off of not only fairytales and fantasy, fiction and myths, but real stories aswell and hopefully he replies to my email! my final piece for this independent project is what i'm the most stoked for, it'll be a popup book with a handpainted cover. whether it'll tell a story or simply be one spectacular scene i'm not sure yet, but i'm really excited to make something. there's also a trip to london i'll be going to with school! which will be super fun. thinking of all these cool things has really cheered me up, so thank you to the people who read these little posts and like because it makes me want to keep writing these, i'd love to see you in the comments and interact with you more! until next time! Amimi
october onslaught (obstacles and others)
01:01 - Friday 28th October that title does not make sense but i spent a good however many minutes scrolling through synonyms on thesaurus.com to come up with it and i refuse to waste those efforts.
so sixth form turned up a notch in the past month, it's been flashing by really quick, i'm unorganised and flustered by every little thing - not to mention how thrown off i am by not only the sheer amount of work, but how much i have to try and catch up on due to sick days. now that i don't partake in anything other than school (as i've dropped my religious studies), i find myself growing really restless. i'm considering getting a job? but i'd have to make a cv and figure out how to make a bank account and tons of other things before even considering applying. idk i feel kinda dumb for not knowing these things already. it's half term holiday! well, almost the end seeing as i have the weekend and then have to go back to school. i plan on somehow plowing through all of the work i've missed (particularly sociology) and being fully up to speed by friday. wish me luck! i'll probably be doing tons of school posts to motivate me so i'll see you soon. until next time! ~Amimi
HELP, all the tiktoks about the new dahmer series made me rediscover my AHS phase, and i'm telling you the GRIPPP evan peters has on me rn is even tighter than when i used to cry myself to sleep at 12 knowing i couldn't have him
september start, struggles and sixth form
the alliteration came so naturally to me i didn't even realise. soooo september has been something. starting sixth form has been striking to say the least. i thought i'd instantly take to my subjects but surprisingly i haven't. they've been engaging and i've definitely enjoyed media the most, i'm so stoked for when we actually get to make our own projects and such later on in the school year. i have somehow already managed to lose my fine art folder but it's just experimental work so it's whatever. why is september like january? speaking of september its officially autumn yayayayayayay. i can't wait to buy some jumpers and such to go with the brown and beige flares i bought!! i'm doing my best to channel my dark academia phase and romanticise school so i'll do better! oh and my math gcse was sent off for a remark - i was only two marks off of a 7 (A) so i'll tell you how that turns out when i hear back! i gtg catch up with sociology work, i'm sorry if this post was a bit bland but there's not a lot to talk about from this month. until next time! ~Amimi posting this a bit late because i forgot to queue this but oh well.